NEW

On the previous post I have mentioned that i got a new job. Yup, it has been in the 3rd week working there, and i am getting with the stuff pretty well. All the staff are very nice to me and are willing to teach me anything, I am so glad that i get to have this opportunity to work there. I remember i have sent my resume last year around this time, but no reply heard from them, but this time around i didn't send any resume, but just to accompany Dennise for a job interview, and then she asked for me whether they need any wait staff, and then they ask me to come for a trial and i got a job!!! This is fated, i would say. Good thing is, the pay is really really decent, compared to Pizza express .... it is almost 100% more, hah i don't have to worry about the tuition fees for next year then! I am happy working over there ... summore got leng chai to see ... muahahahahax~~

Apart from the new job, i got myself a new gadget as well. My new Sony Ericsson K800i-mocha colour


It is a new colour, before that it was only in black, which alot of my friends were using it.


Though i still miss a flip-phone, but this function featured in the phone are just fantastic.


It has a 3.2mega pixel built-in camera, ahh ... i dun have to bring my bulky digi cam around then! Though we can't compare much with the picture quality, digi cam quality is so much better.

love it very much, i will take good care of my new baby very much ...... that day saw Jo throw her's into her bag .... wah my heart broken d .. cuz i will not do this to mine!

Now got a new phone, my next gadget would be an iPod video 80gb then .... hehehe!! Must fully use the priviledge they gave to the aus student here ... free delivery and discout ... cheap cheap cheap!

Hmm ... anything new to update~~ maybe a new house?!!

SPRING

Sorry everyone, i know my blog had been dead for almost 2 months. I have my explanation, but all that had happened within this almost 2 months period, they are just too much to explaine, i couldn't write it all down here!

But at the moment, i really love to share the flower that newly bloome out at my backyard.



Roses aren't only red



They are in all sort of colours, they are pretty, lovely and smells good too



If they are red



They don't come in just one red



Roses aren't the only flower in the season of Spring
Small little yellow flower are all over the street as well.


Yea, finally the winter is going to over, this winter i have had a bad time but at the same time i had fun as well.

However, i am glad that the winter is over and i am really looking forward to the coming spring.


With things that are constantly changing around me.

I am to declared I have got a new job.



It is at this poshy, fine dining restaurant



It consider as my first time, working in such a high class place, though they don't claim themselves as a high class restaurant, but to me, it is!



Being as a waitress over there, has got a lot of challenge but at the same time, alot to learn as well. It is a very good exposure to me. Not like in the pizza shop, working as a driver at night, meeting people that are consider as yuppies or maybe some families .... but right now, i am meeting people that are very very rich, the upclass people, the corporate people! I hope this doesn't make me sound like i am such a dawg that has "big small eye". Who would want to just limited themselves in a small place like the pizza shop that hasn't got much challenge and exposure.



A change in job is good for me, just like what my mom told me, "it is time to move on and no more pizza for you".

And of course, they pay me accordingly. Money and experience is what i want now!

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The first 4 weeks of uni, seems like the entire semester to me, bloody busy and stressed. This is the lesson for myself, taking all the practical unit and not even one writing unit.

I can foresee that this semester will be a very very busy semester for me.

Producing 2 short film, which are expected to be sent out for film festival and i am one of the co-director and co-producer for one of the short film!
Every week news broadcasting, stay tune at mnn.murdoch.edu.au hey, i am on the Tuesday newsgroup.
Bloody lots of design project to do, using up all my creative juice this semester!

With my new work and old work commitment, every week shooting commitment, i am bloody tired, oh and sometimes go out socialize and have fun ... just for entertainment purpose.

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Ok enough of those boring craps!

House politics with that guy ... annoying, irritating and geram! Tired of him! So people don't listen to those rumours!

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Hey, i wanna upgrade my phone, but don't know which one to choose

I have no idea which one to chose from, both have 3.2mp camera, both are mp3 phone, but one is slightly expensive and another one has only one colour!

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That day finally brought SY, R and SX to MSC (Male Strip Club), an exposure and also a pollution to them ... muahahax! R really afraid of men, she freaked out when the stripper went near her and touch her!

Finally went to one of the Mambo night! Because we were at the city and just want to go and flung out those unhappy stuff! Wat a way to destress.

Instant dream

- Lately i'm in love with Madonna's songs esp 'Get Together', make me feel like going into another world, good feeling-



Just yesterday morning (my morning excuse me!)

While i am still sleeping around 11am, i finally receive a call from my colleauge that he is going to work for me on friday night! I am so happy and excited. Then i went back to bed and sleep with smilessss.

Then i had this dream, that we go to the strip club, I saw G, ML of cuz and Rachel as well and also another dunno-where-he-came-from guy. I was like huh how come R n that guy come with us to the male strip club!! (my bad) Then we were waiting for our personal room to b ready. When it is ready one of us got to stripe the card into the room, of cuz our face are all in excitement ... (imagine a bunch of girls waiting excitedly outside of the room with dripping saliva) When we finally get to go into the room, suddenly there are a bunch of other ppl queuing in as well and u know who i saw? I saw my grandma's youngest sister n husband (my auntie n uncle) are queueing in as well and i am like shit shit shit ... i shall hide my face! Then we went in and the strippers came in ..........
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much to my expectation

the strippers consists of Bangladeshi, China Ah Pek and etc .. that kind of quality kind of strippers!

What a disappointment eh!

But i truly believe that tonight the real strippers that i am going to see wouldn't be Bangladeshi and China Ah Pek, at least some really decent looking caucasians with good body!!!

Hah!! as if i am so "ham sap" ...... (shy ... !!) Am I???

Upon a person arrival back to Perth.

3 different ppl have 3 different feeling for this person arrival.

1 is excited
1 doesn't really care about it but have to tidy up the mess
1 feeling anxious

And 3 of them lived under the same roof .. hahaha but has different feeling!

