Mentality Imbalance

I think i hv mentality imbalance today!! ... Feel weird
I felt irritating of C today thought she din irritates me
but she was toking with chip ... asking lots of question
which i saw and felt irritating
that's what i call it mentality imbalance
coz she never irritates me and i finds her irritating

Am i going to fail??
As the marketing test i took today din seems went well
coz din really go to study all
i wanted to study
but too bad lazy worms lie inside my bones once again
so now i am proving to Terence Lee that i m gonna fail?!!
Yea, i dunwanna fail
coz it is not nice to fail
bt ...
i left only 4 weeks
then gotta sit for a huge exam
which requires us to study (no it should be eat) the whole book
and then the other prob is
this subject really very hard to depend on myself
coz the explanation that i get
has no picture
or maybe i din really pay attention at class
or maybe she really dunno how to build a picture into our mind
yea now i know, not only writing for broadcast need to build a picture
being a teacher or a lecturer
u gotta know how to build a picture of the thing that u wanna teach
yea student now very 'mah fan' and stupid also hahaha
their mind is not functioning that way
christine is right
i hope she can teachs me marketing
coz she really know how to teach
no matter how dry the subject is
she can pull ur mind into the thing that she teach
though now always can build a picture to us
bt she has the power to pull us into the subject
at least will try to care what the hell is all about

fucking asshole uncle
simply pee on the roadside
as i walk home when i got down frm the bus
just saw a uncle going to pee
saw him letting down his zip
though wat i saw is only the back view
but it was disgusting
and the road side is not those secluded roadside
is a roadside beside the main road
wtf is that
think that no one will pass by there
i am the unlucky one
though i din see anything
i wish i din see anything
or something bad happen to me
i walk fast n faster when i saw his back
going to pee
coz according to the '36way'
runaway is the best way to solve ur problem

going to have radio desk test tom early morning
feel a bit nervous now
as everyone who taken their desk
they said it was suck
as all the prob n mistake happen
i am afraid i am the one too
bt i wish everything will be fine
everything will go smooth
and even better than my usual practise

AH...... mentality imbalance
everyone seems to be like
weird n irritating
arghhhh
mentality imbalance

tom gotta go to penang
for celebrating my grandma birthday
i insisted on going back to penang
coz i m scared that next chinese new yr
i can't go n visit them
then hv to wait for 2 more yrs to see them
i wanna catch an eye of them before i go
that's why i am starting to miss them
miss all my family members
especially those lil kids and old granny
hv 3 7yrs old cousin, another 9yrs, and another 12 yrs old... i hv 4 more older than them
coz the kids ... i wanna see them grow
i wanna see them how they look now n compared back 2 yrs later
then hv a 7 yrs old (abit slow) cousin, and a 3 yrs old cousin(i think)... cute la
miss them all
and of course the granny
granny ... i miss them so much

[Edited 11:50pm]
I am fed up
I was surprised
after i change the nick
can get noticed straight away
bt what happened after all
what happened at the beginning
does it mean
nickname knows it all
does it mean
din let out have no feeling at all
I lied
I lied coz i was surprised abt the timing
I never expect
never expect it to be like this
then I lied
then nothing happen again
yea i am mentality imbalance today
I have a serious mentality imbalance today
very serious
so now who am i
why i online
who am i
for what i online
I am fed up and so i lied...