Mad over this bloody hell.

A day has past, and it is time to have dinner, tonite dinner we had it at Felice's flat, cuz she is making Mexican Taco meal... while we are happily enjoying that messy taco meal. Suddenly this guy pop out of nowhere.... this is a guy all of us don't like - YuBun.

He is a part time phone/ phone card seller in the campus, he always walk around and search for victims to sell out his product - international calling, phone away card, mobile prepaid, and lastly he also sells phone, frm vodafone, optus, 3, telstra and virgin...

He has been bothering Siang Yee they all for a very long time, cuz he is like an admirer of Siang Yee, but he is very very very bloody disturbing. He din bother that time, cuz i din buy any phone from him. Until i started to know more about 3 phone from him, frm then he starts to bother me... but well it is sort of business deal so it is fine with me.

Until i got the phone, and our business finish. Then i figured out my phone keypad at number 3,6,9 the light keep on flick, so i tell him about it, and he din seems to bother. Then one day he message me and want to know about Siang Yee's msn n icq.... then i told him my infarred port seems cannot transfer file, i just reply me with sorry i can't help u. What the fuck is this, he provide no customer service or after sales service to his customer, the phone he is the one who sell to me, of cuz i have to find him to ask for the problem.... just a sentence of word like this.... pissed me off totally, but i din put this in mind.

Sometimes he suddenly pop out at my slidding door and ask where is my phone, cuz he wants to try to unlock this phone, then i told him i don't want to unlock, and i need to use my phone. then he ciao...

Until today when i am having my dinner at Felice place..... I am in the mid of eating the messy taco... oil and sauce all over my hand and he suddenly just pop out of the slidding door, and talk nothing. No one wants to bother him, but Siang Yee was too kind to him, ask him come here for what, and who he wants to find. Then he said he wants to find me, for wat i asked and how he knows i am here, he said he saw me and asked whether my phone is with me, cuz he wants to try to unlock it... bloody hell, told him before that i don't want to unlock it, and why he keep on insists on it... fuck. Then i just give him myphone and like make him go away. I am not so happy about giving the phone to him without me guardin what he will do to it.

Then i was in the mid of watching 'Desperate Housewives', he then come back and bring a very happy smile on his face, show my phone to me, and on the phone it stated a "yes optus" thing, means he succeeded in unlocking the phone, then put it back my sim card into the phone, and he start to tell me, er... u check and see whether all the setting got change, and check whther all ur stuff is inside or not. .... I was like in the mid of anxious, i hope it won't happen... bt then it happened man.... all my photos gone, all my ringtone gone, all my lovely messages gone, all my contacts gone... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.... he even asked me what is gone, then i said pic lo... he asked how many pics u have inside.... my tone was down, and din want to talk to him at all, i just tell him " a little lo" ... which actually means GOT FUCKING A LOT!!!!!!!! I replied him in a low tone voice, and want to distract my view on the nice show on the TV.. .and dunwant to see him again!!!! He just said a word "sorry" then ran into someones room and talk, chat and laugh...

After he went into someones room, he reacted quite .... big, cuz siang yee they all asked me how, and i am like dumping the sofa.. almost looking violence, but still in control.

Until i came home, and want to check what is really gone, how many pics is gone.... FUCK wasted my time to restore the ringtone in, the lovely message that i need to transfer frm old phone to this new phone, and the pic... they are really gone ...

In conclusion, he is a irresponsible phone seller, he pretend to be friendly with u when he needs the business from u, whoever got him in ur msn list, dun promise urself will hv a good time, cuz he sometimes will message u and ask u "u rarely make calls?" What the fuck la, how many calls i made is none of ur business la, he even asked me before "dun u need an international calling card to call home?" He told him i dun call home, we use internet and chat online, he keep on ask, and i reply the same answer BLOODY HELL, DUN HE FUCKING KNOWS WHAT PEOPLE MEANT??!!!!?!?!??!