Blogthings

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor. You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader. Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways. But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical. With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you In love: You are picky but passionate To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's Your Dosha?

You Are 36% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory

You want to have your cake... and everyone else's. Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

Your Driving Is is: 38% Male, 62% Female

According to studies, you generally drive like a typical female. You are a careful, skilled driver. And you are patient in sticky driving situations. You may get aggressive from time to time, but normally you're a cool, collected driver.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

Your Birthdate: June 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities. You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think. Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

You Are Noon

You are upbeat, ambitious, and never at loss for energy. You have a lot that drives you in life. The desire to be the best, and a secret hope of fame and power. And while you definitely have a Type A personality, you are still fun to be around. You have a ton of charisma and a genuine interest in others. You are adored by many.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy. You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

Best Birthday Ever

12th June 2006

What more can I ask for, for all that were on my birthday.

1.) In a total foreign country.


2.) Being with the life-supporters, a bunch of them as well.


3.) Having a buffet breakfast in a hotel exclusively just for you, as if.

4.) Being on a luxury double decker bus with the all the ppl you know, funs and noises.


5.) Being blessed in an old & beautiful catholic church, plus a beautiful day.


6.) Travel to Bangkok and open my eye to this city which has lotsa high rise building and layers of fly over.

7.) Having yet another Hotel Buffet Lunch, with lotsa spicy food, TOMYUM GONG ... I just can't stop eating even my mom complains, hah!


8.) Being brought to a poppi flower honey bee sorta thing for a better health.

9.) Being brought to a huge diamond shop, got one over there. prezzie ~~

10.) Variety of leather skin shop.

11.) Check into a hotel which has a fabulous view of the city.

12.) Having expose to the Thai tele, found one channel dedicated to men, it is all leng-chai model, doing their modelling 24hours non-stop airing.

13.) Going to a concept restaurant, which donate to the AIDS foundation, chariety food.


14.) Having a surprise birthday as well and being kissed


15.) Wearing one of my fav piece of tee (one of the expensive one) and my new satin pants from Rusty (bought it when it is super damn cheap) Happy =)

16.) Exposing to so many condoms in my big day.


Condoms clothes??

17.) I even got free condoms from the restaurant, courtesy of Durex.


18.) Witnessed the best joke ever.

When we are about to leave, the waitress gave all of us a pack of condom, my brother saw my grandma put it into her handbag, and he asked her why do you keep it, she said take it back to make kopi, this is kopi mah!!! LMFAO =()



19.) Afterall, a night experiencing the Thai Traditional Massage, *Ahem* it's more like being forced to do yoga than to find pleasure and relax.

20.) A ride at the back of a pick-up, going through Bangkok night life. Syiok!!


21.) Last but not least, the programe for the whole day occupied my mind, i don't even have free time to think if someone is doing something for my birthday, so i am not expecting anything and yet surprises and fun had came to me unexpectedly. At least i am god damn happy in the entire day.

I shall be doing more travelling during my coming-years' birthday with the good company of cuz, it is better than sitting at home waiting, expecting, but being let down and being bored and sad, or to have exam, or to work .... I am so glad i made the decision to go back and join the trip, if not i don't think it will be such a spectacular one ever. It is my 21th, and i had a great one, the $807 that i have paid truly worth everything single repay. I feel real happiness after a long long while.



Yup, i am going to graduate as a bachelor degree holder, no sign of bad health yet, family still in good shape, single 21 years old female having a chance to study abroad. hmm yea missing something .... still single not attach, if i am that would be near to perfect! Haha ~~

Day with surprises

9th June 2006 - i should be writing this on that day itself, sorry for the late updates -

Surprises started the night before, on Thursday night.

On thursday itself, i just finish my last assignment of the semester, rushing it for a few days before i fly, didn't get to sleep for a several nights and then finally on Thursday noon itself, it is all done. At least, i get to feel the "whew" at 1:30pm, but my challenge for the day is still nt started yet. As i have laundry to dry, need to catch up some short sleep, go down to K-mart to buy something back home, go down to Freo to buy the famous Circerellos' Fish back home, back my luggage, watch Big Brother, watch the final episode for The Amazing Race, cook and settle everything!

Bit tough to complete everything once i get to finish my assignment, which we didn't expect it to consume so much of our time! Now i truly learn my lesson on doing masking and all those digital composite stuff, it's took up lots and lots of time. I dun even spend some decent quality time at home with LT n Tommy. Which they said didn't get to see me these few days.

After finishing all the stuff except for taking a shower, pack my luggage, vacumn my room, i decided to rest myself in front of the tv for The Amazing Race. Who knows what is going on next .... !! I am just too exhausted to think about anything.

While i am watching The Amazing Race, at arnd 10pm, a call from ML greeting me Happy Birthday, i wonder who told her my Birthday is today ... but she didn't tell, at first i tot she call me to ask me to go to Tavern or some drinking party haha ... the usual Thursday. The second group would be Rachel and SiXian came n knock on my house door, i was thinking who the hell is that, it might Tommy's friend then!! After knowing both of them came, i really tot they came to play mahjong, which they suggested the day before, i tot they were kidding eh, and then i even suggested to call and ask Jane to come over to join the mahjong, who knows it has all been planned!!! People started coming, ppl whom i didn't expect at all came ... i startin to know wat is going on, but was too exhausted to react excitedly, no i should say i was too exhausted to suspect what is going on and was excitedly preparing for my surprise trip back home.

I really love surprises, i love giving surprises and i love ppl give me surprises, but somehow i give more than i receive, sometimes i even think people just wouldn't want to put effort on me, what a bad person i am.

Anyways, i was a surprise advance birthday party organised by Tommy and LT, according to LT, Tommy was the one with the idea. Good on him ..



All of them who came, thanks peeps!!

After everything, i then realised it has all been planned ....
I think I have mentioned to someone sometime that i wish my birthday cake candles to have the exact amount of candles on it, cuz i love to blow it all in one blow.



It's 21 candles on it!!


