Shocks

I can't deny that, when you are down, family is the best people in the world to cheer you up. It doesn't matter whether i share the problem i had with them, but i can guarantee, chatting with them, looking at them, make me feel so much better.

This afternoon, i hd received a huge shock!! The idol that i hv been idolising for 7 yrs, since i was 13 years old til now, though now my passion towards him is not like the old days, but yet is an idol that i admire, his voice, his looks, and now that he courage.

The courages that he took to tell the world that he is G-A-Y!! Yea he just broke the news to the UK tabloid. He brokes million girls' hearts. Including mine of cuz.

How can i describe my feelings eh ...

I dunno!

I know i have to accept it, be proud of him and wish him happy as always.

The thing is the matter of time for me to accept a sudden news. Though rumours have been around for so many years, but nothing come out to prove he is. All the while he has given me the impression of a playboy, but i can accept that, cuz it is none of my business.

And now that he admits he is GAY, just a lil bit disappointed, one more gorgeous looking man in the world committed with the same sex. What a waste.

What the world has became now. Last time my frend's idol also admit he is a GAY, but that doesn't relate to me, so i wasn't really know how was it. And now, it is my turn to experience such heartbroken thing.

I wasn't prepared for it!

Lots of celebrities are GAY, look at Elton John, George Michael....etc. They are all successful gay artist. To be honest, the artist's sexuality or private life has nothing to do with the fans. As long as they still produce good music, they still perform their best for people who support them.

Though i have mixed feelings, i know one day i would take it easy, just like the smoking habbit. I need time.

I just wish he won't get any AIDS or quit singing.... That would be the biggest shock!

*Back to the family part*

I came back from SV dessert n movie night, i was a lil tired, not in a high mood at all. Then so happened, my "sam pat" cousin sis wants to webcam n chat with mic with me. I am so glad to see my lil cousin face close up shot, looking happily, excitedly, greeting me with energy. It really make my day. As chatting goes on, brother came along, mom, dad, uncle, grandma, aunties, more cousins, kakak ....

I am really very happy to chat with them, all of them were asking me when i m going back, it really makes me wanted to go back n stay for a longer duration instead of just CNY.

I want to go back to get crazy with them, eat, shopping .....

And so on .... my cousin sis n bro tell me abt some gossips.... my cousin bro n sis got bf/gf .... (alert: younger than me)

Especially my cousin bro, i never expected he would have a gf at this moment. More n more of them got into relationship.... making me felt so mentally imbalance .... (muahaha)

Ok... i dunno abt myself, when cousin sis tell me abt all those, i just felt like "WAH, WAT!!" shocked the hell out of me. I am like so "sat bai", such a loser ( i m the eldest among all btw)

Well .... well, it is all fated, it is things that i can't control at all.