I then deleted his msn on my msn list and blocked him.

Oh SHIT.

Been watchin DVD for this few days, cuz nothing to do also, din go out also, becuz of the senior have assignment to due, so i can't go out alone also... damn.

DVDs that i hv been watch within these few days
1. Moulin Rouge
2. Miss Congeniality
3. The Tin Drum
4. South Park
5. Bridget Jones's Diary
6.Ghost

What is so shit about my life is that....

I have been started to have a truly Aussie lifestyle..actually not, the Aussie life is not like this.

I hv been sleeping for more than 10 hours a day... sleep at 3am in the morning, wakes up at 1pm... just today, i start to hv awakening feel abt 12pm, and i tot it was only 9am. The weather here too nice to let u sleep, u won't feel it is afternoon, and i tot it is only morning. I heard frm some seniors, when in the winter, you just won't feel like waking up, cuz it is too comfy to sleep and curdle in ur quilt. Today is sat, it is even better to sleep til so late, cuz the gardener is not working, so i won't hear the noise of some noisy engine or motor working around my courtyard.

So how.... if i continue to sleep like this, or this kind of lifestyle, i will really get fat ler.... cuz now the weather or the evening is getting colder, it will be very cold to jog at that time, it has been weeks tat i din go for exercise... and i think i start to feel some unneccessary meat or oil at my tummy there.... ARGH.... cuz potato chips are too nice to say no to them.

BTW... if anyone is kind enuf, could u call me in the morning to wake me up? hahah...

Production Helpers

Another early morning wake up day. Today is the day that i will go and help out the Honours student shooting project. Heard this from my tutors, and i email the producers as a volunteer, and i already assume that i will be doing those doggie work, just like a "da chap"...

Gotta wake up at 7am... 3 alarm rang, but none of them can wake me up, just felt like not going, cuz i am too tired to wake up this early. But then, i woke up, and have nearly about 20 minutes to prepare myself and walk to TV Studio. After all this time competition, i made it, and arrived on time. hhahahaha.

And yeah... i am really doing some diggie work, like guarding the door out there, dun let anyone to go in without any permission. But nvm, i prepared for it, i even prepared to be scold, but din happen.

They are really professional, i really learn alot of stuff from this experience, from there i know how sucky we are when we are shooting, we are just like some freshmen, who dunno how to shoot, everything messed up, but them, they have all the key word, such as: stand by (everyone need to prepare, ppl who guard the door need to go out), camera going to roll (means camera going to roll within seconds, and the person who do continuity need to be prepare with the correct slate board), roll (means the camera press record, and the continuity need to say scene 2, shot 5a, take3), here comes the director, see everything in set, then he will sit down and say "ACTION" (this is when everyone need to be quiet, cannot move at all except for the actors).

What is so hard in this part is that, if u r in the set, after the word ACTION being called, you cannot move ur leg, cuz will cause some sounds, worse is if you feel like fart.. u have to hold ur fart until the director say cut. I saw another person, he just cannot hold on his counghing... so hard man.. i see his face all red, and chokking all the way...arh

After seeing how they did, at least i have a clue on how to shoot our next mise-en-scene assignment.

Looking forward to another shooting day, i'll helping them on next thursday nite at Dewson's Woodvale, for a food fight scene. I think that would be more interesting... hahah

Tired.... shooting ends at 7pm.

Call me a GOD

It is good to know that our MA assignment due time being postpone to 4pm, if not will need to struggle more.

I have been starting my assignment since Thursday morning, I know it is a bit late to start this assignment, I thought I can complete it within a day, maybe!!! Cuz all I need is to paste some info, then do some lit review, and then analyse it.

Went to the library in the evening to find some books for lit review and referencing, wow … I din attend the library tour, so I dunno how to borrow a book and dun even know where our school book locate… I then log into the library website at the library, find some related books, and then go up to 4th floor and go down to 1st floor for several times, just to search some possible books. Spend almost 1 hour there, found 4 seems like related to my topic books. This is hard man… not like KDU college library, small but easy to find, here too big to find a book.