I just can't get away with it, i do the counting before blowing it .... hahaha



Tommy's gift for me, i then remember him asking me which desperate housewives i like the most, and then i told Teri Hatcher, there goes he get me her book. (I am really not a very big fan of Despereate Housewives anyway .... i think he tot i was cuz i am watching it every monday)



Thank you very much, i really cherish our friendship or the family-ship we shared in Perth.

After maybe an hour or so .... people started leaving and i am like SHIT!!! I only have 1 hour to pack and shower ... this is challenging.

I dun even have time to read the card they gave to me


I have to catch up with it in detail when i go back though.

After that .... everything is in a rush .... not until i check in at the airport. Then i start my lonely trip on the plane, never have i experience such a lonely plane trip, thanks to the lack of entertainment on the Royal Brunei Airlines' plane. My stomach wasn't feeling comfy as well .... Not until i got back to KLIA.

Those scary taxi uncle really freaked me off, they just haunting me asking me whether i want a taxi or not. Damn them, if i want i would go and approach them, i dun need them come over one-by-one and annoyed me. I have to push my trolley and go to somewhere without a sight of them to look for my aunt, who came to fetch me.

Til then, my surprise appear starts to shocked everyone. (no one knows i am going back except my aunt who fetch me)

I was then follow my aunt go back to her cribs for some rest and then wait for my uncle to come back and we will head back to my house to give the surprises.....

While i was sleeping in my cousies' room, my uncle came back from work, he saw my shoes at the outside and then he knows i am the friend that my aunt mentioned she is going to fetch back from the airport.

It was fun .... until i gave the biggest shock to my parents.

My aunt, uncle and cousies went into my house first, and then before they lock the door, i jumped in and say "hi mom" (my mom was arranging the photos ontop of the shoe rack which is located just next to the door)

She turns over, looking shocked, stunned, stonned, paused for a long moment looking at me, my dad sits up and turn over what is going on, he was shocked too, paused and look at me, they both ask me why i am here, my dad even pince my mom to see if he is dreaming. tears in my mom's eye as she was too happy, so do i. This moment was like .... so good, i just dunno how to describe it, as they really didn't expect i fly all the back from Perth and i am not using their money to fly back.

After the dinner, we then proceed to my Aunt P's house, it's a surprise as well organised by her son for her wedding anniversary. She doesn't know the rest of the family would go to her house, and wouldn't even tot of me appearing.

I have to hide in the car while they give them the first surprise, after all of them went into the house, i then knock on the door and SURPRISE!!! All of them (my aunts, uncles, cousies ... ) were surprised!!! This is good and fun.

A day with lots and lots of surprises .... My grandma havn't know though and my another aunt as well, going to surprise them at the airport when we are all going to BANGKOK!!!

something about myself

It's the break again, and i am bored so i took this silly test.

About You
Full Name	Chien Teng Hooi
Birthdate	12 June 1985
Birth Place	Kuala Lumpur
Current Location	Perth
Eye Color	Brown
Hair Color	Black, with some red and brown streaks
Height	5'3"
Piercings	2
Tattoos	nt yet
Boyfriend/Girlfriend	Damn single
Favorite
Food	loads .... can't think of any atm, mostly asian food
Color	i am loyal to em, better dun answer
Candy	hard one ... tic tac then
Number	7
Animal	nt an animal fans
Drink	Fruit Juice
Alcholic Drink	JD
Bagel	??
Letter	C
Part of Opposite Sex's Body	The eye
Sport	Badminton
Place	Beach
Band	Aww ... hardest one yet
Person
Actor/Actress	Johny Depp
Car	BMW 3 Series
Video Game	The Sims
Movie
This or That
Pepsi or Coke	COKE
Chocolate or Vanilla	CHOC
Hug or Kiss	Kiss
Dog or Cat	hate em'
Summer or Winter	Between Summer n Winter
Rap or Rock	Rock
Your
Bedtime&..39;>
Most Missed Memory	05 Winter break
Best Psyical Feature
First Thought When You Wake Up	can i not wake up?
Fear	accident
Longest Relationship	errrr ...
Have You Ever
Drank	yeay
Smoked	nah
Done Drugs	nahnah
Been Drunk	yeay sorta
Been Beaten Up	nah
Beaten Someone Up	alot
Shoplifted	never
Skinny Dipped	someday
Been Dumped	nah
Dumped Someone	nah
In A Girl/Guy
Eye Color	Any
Hair Color	Any, better with some shades
Hair Length	short
Tattoos	cool
Piercings	cool
Does Drugs	please dont
Drinks	tat's fine
Build	better
Looks or Personality	personality + feel
Random Things
What Country Would You Like To Visit	UK
How Do You Want To Die	peacefully
Been To The Mall Lately	yea
Do You Like Thunderstorms	sometimes
How Many Cds DO You Own	lots
What Kind Of Music Do You Like	Indie pop rock
Do You Get Along With Your Parents	yup
Do you Smoke	no
Do you Drink	yup
Are You A Health Freak	thoughts are, nt action
Do You Think Youre Attractive	better be humble
Belive In Yourself	yesh
Where Do You See Yourself In 2 Years	somewhere i belong
5 Years	achieve my dreams
Do you Shower Daily	it keeps me warm
Have You Ever Been In Love	i think i did
Do You Sing	yupp
Do You Want To Get Married	if it's a good one
Do You Want To Have Kids	if they are good
Did You Ever Have A Crush	who doesn't?
Have You Ever Kissed The Same Sex	ya
Talk Alot
Play Sports
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I tot i was in the action movie

- what the hell is wrong with the world today!! recently there is this song that keep on playing on the radio, the lyric caught my attention. "I might like you better if we slept together", is a girl who sing it.... hmm "yao mou gao chuo" btw, this song is Never Say Never by Vandalism ... so bitchy-

You can say i am having such an abnormal lifestyle now, i sleep at 4am everyday and wakes up at 2pm everyday. Dunno what the hell i am doing everyday until 4am, i am not doing assignment, not study .... just bullshit!! Gawd!!

