Lonely

Been having some noisy days months ago....

Now, that everyone starts school, works, everyone .. my bro, friends (school and training) .... lonely la!!!

Today woke up at 1pm .... dunno what makes me sleep until so late, but yet i remember i hv lots to do today, need to go down to Sg. Wang to take the hood that i forgot to take when i pay, need to start to look for job, need to call IDP for a letter for EPF, need to call AVIVA insurance, n need to call to radio 4 ... oh gosh ... i nearly forgot this, gotta do tis first.

Ok back, done that aviva insurance thing.

I felt a bit depressing today, dunno why, seems like i am abit lonely, the house supposed to be full of noises... but now, it is all lonesome and empty...

I felt miserable.... i dunno whether i should go all the way down to Sg. Wang to take that hoodie, just to take it, i might need to spend like hours to wait for bus, and take a bus, and walk, then do the same thing to come back home. And no one wants to accompany me... bro school la!! Frends ... one needs to start training in a hotel, another one starts college today, the other one been out yesterday, and another one said lazy to come out!!! and for the college friends, can never depend on them ... either they are tooooo far~~ away, or "TOOOO" busy to entertain a lonely people like me. Suddenly i felt like i am all alone, Astro also did give me face, no interesting programme air on TV, been changing channel for quite some times, even MTV and Channel V also cannot fulfill my sickness. Not to say tune in to CNN... got me even more depress.
This is not just a plain boring feeling, it do feel bad, depressed, the whole mood is down, i know from the beginning of a new year, the first monday of 2005 is not good... but i just can't help it... i even not apetite to eat, but i am hungry, though i ate, but .... just feel like so hard to finish the rice and the food...

It is like Torturing me like hell