Looking through the snipet that Yahoo! News provided, got to know that there is actually alot of natural disaster happened these few days. According to my analysis, every year's September have alot of natural disaster or incident that lost alot of human lives.
This year happened the same thing, Katrina, Taiwan earthquake, Japan typhoon, Medan air crash and the list goes on if you read the news.
If you look through the history of earthquake, typhoon... do you know it normally happened around September and also March.
When i am happily discover my live in Australia, i always tot winter would be cold n lotsa rain n wind. Who knows!! now winter has gone, n most of the time winter has got sunny day, not much of wind, not too heavy rain.
However, strom happened once around April, and these few days, it has strong strong wind. Yea now is September also.
Do you ever wonder why?
becuz the season is changing, the earth has a different position, and that makes the gravity different, cuz the moon position with the earth position has changed to 2 totally extreme side. Erm.... hard to explain, but it has something to do with the weather, the earth. When the weather is going wild, we can't expect we will have smooth days to goes rite!
So do human behaviour, old people said when the moon turn round every month, weirwoves appears. This is true, becuz human behaviour are closely related to the environment.
I myself, getting emo lately.
I felt i has been bullied, not like the convention bully though, but i would like to use this word to describe it.
I wanted to smile and i wanted to laugh, but i just can't, becuz i don't want to be nice and then people would bully me again.
So many things happened, maybe i am a lil bit sensitive around this season changed, emo come, so i found all this negative things.
I know i might sounds stupid, idiotic, asshole to say this, but am truly felt this way.
That day, i went for training at Pizza Express, then after i got back, wah my flat got lotsa people, becuz they are still here for the so called 'SUSHI FESTIVAL'. I didn't want it to be held this day, cuz i have been eating sushi as dinner for 2 continuos days, but what i can do even if i say no, the power is not with me, then i have to follow what the group says. Even if i gone working. Yea they are nice enuf to left me SOME sushi, which is not even fill my whole stomach. Irony enough, they said it is god damn cheap to eat this way, only $4.70 eat until vomit!! I wasn't unpset about the small portion i had until i felt hungry in the midnight. What lit up my fire is that the pizza that i brought home, it is supposed to be my dinner, n yet i only got one slice. When i am tiring gone back home, n i saw so many people, ok i knew my pizza gonna share it anyway, not to say i am selfish or not willing to share, i am prepared to share. But not with people grabbing it, open it, start to eat it without me saying so. Some people i am willing to share, but this small piece of pizza gotta share among 7-8 people!!! and so i got only one slice of it, i have been starving when i send my delivery, smelling all the crispy tasty pizza smell inside the car and yet i can't eat it. Until i got home, and yet i don't really have enuf energy to entertain people, seeing the images of people grabbing the pizza. Tat is horrible enuf.
Even when i open the door n got home and they make me felt like superstar.... haha people are actually hogging on the pizza that i am holding. I wasn't pissed at all that time, i only start to turn emo when i got hungry n got to know that i still have to pay for that 8 pieces of 烂饭团. I am not sure the box that they left for S whether she would pay. Cuz what i saw from that box, she has got more pieces than i got, and every pieces that i got are not the real sushi rice. I have to pay, clean up the mess, eating without enjoyment, not even fill my stomach, and have to stay happy also. Later at nite, even got insulted with pictures taken of my string bra.
Although i am the youngest, but that doesn't mean i can be bullied lo. (well maybe not bully, maybe i am just being forgotten)
Another case, i felt i was being bully becuz i am not the dominant people in the group, script being change, idea being covered.... becuz when she change for the first time, i never make any sounds, i never protest, cuz i wanted to have a good relationship in the future, if not i would suffer even more.
I am always the eldest in the family, people listen to me, people follow me. When i am outside, i am being nice, try to pretend i am happy, try to help other people when i really feel like helping even though sometimes i do show my pissed face, or even a 串 look. But sometimes people do take you for granted! That's why i am always playing on the safe side, i never reveal my true colour in the first, second, or even third met. I am reserve, becuz human are too complicated.
Lastly, i wanted to mention, i fcuking hate the feeling of 一场欢喜，一场空. Once i got excited over something, i expect it to happen, if got last minute turn off... i really hate it. When i am all prepared to be entertained, or to be enjoyed.... then last minute got chopped off all this excitements. Argh.... hate it!
When i am getting emo, the words that i speak out, gotta be quite sarcastic, not the 'pour cold water' kind, that would appear when i am getting overly happy n overly excited. But once you sees blood n sphere in my words, that would hurt your feelings.
Who said geminian are not emotional, damn emotional 1, cuz our feelings, emotional, mood always change. We can be damn excited, then suddenly sit there and dun want to talk.
In conclusion, all girls, lady, women also emotional la, cuz we always have the RIGHTS to get emo. From the age of 8 months old til 80 also know how to play the game of emotional.
I am now gonna change my mood
Wish my 2 friends HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Badly, i wasn't in Malaysia, if not ... cuz normally i would be the one who initiate to celebrate it. Haih... dun talk about B'day la, cuz when i think of it, it would reminds me of my sucky 20 bday that i hold on my tears and stay happy.
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hey girl...u can always tok to me whenever u need to let out ur emotions k cuz ur always there for me whenever I need help:) ((Hugss))...although i do not know clearly who ur toking about, but I know that feeling...how can't I when i feel pissed enuf that somebody takes my butter and blackened it. It's worse looking at ur dinner being snatched away by many who do not even feel grateful to u. I know how u feel about being taken advantaged of. I had felt like that during my high school years and oso in college. ((hugss)) when ur really frus show some colors okay! I learned it's the way to show ppl tat they have to start respecting you as a fren. If they continue like that, they are not friends okay...hope ur feeling better now
Hmm... i m much better now, i have talked to one of them, so after letting it out surely better. Thanks for caring girl!!
God...some people can really be inconsiderate. I faced somewhat the same situation with you, just that it didn't happen because of food but because of the things in the house. Just tell them off sometimes. But in a nicer way. It usually works and if it doesn't, just don't agree to whatever they want or suggest anymore. After all, you do have a choice of your own. Just be firm and say NO to them.
And don't worry, we'll be over next year. We'll make sure that you're 21st is a day to remember for years to come. =)
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