So sleeps 10 hours a day, of cuz i would have lotsa dream, and yet last night i had one which I thought i was in the movie, i think the plot could be good too, never seen such film before. So i decided to write it here as much as i could, incase one day i forgot!

Ok it first started like a normal gateway trip, me n friend... guess who are they?? Me obviously, SY (again!!), My MYSTERY boyfriend (in the dream), 2 Mystery guy and a Mystery girlfriend. Haha.. i actaully wonder how those MYSTERY people look like when they are in the dream, i think they dun hv a face, only body and the feeling. Oh, and they all have good body!!

Soo now i've got the cast, and the location is ..... *drum roll*
~ A heaven alike tropical island, in Thailand! (In real life, i was thinking of going Bangkok though)

Ok, we are at this dunno what tropical island in Thailand, we went Island Hopping and we get to drive our own motor boat.

The front part of the story is kinda bored if wanna put in as a movie plot, you know, it is kinda like the normal things would happen when a group of young people go for a trip, espcially to these kinda warm, romantic, beautiful kinda places. So ... haha i saw alot of pashing, u know la, places like beach, warm, sun, water .... sure got such scene. And then, i spend alot of time sticking with the "MYSTERY BOYFRIEND" and totally neglected SY and the rest of the people is actually that "MYSTERY BOYFRIEND"'s friend, so she is not close with them. The funny thing is ... i feel happy (when i was having this part of the dream) that she was being neglected by me. (So evil...) And then of cuz i really enjoy in that place (i mean in the dream). We even went island hopping and the boys jump down for a swim and the girls just stay on the boat sunbaking and chat. And then suddenly i am so excited and shouted "honey" then jump down to the water.

After that, the weather startin to be not so good, we need to sail our motor boat to this restaurant to eat. (The settings in this place is not like the usual island, those shops are made with wood, and then that land is god damn low, so we hv to sait the boat and park rite infront of the shops) We tried hard to sail the boat and found a parking, then head to this restaurant, in the dream it feels like we are going to tis place to have food, but then that place look more like a backpackers hostel kind. Then dunno how, me and that "MYSTERY BOYFRIEND" went to somewhere, and we saw this place tat sell tour package. They have 3 package over there, the first one i saw was tour phuket for $xxx, recommended for group of ppl, then the second one is Massage package for $xx in XX island, recommended for single or loner ppl, but then when i saw the word "MASSAGE" my eyes grow bigger, just dun care and sign up for tat package with my "mystery boyfriend", and i forgot what is the third package d.

Then we totally ignored the rest of the ppl and just head to that massage island 2 of us for the massage package that we signed up. We joined some other people who also signed up for that package, we sits on a motor boat and head to that island, suddenly, we saw this huge platform from far and then the driver of the motor boat said to us that is the place where your massage session would be and then treat us like rocket bullet and shoot us to that platform in a sudden!! We being shot and then dive into the water and swim to the platform, this process seems a bit terrified to me, of cuz i have my "mystery boyfriend" protect me, held my hand when we swim to the platform, just like Paul Walker in INTO THE BLUE.

This platform is weird, the shade is like a dinasour bone, what is weird is that the driver of the boat explained to us that, you must dive into the water, then they have this automatic claw that claw you from the water to the surface .... err dunno how to describe ah, shall i draw it in storyboard, easier to visualize. Ok watever ~~ then when we are swimming under the water, we saw this claw, the claw coming towards us, we have to swim here and there to avoid that claw, cuz my feeling told me that this claw is harmful. Wah ... damn chi gek over here in my dream ... ppl who are reading this, u sendiri visualize how chi gek you want la. Then after swimming here and there to avoid the claw, we finally climb up to this platform, the rest of the people also succeeded avoiding that claw and climb up to the platform, we then realise this platform got nothing except for that moving killer claw. The place is stranded, got no boat, not even a human, just that platform and the crystal clear sea water and the clear blue sky as well. but then just a few meter away from that platform is this island, this whole island is like a huge wonderland water park with lots of swimming pool all over the island, the only problem is no one is there. My hero "mystery boyfriend" suggested everyone to swim over there and have a look.

Someone swam over and climb up to the island, but then bounce back, dunno why it seems that we can't go into the island. Another weird thing about this island is that, it doesn't have a beach, on the edge of the island, it is surrounded with the swimming pool railing, hmm not exactly railing, but it is the tiles/cement that used to make a swimming pool, normally people who dun really know how to swim, they would swim at the site of the pool, when they are tired, they would hold onto that "railing" and rest themselves, that is the thing i am talking about over here. So we can't walk or go over the island to find some stuff to survive, then my her "mystery bf" suggested that we follow the railing by using our hand and hold on to it so that we could go to the other side of the island to see if we have chance to go back.

Hahaha ... all the people follow wor .... i wonder now how come dun have arguments with the other people saying like "wah what if we used up all our energy, then at the other side also got nothing" this sort of stuff ... So the people in my dream they are quite stupid as well. Then we struggled and we have reach the other side of the island ... wah this side of the island is even worse, no more wonderland water park, but dirty cave with dirty water, and then my dream end with my hero "mystery bf" getting wet at that dirty place talking to the other people. ~~~

Finally, i have finish typing this out ... dunno why, i find it hard to write it, now is 11:48pm, i think i started writing this arnd 4pm this evening ... I stray a lot while writing this entry yet i still want to finish this.

What a weird dream .... and i can still remember it until now, i wonder what it reflects on my life!

Hahah .. i kinda suck in writing story la actually, but then i find this story quite interesting la, from what i saw in my dream, the action, the settings, the people and suddenly with the "mystery bf". At least i was once in an action movie (in my dream) .... If you have watched INTO THE BLUE, starring Paul Walk and Jessica Alba, i think the feeling of the film should be similar to this.