I keep on stray when I do my assignment, start to do my lit review after dinner, well I think this is the hardest part, as I really dunno how to do alit review and also I didn’t read many books, so how???

Been reading and looking at the example that WebCT gave us, keep on think how I am going to relate this and this. Hard hard hard hard….!!!!! I dunno how much time I spend on lit review part, I think until midnite, I am still at that part.

I din sleep for the whole nite, sipping my green tea, hope to keep me warm and keep me stay awake. I am not sleepy to be surprised, so pretty good, but I think I really use a lot of time to do it.

I have been sitting at my desk since the noon of Thursday, watching the sky turn into dusk then become dark. Ass becoming bigger I think, sit there until the dawn going to appear, and then looking at the sun going to come out, shinning the east part of the sky. I found the scenery very beautiful, at about 6am, I opened my window, and keep the fresh air come in, that was 9 celcius. I took a lil walk outside, to feel the good o morning, to invite a new day, felt so good, I am walking through all the mist, with just a thin pull over and my long pants, luckily dun hv wind… if not will be really cold.

Went back to my room, continue my assignment as it is going to end. Sitting at my desk, only I realize so many Old Aussie awake, and they are walking towards uni, maybe for a morning walk… emm our uni truly have an amazing environment for walk. This is my first time awake till this time, never have I stay till so late, or never had I wake up so early. The morning is really nice, can never get this in Malaysia.

Today was a cloudy day, lots of cloud. I am going to finish my assignment, that time, while I saw some student walking to the uni for classes, pity them need to wake up so early, and attend classes so early, then I continue my assignment. I think I used a lot of reference, they gave me a hard time to organize them, then I saw the same person who went for classes, come back. That was 9:30am, I din realize it was 9am, I tot it is only 8am. Oh my….

Struggling with the appendix, then YAHOO….. finished at 9:45am… then I dunno why, I am so energetic for the whole nite, but rite after I finish the assignment, I started to feel dizzy, and some body heat probably. Then I went to have a short nap, becuz need to wake up at abt 12 to go for printing, then pass it up, better be early than late.

I can’t really sleep well, then I woke up right after I heard the sound of a thunder…. Scared me off, cuz I scared if it is going to rain… then I will be suck.

I woke up dizzily, felt much of my body heat come out, I think it gotta be the stress and been up for the whole nite, human body really need to have some rest. Now I know how important rest are.

About 3pm, din rest at all, still have the energy to walk to Kardy for groceries. I am going to praise myself…. Then tomorrow need to wake up early to go to wildlife park. I am just a god .. who dun need to sleep.

At nite after dinner, start watching American Idol, then continue to watch American pie on PUBLIC TV…. Poor Siang Yee slept at 7:30pm, becuz she also been up for the whole nite, but she slept for 4 hours in between. But I still have the energy to watch till abt 11pm, and start to sleep at 12 something… geng.

Illegal Intruder

I know if i tell you where i went today, you must be damn envy, but then again if you know what i have to do for my studies, then you will say me .... argh... dunno what you will say about me, maybe something about how i dunno how to arrange my time.

Well... i have been busy since monday nite, been searching for a campaign to do for my case studies, i know i am rushing it again, doing my assignment last minute again, some of them even pass up the assignment and me still thinking what to do over several days.

Tuesday nite, busy with editing assignment, but well finally finish with that assignment, our baby, the one we come out with an idea, and shoot ourselves, and edit it ... my ever first so called professional production. Completed at 11pm something... damn tired.

Then today, is the most busy day for me. been up since 8:30am for classes at 9:30am, a 3 hours straight class, then another tutorial right after that class .. so tired, i only have 2 hours to rest then have class again at 4pm... sleep for that entire 1 and half hour... luckily the MA tutorial have nothing to do, then go back early, i am so happy with that cuz i have somewhere to rush to rite after my class.

