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Blerk!! Tickets for 'Taste of Chaos' had SOLD OUT, damn it, i am almost all prepared to go for it, then tell me about this sad news!!

Argh... yesterday Zoe came back from malaysia, finally we got to reveal her the prank, but before we reveal, we got to update her the fake story and make her believe, hahaha coincidently SY dyed her hair, she accidentaly dyed her fringe too bright (looks like ah lian, ah hua, ah beng, ah seng gang thatkind) With her image, 100% convinved Zoe about the changes in SY, plus she gotto dress up a lil sexy to the airport .... just so fun!!! Though we were late for it, cuz SY need some time to dress herself, makeup n all....

Throughout the whole journey back frm the airport to SV. Z keep on asking about SY "non existence" bf. The story make up to be, we hardly see SY and she always sleep over at the guys house, she din even go for lecture and with all her gesture make her sounds like a GOD DAMN BITCH!!

I remember when we got back to SV, SY need to go to the car to take her key, then left me, Z n LT, then Z asked me have i ever saw that guy, then i said "just for a while, not too clear which is tat drunken night" then she asked me whether tat guy looks reliable, then i shake my head n replied her that that guy doesn't look reliable at all. HAHAHAH she does believe eh.... Then the whole thing reveal when she got into SY room, and she seems blur also, doens't have a massive explotion like being cheater or pranked.... she just said "we very 'bin tai'"....

- Lots of updates for her -

Since Z is back, her once roommate - K (famously known as da freak) (wah i m so bloody mean here) ... yup, K follows her to everywhere .... err... i dun realli like it la, but wat to do, i can't voice out or refuse. I don't know whether it is becuz last time in kdu used to heard some gossips about her, about how desperate her private life is and all that freaky things, i don't have a good impression on her, so i don't really like her to follow Z and us. Somemore, Rach also thinks she is da freak (clue here, K is once R roommate la)

Went to the airport for 3 times in a week, pick up 3 different people, C, P and Z. Everyone is back to the SV. Last time Carousel seems far to us, but i have been to Carousel for 2 times in a week leh...

Ah forgot to mentioned, i bought a new creative 2.1 speaker + subwoofer for myself .... good sound quality, it is time to compete with Tommy n SY, i am bloody jealous with their speaker, so now i got mine ... wahahahaha!

Friday went to Screen Text's tut, holy shit everyone of us got to speak, and i am the first one to be asked about the week's screening, and i got to ask for apology cuz i miss the screening for some reason.

I seriously think i got some problem with the film industry, i don't really understand the whole genre thing, i don't know what kind of film belongs to what kind of genre, except for comedy, horror, thriller, action ... they are pretty easy to be recognised.

I do think i lack of film history and info in films, i only know how to visualised things that are in my head, don't really know how to express it well, express my idea and make them believe in my idea, i am so suck at this. Secondly i am bad in writing, damn! Ah... how to survive when i don't really know sci-fi films, and all those 50's directors and actors name. Bullshit! i only know TVB style, bloody hell, this is my non priveledge of watchin too many TVB drama series, and their kind of stlye only stick to one kind.

I got to improve myself in these!

That day i told abt SY situation to my frend KM. Actually is not really a situation, just tat abit unbelievable, and with her age she makes me curious about what her mind is thinking, i mean about "those" stuff. Yea i am such a curious kid.

Then one day, i asked her straight, i asked whether she ever had any sexual fantasy, she become god damn 'paiseh' she indirectly ask what about me. I had to admit and tell her the truth about myself, since i wanted to know about hers. YES i answered loudly. She got frightened with my answer n tone i think, her eyes gone big n round. Then i keep on insisting on my question to her, she go around the bush, damn shy .... in the end she din say it directly, she replied like "u says got mah got lo" .... c'mon i think this is supposed to be normal (my frend said) well i tought so too, this is bloody normal. Why i am so curious? Cuz i wanted to know whether she is normal or abnormal... hahah i remember after LT read about her sexuality n culture textbook, she said masturbating is normal in a medically explaination and those who don't are abnormal, SY said she would rather be abnormal. Now i wonder what is normal and what is not. ACtually my final question to SY is about whether she had any sexual desire before, but i gotta start with the fantasy thing, and then only see how to go in to that.... yea she is quite conservative about this kind of stuff, but sometimes she do surprise me with some other thing.

While we were talking about this, she diverted the whole topic to me, oh gosh finally she knew abt him, and she said alot, all the while i din really keep him in my mind, cuz it is ogos now, and what can we do, we have less contact, less communication since he left for batu pahat. But SY encourage me tat i MUST grab the chance, .... sounds so damn desperate! She even want me to take the action first, wah scared me! She even offer me her hp to sms him, wah i dare not man.... yea in this case i am so timid just like a mouse. After chatting with her, she made me think abt it for the whole night, even the next day, even when i am in the class .... she had made a deep impact on me! But well, now i am ok, still thinking whether i shud upload my Optus line specially for sms-ing to malaysia.

Oh co-incidentally, the day after chatting with SY, i received a msg frm him, he replied me with my bulletin post about the romantic level, why would her replied my bulletin post to me personaly, tell me his score ... wat is his intention!!! ok stop thinking

Last friday got my screen pro group, grouping with sam, jane, rachel and fred (a grad dip student) i think we've got a tremendous idea for our documentary from fred, now i shall come up with a good idea for our drama shooting.... i do have lotsa idea, bt they are all over, can't seems to concentrate on one. Cuz everyone must have a dream to be the director, a dream that their idea being accepted and screen it to everyone.

Forgot to mentioned, i am the cinematographer for the documentary project, cinematographer one of the post i dream of, besides i would loves to try on the director roll (but i suck at communicating n presenting), i would also loves to try on producer (but that has hell lotsa work)

At least i know i don't want to focus on sounds and editing.... cuz i had lots of visualising, fantasy, images in my mind, everyday ... evil thoughts, angel thoughts all in one, but i think i watch too much thriller, bloody images appear, hard to do on the make up leh .... blood blood ...

I shall go sleep and dream more.

Oh i wrote this post for 40 minutes d .... tsk tsk