Sometimes, it is quite interesting to find out what other people dream of, sometimes i myself find it interesting or surprise to have dreamt of such thing, i mean all my previous dreams as well.

So, what do you normally dream?
I have a friend who dreamt of him killing alot of people .... he said probably becuz he played too much Counter Strike kinda games. LOL .. HAHAhahaha ....

What a

DISAPPOINTMENT....

Supposedly, me n friend will be going to MALE STRIP CLUB tonight, but then an hour ago, friend told me that the show was cancel, due to the reason of those 'boys' are goin to perform at Burswood. So no show for tonight at the strip club .... Owww!! I have been waiting for .... and i even succeeded to finish work an hour ealier so that i could rush to the strip club .... *sob* *sob* I have to wait til next week to discover this pleasure. It will just make us more thirsty then!

disappointed ah, i have re-schedule my weekend then!

- have you ever think thought of this, when you finish your shower standing at the bathtub, then you are about to walk out from the bathtub and dry urself, but then while you are about to lift your leg up to "climb" out of the bathtub, suddenly your foot slip and you falldown with your leg spread; one out of the bathtub another one stays in the bathtub, and then your *ahem* "downthere" hit the bathtub .... sumore your jaw hit on the floor hard *double ouch* and you just couldn't get up becuz it is too painful, so you just cry and people at the outside wonder what is wrong with you. I always have this vision whenever i finish my shower and walk out of the bathtub. scary~~ -

2 nights before, something that i have been waiting came to me without my expectation. So, i also dunno if this has solve, though apologized has made, but then i dun think that person fully understand, understand how to appreciate a friend especially when we are apart.

- aiya please someone buy my car la .... -

Last nite, an 8 yrs good friend of mine reveal her biggest secret to me. She has kept this secret all to herself since she is 5 yrs old, until last night she only reveal and i am the first to know of this huge secret! I can't believe she really kept this secret for so so so long, this is really hard for her.

Although she has tried hard to keep it, bt for once, me suspected something must be going crazy on her site, we all know she must have a secret but then we are too scared to ask from her, but whenever we talk about this issues she acted abit aggresive and offended, then she left this mysterious impression to everyone.

So last nite when she reveals the secret, it is exactly what i suspected, though she never say anything about it, but then judging from all the conversation we have and she never let us go to her room or visit her house, it is really suspicous.

I hope she can open herself more, so that people won't have misunderstandings towards her and she could win more ppl heart. And wish she could find a time to tell this secret to the rest of them.

SEXPO 06

- That day while i was driving during work, this fabulous song was on radio STICKWITU by pussycatsdolls, a very nice song indeed, and i follow and sing along, but i accidentally sing in a wrong lyrics. "I must stick with you forever ~~ " instead, i sang "i must sleep with you~~ " (-_-''') Luff hard!! Yea i was shocked on what i sang too -

Went to SEXPO last saturday, the only day on the weekend that i am free - work free, assignment free, exam free .... but not purse free.

Yes, i needed this kind of visual pleasure, excitement, spices to add into my life. I am not complaining my life is bored or dull, but there are things that haunt me so bad that i think i went into depression or some kind. Not feeling happy for few weeks. Just feel "san fu", kept too many things to myself, even though if i burst it out, it is still unsolve. That day i am so so so down that i feel like going home where my family are, just to be cared and to be loved and to be felt that i am important. I have never experience so depress like what i am now. Today i just skipped a lecture, my first time skipping a lecture over here. Why? becuz i dun hv the motivation, i dun hv the 'Omph', i can't get up from bed, i am lazy to walk, i just don't feel happy.

Whatever it is, going to SEXPO, at least let me put behind the worries.

Actually $20 for the entrance is expensive, I think Perth have a smaller venue, less stalls not like what the website said it could be.

But it is nice to watch cute guys strippin, too bad, there is only one men stripping and he didn't strip all!!! DAMN IT. SHOULD GO TO THE MALE STRIP CLUB ANYTIME SOON.


Dress up as a policemen with a rayban design sunnies, damn "ying"


He strips until he left the g-string and he even bring some lucky girls up to the stage to perform some erotic dance move


He then shake his butt as if he is Ricky Martin, but not bad afterall.

I spent quite alot on the sexpo, now kinda regret buying the $20 show bag, cuz i am not going to use it, except for the calendar featured good looking n body guys in it. Oh, and the message candle looks good too, maybe the rest of the things i can give it whoever who needs it on their birthday ... Muahahahax!! But anyway, my showbag has a pretty good deal, just that i don't use em, so kinda waste money lo. (Neh things like stimulator, which i tot i could use it to massage but then not effective at all; Condom, not going to use it either, sumore the expiry date is on July; An ashtray with Mariuna logo and a couple shaggin on the boat, not applicable to me, but this can be used as decoration la; and etc)

However, in this SEXPO ... i kinda explore myself into all sort of vibrator ... now only i know vibrator got soo soo soo many different type, some are just too ridiculour for women to use it, cuz it is FUCKING TOO HUGE, look like a rocket more than a dildo.

I kinda find out that most of the things over there is for woman, sexy lingerie, cosplay costume, vibrator, pole dancin academy, ...... shud say for women to pleasure their men. Women have to work so hard to satisfy their men.

Things for man -- cheap DVDS and magazine, topless girls at the venue, strip tease, peep show and not much!

One thing i saw in the expo, is this vibrating glove, it is soo good to be massaged with that glove on. It is truly pleasurable. But it is just too expensive to own one of it - $70 for one glove. RIDICULOUS.

Anyway, we also get to watch a show by Alan Lenght the maste penis puppeteer. He is siao, he started doing tricks with his dick since he is 12 years of age. No wonder, his penis dun seems to grow much ... and i wonder if he can still use it for proper purpose. Maybe his dick, balls and the skin on the balls n dick are too elastic, when you see it, his baby looks like fallling down, LOOSE u know!!! Damn sad. And there is this penis painter, he uses his penis as the brush to draw painting. I also wonder if there is any chemical effects on his penis. And his penis size also quite small compare to other healthy and normal man.

