I hve been busyin last nite, to rush n finish my radio essay which i left 800 words on wednesday midnite, the problem is i have already tired of crapping out the same thing, and my mind went blank, ok .... finish it at 2am, i tell myself i must finish it, coz i dunwan to leave it till friday afternoon, and rush in the college, and also because i know friday will be a bit busy la, so dunno whether i will have time to finish it, so set a goal to finish it on thursday nite.
Though i finish my radio essay at 2am, bt i only sleep at 3am, becoz i gotta prepared for tom Writing for the media n Media Research Methods quiz.... too much la, how can i finish it on one hour for 5 chapters??? Well since that W4M quiz is 10% of course, i hv to focus on that first than MRM which only 3%. So i ended up din study for MRM, then go to take the quiz with a blank knowledge... *too bad, ms christine is standing next to me that time, then i went nervous and memorized wrongly*
The long waited relocatting briefing on today, so excited to seee who is going also, and of course to know more about the pre-departure thing, coz i dun wan to cramp all the thing at the end of the year. There are abt RM20k, needed to clear at the end of this yr... i know is a lot, how the hell my parents can get this sum of money by the november?? yea i am worried!!
Went back home, of course at the first time when i saw my mom, i told her about all the thing, then the amout of money,... well ... what kind of expression i can expect??!! When i told my mom abt perth thing on wednesday after Terence Lee's talk. She just said one sentence "Now, i am worried where to find the moeny for u"
I know, my family afford for this big sum of money, i know, and i dunwan to force, bt soorry... i can't, coz, what i wan to study is not offering here. I have suggested to take on a bank loan, i think i have mentioned about it several time, but then mom dunwan give any respond about the bank loan, then that day she said "but u need to come back and repay the bank"
Yah, i know, afterall i am the one who used the sum of money, i am the who is spending so much, if they really din wan to take up the loan, and still forcing them to pay for everything, i think this is probably the most expensive thing they have ever bought in their life, our house don't even worth for the whole sum of my education fees. At least housing loan can repay for like 10 yrs, but if they really need to pay for the education fees, u c abt RM 180,000 paid it in 2 yrs. Means in 2 yrs time, RM180,000 gotta paid.
Yea now the most problematic thing that affect me of going is the financial prob, last time i tot if i failed one subject then i can't go, but now they said not really, as long as completed 10 credits points then u can go, i hv completed 12 credit points now... means i can go no matter how i failed in this sem, of course i won't want to fail, coz go there and retake the subject will be much more expensive than here.
However, no matter how, i have to say, i have to tell my mom, let me take the responsible for my own education, let's take the loan and I repay it back when i am graduate, i know if it is possible they have the money in a sudden, then of course dun take the loan is better, coz i also dunwan to have a hard life in the future, but to see my parents to have a hard life now, i dun feel good actually, but yet, i am stubborn, i am stubborn and insists on going there.
I know why my mom dun wan to confirm to take the bank loan, coz she is hoping for miracle to come, hoping for miracle to happen, who knows what is going to happen tomorrow rite? and i also know she dunwan me to suffer in the future for repaying back the money to the bank, so called "shark loan" coz the interest rate is so damn high.
And i am also, hoping for the miracle to happen, so that i dun have to take up the responsible, but then everytime when i want to tell mom, tell her that i willl take up the responsiblity... i find it hard to tell, so until now, i haven't tell!! Kinda selfish i know, yea i am selfish in a way, i am always selfish... i am!!!
How to tell, how to say??
But i really want to go, and i insists on going, i think i am going to get the offer letter from Murdoch next week, so how?? offer letter is here, so can apply for bank loan aldi. And one more thing for sure, i think they are trying on their KWSP, take it out for education, but is it unfair for them rite?? they work so hard, KWSP is for saving money for old, if they take it out, what they are going to spend when retired... i mean of course be a daughter of course will subsidy a bit, but how much i can subsidy?? Future, i dunno what is going to happen, future is unknown, but is controled by our hand. agree??!!
