New semester sure will have new people come, this batch i have quite alot of the KDU-rian that i know is coming over, but to say very close with them and some of them are those ppl that i can't touch nor get close with them.
What i fear of is that these people might be a friend of Z, and m afraid that they might stick to Z and it will happened to stick with us. I am happy with current situation, not wanting some weird people to come n join, sometimes we just played too over, and if those freak come n join in as a group we won't feel comfortable and yet we won't play too over~~
Yes, my biggest fear
1. Ca**ne - a girl happened to be quite a 2 faces person, she was once close with Z, luckily she has her own batch of friends and i heard Z n C got problem once. - close case -
2. Ka**n (the freak) - yea i know i am mean, but i can't help it this is her impression that she gave to me. I wasn't afraid of her existence before that, but i heard she n Z was once roommate, and they were quite close. Sadly, K doesn't have any friends in Perth, not even those she come over with, wonder what's wrong with her, cuz everyone seems to avoid her, doesn't want to be close to her.
Within few days that Z came back to Perth, K started to follow her, maybe Z was sympathised on her loneliness and so she asked her to follow along. The first nite that Z came back, she joined us for dinner, so our car exposed to her! Then monday, she also follows Z to come over to my flat to watch 'Desperate Housewives', Tuesday she sticks along with Z in MMA's AGM and then so happened she follows me n Z for a movie - 'Sin City'.
This was ok, though me SY n LT felt uncomfortable insidely and din tell out, as what i fear of, today it happened!!
Z msg me on MSN:
izit ok if ka**n wana shared d car wif usTo my fear, i dunno how to answer her as my heart tells me that I DUN WANT no matter how hard my heart scream to me, i dunno how to reply her and so i have to reply with the undecisive tone or a young girl who can't make a decision.
cz she everytime joined us,then i ma asked her to share as well lo
I wanted to ask SY, but she was sleeping in her room, dun want to wake her up with this kind of problem. I felt so shitty, cuz i know Z din have our kind of feeling for her and she is trying to help her.
So happened, LT called and asked to fetch her to Dewson, so we were discussing abt it on the way, wahahaha now only i know that LT also felt uncomfortable with her and doesn't have a good impression on her, she said "my intuition tell me that not to trust this person".
When i am home, i tell SY abt it, and in the arvo, K asked SY whether she can fetch K to the airport, we knew one day if our car exposed to lots of the ppl, ppl will start to used you, and we don't want to be used, cuz petrol is getting expensive, and way to n back frm the airport is not a short distance too. Not to say we are thrifty, but if one start to provide this kind of service, more will come to us, unless you are really one of our really really really good friend. After all, we are not rich student, we all came from a middle class family, it is god damn lucky that we got to go abroad, but we have to know spend our parent's money wisely, not being a good dumb so called 'friend'.
And so just now, we had a family meeting, me n LT push SY to tell the truth to Z, we have to tell her the truth if not things that we dun wish to happened will happen. So we tell Z that we dun feel like sharing the car with K and Z asked y, so we said we dun have a good impression on her and our feeling to her kinda weird and so me n LT agree with it. Yea sometimes need to be "jue" so that everything could be clear, misunderstanding won't appear, this is what we want in our life.
Yea.... problem solve, but still lotsa challenge to meet, finger cross and i will go to sleep.
Tmrw gotta pitch our idea... i still can't really have a complete one, and the idea i had gotta involve a very big production ... hmm gotta see how, well try me best!
- sLEEp -
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