And then we leave the place with showbag, pictures and videos .... will soon upload them once i got those pics and videos.

Oh .... watchin the "preview" of the male strip show, makes me feel more like goin to the real male strip club leh~~

Happy ...

Ahh~~ I am so happy that I bought 3 new pairs of undies today. And they are colourful … Yes, I prefer colourful undies and bras too, Though it doesn’t really look like what I am wearing rite. Cuz the colours I normally wears, they are either cold colours or damn boring kinda colours. But I dunno why, I love wearing colourful undies. If the bra and the undie is a matching set, I could be more happy. Plain colour bras and undies are so damn boring anyway!!

But anyway, these kind of happy is only the surface kinda happy lor~~ 物质的开心只是暂时的或表面的。有什么能比的上窝心和真心的祝福、朋友关心的问候或家人的无微不至，这种是温暖在心头的开心，想到也会嘴角微微一笑；感动 时，眼角还会流出慢慢撒落的眼泪。

有时候，这种那么贴心的小动作，是可以让沉在谷底的我站会上来。好让我知道，在这世界上还有人会想起我、想念我。

嗨！是在搞什么的，往往好象很想得到别人对我的肯定。Sounds so desperate and pathetic! What is wrong with me??

10 bucks short

10 bucks seems small though, but when you know you lost it by mistake, you totally don't feel good about it.

Especially when you feel that you are going to get them in the beginning but at the end you get none.

Today, I think i gave a wrong change to a customer while sending a delivery. He gave me a $100 notes and i think i should be given him $10 more of change by mistake. When i realise it, it was when my manager told me that the money i have wasn't enough to cover what i should have.

And I am supposed to have a pretty good tips night. The first customer today gave me $6 tips, i was so happy, becuz shud a big tips didn't happen for quite some time d.

In the end, i got no tips for tonight and yet .... i am short of $2.55 for the company. Though my manager said keep it in between us ... but still.

10 bucks worth of money. Sometimes when i spend 10 bucks, it seems nothing, but i lost it ... it seems like the sky fall down.

Funny!!

I have received a letter from the Australian Government today.

At first when i saw the Australian government logo at the cover ... It freak the hell out of me.

I thought are they sending me home, or did i do anything wrong??

So, when i open it cautiously. Only i found out that ...

IF YOU ARE AN AUSTRALIAN CITIZEN 18 YEARS OF AGE OR OLDER, YOU MUST ENROL TO VOTE

I was like WHAT!!!!

They send me a letter and ask me to enrol to vote, whether or not, i have to complete this letter and reply it to the division office. And yes, the letter is to me, it's written my name and the address.

But why would they send me this letter? (weird) Only me get it, not even the others.

LT even said their system went wrong and i accidentally become an Australian. This is even more ridiculous. I am still holding a Malaysian passport and i didn't apply any citizenship yet.

Well, badly i would have to tick 'NO' and 'I am not eligible to enrol at this address' column, cuz i am not an Aussie.

But... how do they get my information??? Still not getting any clue!

Yet ... this is funny lo!! LOL, if their system really went wrong!
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Another funny thing happened today, but i aint gonna tell.

Funny to see how human race perform at their stage.

A post that i'll say what i wanna say

~Lately been listening to Jacky Cheung classic cantonese song, love it!~

This year have encounter with quite a few drunken moments, being drunk myself, being half drunk myself and see others being fully drunk, seeing others suffers from vomits, seeing others doing stupid stuff, seeing myself vomit for half a day. In the end, wanna ask myself, WHAT'S THE POINT?? What's the point to get drunk when i really feel like getting drunk. We just wanna get high so that we can rest our complicated mind for a while and subconciously that is what we called release our pressure. But, seriously when you get up another day with a headache and maybe some weird active in your stomach, what's the point again! The complicated matters still come back and haunt us together with the headache and active stomach. I found myself easily cry when i am half drunk these days. WHAT'S THE POINT??????
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Few weeks ago, LT suddenly come out from her room and told us that there's a weird guy showing his penis on the webcam while chatting with her. We then all go into her room and see what's going on. LT said she thought this is her old friend who just added her, becuz normally she won't simply give out her msn address, and then suddenly that guy ask her whether she wants to start a video conversation or not, luckily LT doesn't have a webcam, if not her face would exposed to this pervert. So the pervert put the webcam on his penis, and one of his hand non stop masturbating n another hand keep on typing as he chats with LT. Haha... i wonder what's wrong with this kind of people, he show his penis and he masturbate, but then the content that he chats is so damn normal.... so we typed something dirty and he "paiseh"!!! I wonder what he is thinking. Can't read their mind properly, something must have gone wrong with them.
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I go back to work again, cuz i run out of money and i desperately need money. I also need to save for my Melbourne trip, dunno whether i am able to go or not, as the originally planned has been CHANGED!!!

Whatever, i get back to my working routine and also studies, at least some of my time dedicated to my work, so i won't feel so empty.

Yesterday, my manager told me that the first day i go back to work, he was really happy to see me again. That day, my boss told me that she is very glad that i am back, cuz they really need me. hmmm.... i start to feel my importance in Pizza Express. My manager always say that i am one of the fastest driver in Pizza Express, made me wondering am i really. Of cuz the no.1 driver is that aussie guy that works 6 days a week 4:30 -3am. But then, i wonder am i the second or maybe third!! Hmm... gotta see the statistic only i get to know. Most of the drive that works in P.E., doesn't work very long. This year when i go back to work, lots of new driver, some of them were forced to be the driver as we dun have enuf driver.

Anyway, i like this year crew, it is more fun this year.
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I always accidentally hurt myself without noticing it. I think i knock my head when i was half drunk that day and now i found a bruise behind my head.

Dunno when and dunno how, i got my finger cut.