Though i finish my radio essay at 2am, bt i only sleep at 3am, becoz i gotta prepared for tom Writing for the media n Media Research Methods quiz.... too much la, how can i finish it on one hour for 5 chapters??? Well since that W4M quiz is 10% of course, i hv to focus on that first than MRM which only 3%. So i ended up din study for MRM, then go to take the quiz with a blank knowledge... *too bad, ms christine is standing next to me that time, then i went nervous and memorized wrongly*
The long waited relocatting briefing on today, so excited to seee who is going also, and of course to know more about the pre-departure thing, coz i dun wan to cramp all the thing at the end of the year. There are abt RM20k, needed to clear at the end of this yr... i know is a lot, how the hell my parents can get this sum of money by the november?? yea i am worried!!
Went back home, of course at the first time when i saw my mom, i told her about all the thing, then the amout of money,... well ... what kind of expression i can expect??!! When i told my mom abt perth thing on wednesday after Terence Lee's talk. She just said one sentence "Now, i am worried where to find the moeny for u"
I know, my family afford for this big sum of money, i know, and i dunwan to force, bt soorry... i can't, coz, what i wan to study is not offering here. I have suggested to take on a bank loan, i think i have mentioned about it several time, but then mom dunwan give any respond about the bank loan, then that day she said "but u need to come back and repay the bank"
Yah, i know, afterall i am the one who used the sum of money, i am the who is spending so much, if they really din wan to take up the loan, and still forcing them to pay for everything, i think this is probably the most expensive thing they have ever bought in their life, our house don't even worth for the whole sum of my education fees. At least housing loan can repay for like 10 yrs, but if they really need to pay for the education fees, u c abt RM 180,000 paid it in 2 yrs. Means in 2 yrs time, RM180,000 gotta paid.
Yea now the most problematic thing that affect me of going is the financial prob, last time i tot if i failed one subject then i can't go, but now they said not really, as long as completed 10 credits points then u can go, i hv completed 12 credit points now... means i can go no matter how i failed in this sem, of course i won't want to fail, coz go there and retake the subject will be much more expensive than here.
However, no matter how, i have to say, i have to tell my mom, let me take the responsible for my own education, let's take the loan and I repay it back when i am graduate, i know if it is possible they have the money in a sudden, then of course dun take the loan is better, coz i also dunwan to have a hard life in the future, but to see my parents to have a hard life now, i dun feel good actually, but yet, i am stubborn, i am stubborn and insists on going there.
I know why my mom dun wan to confirm to take the bank loan, coz she is hoping for miracle to come, hoping for miracle to happen, who knows what is going to happen tomorrow rite? and i also know she dunwan me to suffer in the future for repaying back the money to the bank, so called "shark loan" coz the interest rate is so damn high.
And i am also, hoping for the miracle to happen, so that i dun have to take up the responsible, but then everytime when i want to tell mom, tell her that i willl take up the responsiblity... i find it hard to tell, so until now, i haven't tell!! Kinda selfish i know, yea i am selfish in a way, i am always selfish... i am!!!
How to tell, how to say??
But i really want to go, and i insists on going, i think i am going to get the offer letter from Murdoch next week, so how?? offer letter is here, so can apply for bank loan aldi. And one more thing for sure, i think they are trying on their KWSP, take it out for education, but is it unfair for them rite?? they work so hard, KWSP is for saving money for old, if they take it out, what they are going to spend when retired... i mean of course be a daughter of course will subsidy a bit, but how much i can subsidy?? Future, i dunno what is going to happen, future is unknown, but is controled by our hand. agree??!!
2 comments:
yupz correct our FUTURE is in OUR HANDS. That is why tarot cards and all are just guidances to lead you on ur life and not to mislead u to be superstitious. U really do need to sort it out with ur mom Asap. Try to compromise for both sides. They are sanfu, so are you, but there must be an alternative way.
Thank you all, thanks for the comment and the care guys give to me, i know it is good to have frends like this, though u guys can't help me with the financial thing, bt then the supports is enuff, i appreciate it much. Thanks!!
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