Just yesterday, my arm was scracthed over a nail while working ... ouch, that's hurt!

Yesterday too, i left a fishbone inside my throat before i left for work. I have to hold on to the pain when i swallow saliva or water, until now, it's still hurt abit.

So, someday ... i shall go hurt myself on my ear. Maybe one my eyebrow or on my nose ... anywhere else!! No nipple pls.
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Have you ever have a very very close friend (unacceptable close), they leave you in a sudden, you finally accept that they are going to leave and then when they really leave you and no update from them. I mean not even a 'safely arrive home' news. Not even an email, not even a msg when he/she got home. and you only got his/her msg when he/she is waiting at the airport, feeling bored and all. Don't you feel that he/she only tot of you when he/she feels bored. The day before he/she left can be so damn fucking close and then when he/she go back home, he/she didn't even bother about you. How can you accept that!! It makes me think that i was being used, i was only being any other normal people of his/hers. It has been a week and he/she never writes to me. 2 friend of mine even ask me whether that person writes to me or chat on MSN after he/she got back, i just said NO, they both felt WEIRD! What, is playing disappearance a good activity to play? I find it so irritated when other ppl ask me whether that person has left, i have to say yes. They even ask me whether i miss him/her or not. I didn't answer. Becuz deep down i know i miss him/her, but on the surface of my inner me, i hate him/her and even angry him/her too. Why do ppl need to ask me when i don't even know anything about his/her life rite fucking now.
One friend of mine said "oh well, go back home is just like heaven, you got so many TV show to watch, you get to hang out with your family, where to find time to go online!" This is just an excuse actually. I know that person goes online everyday, this is his/her everyday routine. No matter how busy you are, you can still write a msg, write an email, send an sms. Don't tell me sms is expensive! International sms in msia is soo bloody cheap. If you wanna say money is the problem that caused communication breakdown. Well i can expect that this person is only a friend of yours when he/she is physically next to you, but when we are apart, we won't be friends, becuz we won't be checking out each other. So is that what you called friends?
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I am so vulgar these days. Vulgar in my heart. Sometimes i feel like shouting out loud 'FUCK YOU' or 'SHUT THE FUCK UP'. Everything come to me, i can find it's BULLSHIT.
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Since last week, my appetite not so well, sometimes my shit comes out easily. I can't even finish a bowl of Nissin Instant Noodles. I can't finish one whole pizza (i used to finish it last time). I can't finish my meal and i have to seperate it into 2 meals. Then i weigh myself yesterday. 1.5kg down!! YAY .... 2 more kgs to go to reach my target.
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Stressed!!
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Didn't really see my real smile for a long time. *sigh*
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Skin very dry, i am very dark, skin colour no reflection, shud go n repair them.
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This autumn is so damn cold, I am all by myself (by Jamie O'Neal) , lately been listen to some old song, like Whitney Houston-I will always love you, The Carpenters' songs, some Toni Braxton and lots of Jacky Cheung old classic stuff (he is god...)
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Hates

Do you know how the feeling of hates for someone comes out??

It is because you care for that person so much that the feeling of HATES create.

You won't hate a person you barely knows.

Hate is such a big words, so never use it on a person that you barely knows, that is only DISLIKE.

Just like .... I dislike batwomen, sashasashasashasasha, Paris Hilton .... Why we dislike them? Although we barely know them, but we were disgusted by their daily life attitude and actions.

I remember once a friend of mine C, she said she hates her bf so much but yet she loves him so much. Hates only occur when you care and love that person so much. Though you hate em, but you still love em. Such a complicated conflict isn't it!

But yes, human always have this kind of mix feelings, miserable, confusion, that's why we hardly understand why we have such feelings cuz we couldn't find an answer from it!

and Yes ... Currently i am hating someone and i hate myself too.

The Fools on April's Fool

What a fool i had on this year April's Fool. It is not from someone else, it is all from my own self.

I spend almost 3 quarter of the day dealing with my vomit and the hangover.

Never in my life tried to vomit so many times in a day and i don't understand why my hangover can go on for so so so long!!

I started vomitting in the morning, i was awake by my grumpy stomach, and there goes my vomit fool day starts.

Every little sip of water i drank, i vomit; Every small piece of food i eat, i vomit; I even vomit the pills i ate!! Almost every half and hour, i vomit ... it is really not a good experience.

Weird feelings in my stomach, massive headache, felt very hungry and needed food to fill in, but don't have a very good appetite. I even starts to shiver, i couldn't even use the chopstick properly. Sometimes i felt so cold that i already wear 2 layers of clothes and a quilt covered around my body.

I don't know what's wrong with my stupid bloody stomach.

I don't think i drank alot that night, just a few cups of vodka + coke, n whisky + coke .... I drank more when i go to the tav with ML n G, but that time, i didn't even feel drunk, just abit high, don't even have hangover in the next morning.

Maybe because, we drank at home and I know i will be safe if i am really drunk!! I don't know eh ... just .... what's bloody wrong with my stomach and tat's all .... made me had a dump day.

SY even asked me why drink so much ...
Somehow, i want to try to be drunk, i want the feeling of getting drunk, the feeling of I-DON'T-CARE-A-SHIT, the feeling of go with the flow, the feeling of getting high, the feeling of getting close with people...

Somehow, i want to be cared, sounds so damn pathetic and desperate, but recently i do have that feeling. The feeling of wanting people to care about me, wanting people not to ignore me, the feeling of dependant! Such an asshole i am.

The rebellious in me started showing out, maybe i do hv bad mood these few weeks. Maybe i really need to let it out so that i could get a relief and not to feel that way anymore.

How i wish i could quit that.

开始怀疑自己是有潜在的忧郁症，很多双子座的同志都很神经质，很多时候都被劝要小心患上忧郁症。 我很怕！！

为何往往当一个人心情一百巴仙底落的时候，终会失去理性，然后就自己在那边转牛角尖。啊 ～～ 很讨厌这种感觉！

正在挣扎的时候，真的很想大声喊、丢东西来发泄，可是我就是不能这样做。

有时我很讨厌自己，为什么不能放松，为什么就是不能看开一点，为什么就是要抓得那么紧！！！

原来那种好象被很亲的人抛弃、忽略是那么辛苦的。 就只能对自己生闷气，没人可以倾诉，真的很辛苦！

忍耐。我只可；看开。我应该

都觉得很累，我的心灵非常的脆弱；被呵护。我需要；那位传说中的王子快出现吧！好让我有个肩膀靠一靠，好让我的心灵有个寄托。

An Exposure on Gay n Lesbian Club

Weeks before, i dreamt about myself smoking and this is not the first time dreaming of it... i am terrified!

I wanted to write this post 2 weeks ago. But i couldn't find any free time to just sit infront of my comp and start writing my thoughts out.

The first Saturday of March 2006, we finally pay a visit to The Court, a place where all the gays n lesbians hang out, chit-chat, get a pick up.

We being the normals just wanted an exposure, cuz we know we don't get any of this in Malaysia, even if there is a Gay n Lesbian bar in Malaysia, it wouldn't be the official one.

Yup, for every girl who loves to see, look, stare, watch, enjoy looking at GOD-DAMN-CUTE-GUYS, it is really a big disappointment for you to go there.

I truly felt this way, never in my life saw so many good looking guys in a night. Once you know they are not the straight kind, your heart keep on screaming - WASTED!!!

Too bad, i couldn't get any photos of them, i scared of offending them though!!

Good looking guy dancing with another good looking guy, you find it DISGUSTED ... sorry if i offended someone. But this is just my opinion on looking at 2 beefy good looking guy dirty dancing.

Some even worse, dun expect this is a young ppl place, we can often spot old uncle in their late 30s, wearing skimpy clothes, tight jeans .....

Speaking of good looking gay guy ... well .... well .... well ... sad story.

Surprisingly, lesbian are not tat pretty after all, maybe i am a girl, so i dunno hw to see who is pretty. But anyway, you won't find a Charmain Seh kinda look or Nicole Kidman kinda look as a lesbian. Lesbian look are pretty much predictable, just some of them are bi, so is kinda hard to tell directly. But normally the one being the male, will dress up more like a guy, the way they dress is not really up to trend that kind, male checker shirt, wear a cap, baggy pants .... n they have a hand on a chick's waist.

However, this trip to The Court wasn't as expected, i expected to see drag queen perform on stage, more gay n les action, more disgusting stuff, more same sex pole dancing, more dirty in conclusion ... hah, they play is safe n clean.....!!

Semester begnis with lotsa Party

- shit!! I have been eating instant noodles frequently this few weeks ... -

It started of with the Gyroscope's gig... from then on, i have been non stop partying over the last weekend.

Gyroscope's tic!!!

Last Thursday, the first ever mad thursday on uni's tavern. Well ... we went there, because of SY's sister, wanna let her experience the atmosphere of a uni tavern in australia and of cuz we have expected to be quite a lot of ppl, since it is the first week of the semester. Should go for the first theme night too... but i think white theme night not that fun at all.

Yea .... we have met a lot of new student, old student.... all went to the tavern and have a fun night. It is good to meet those ppl again!!

First time order a jug of beer in Tavern ... yea newbie!! ... dunno the price of it... last time i heard it was $7 for a jug ... n well we paid $15 for it!! Then only i found out different brand has a different price .... me - sucko!!


*listening to Ne-Yo - So Sick*


And then there's friday night at NewPort. Tommy has been bugging us to go to NewPort for Felix the band. I have been there once, Serena recommended. Well the band was not bad, they played lotsa old school kinda stuff and some of the new songs too.

We were bit late when we arrived, they just finished their first session and we have to wait for the next session which would start in another 30mins. So while waiting, we can only dance the the music that the DJ played and take some pictures... (Yea the music choice is definately better than the music in Tavern)

Sometimes it is a bit hard to take a nice picture in the club/pub/tavern ...

you gotta experiment lotsa time in order to get a picture to AT LEAST ... see yourself in it!

First, this is what we got from the camera:

and then ...

and finally ...

and we often need to be prepared to have ppl who loves being in the shot like this!!!

Those are drunken people, they tot they could get the picture !!! and yet they insists on taking picture with u!! SIAO ...

and then this is Felix the band

This band has 6 band members in it ... 3 girls and 3 guys, the girls are quite cute looking and the guys are not bad looking as well. I prefer the drummer ..... i think most of the people went to NewPort for them. Cute girls n good looking guys.

After dancing and jumping to the music .... you feel like you went for a work out, yea good work out, cuz you're really moving your body ... hahaha and this is FREE!!! Not even a drop of alcohol in my body and yet i got so high.

Then on saturday, it was a laid back lazyy day .... watch dvd at home and basically sleep .... quite boring in a way!! So i was thinking about going for something good on sunday ... at first wanted to go to the beach.... but then din make it. Then finally Tommy was in the mood for the free gig at McCalum Park, Vic Park for Gyroscope again!!!

Yea ... we even get to talk to them again, say hi, chat abit and take pictures .....

3 members of Gyroscope, 1 member is missing ... they are friendly!!

The show .... and sweats!!

I think i prefer the crowd on that night rather this all age show, cuz i think the kids are so crazy, dun really think they are here for them .... they are here just becuz they gets to go to a gig .. so they get over excited and just push .... jump ... crowd surfing .... CRAZY ....

Yea most of the time i was being squashed ... hardly ... can't really move and mosh!!

There was once a crowd surfers butt on my head eh ... i gotta squad down so that he won't hurt me!!

Gig and the sun .... hmm feels like some small summer rock festival ... i can imagine the HUGE summer rock festival would be so so so pack. more sweats and need more strenght.

Someday we shud try going to a REAL CLUB and a GAY/LESBIAN pub ... for eye opening!! Hehehe ...