Go back, get something to eat then, hehehehe... here i go.

well i got to keep this as a secret, cuz zoe din ask the rest of them to go, becuz she knew they won't go cuz of assignment, she invite me to go becuz i am interested though i have assignment too...

Ok let's reveal what is the secret here.

Zoe has a friend who work for an Airline (i can't tell this), and then he is a kadet pilot of that Airline, and so happen that the flying college is just situated not far from my uni. So he brought us there to have a look.

It was 6:10pm, the sky going to turn dark. Heavy traffic on the road, lots of traffic light that makes us falls into dark.

We have finally reach the airport (actually is just a 5 minutes drive frm uni, but make it like such a long journey), the sky was dark enough, he brought us to a look out point, where there are benches and a very nice view for you to look at those small size aerolane thta kadet used to trained.

Nothing much going though, it is at nite... but until we waited for not too long, there was one aeroplane going to fly, that pilot gotta do his nite flight training. And then not too long too, we saw more and more plane going for their training, we saw take off and landing. We can't do anything at that moment except for looking at it.

Then we head off to Freo for our dinner, after dinner went to cottesloe beach to take a fresh air. I never knew cottesloe beach is a place to go at nite. there are spotlight, so it won't be a problem for those who worry for dark. Nite at the beach was great and fun. Walking barefoot on the beach sand, they are absolutely cool, those cold sand folds into ur feet while u standing, a lil bit of land breeze awake me from the stress of MA. But still a bit worry for it, cuz i hv been out tis nite.

We have been spending our nite till 11pm at the beach, sitting there, chat, observe the sea gull, how amazing they are when u throw something, they actually fly near u and look, stare at u, wait for u to offer them food, i think they are hungry. And i saw a sea gull has an imbalance wing. One wing bigger than another, and they are all quite fat.

About 11:15pm, we are about to go, cuz he said until this time, his college will be definately empty, it is the safest time to sneak in. We then sneak into the flying area, with all the planes lining up, ... wow that was great. Never in my life did something like this, sneak into a high security place. I will get fine if i get caught, $5000 is the fine if ...

But well we were too lucky to be caught, we took pic with the plane, climb on it, posted... push the plane too ... wow .. that was amazing. then there was one plane, he accidentally open the door, the door is not lock, i was like OMG ..... this might be the chance to get in, and sit there n post too... hahaha, but then again, he was trying hard to close the door.... cuz the door cannot be closed, oh shit!!! There will always be some twisted added into ur spicey story, or watever u want to call. Scared us off, he is trying hard to close it... but then in the end succeeded in closing it, PHEW!!! We scared until our we sweat, i think he sweat the most, haven't introduce him, he might be terminate by the college, cuz he din pass one of his exam, that is y, we chosed this date to go there, cuz he might be terminate, and we won't get a chance to go.

We were so scared, then we think it is time to go.... i was like oh bye bye. bye... bye.... bye!!We almost spend more than half an hour there, takin pic and all... too bad can't get to sit in or fly!!! It will be fun and amazing if got to do that.

But then again.. thinking of his career n what if we get caught, i might send back to Malaysia, and my dream get squash to the very end.

For once in my life time, did something just like those rebellious teenager, sneak into their school mid nite to steal something .... i felt like i was like them. Phew... but afterall, it was a great experience. I didn't regret going there, though sometimes felt a bit guilty.

If you want to see pics... feel free to go my photoalbum, i can't post it to places like friendster, that will be too exposed. Cuz when we took the pic with the plane, we accidentally took the flying college name.

Coldest April

I was awake by the growling wind outside, it made the trees sway from the left to the right, up and down... It is just like some hurricane, twister, HK's '8 level' strong wind....

Slept at 4:30am last nite, becuz of assignment, it due today in the evening, but i wanted to finish it by last nite, so that i can have a good nite sleep and not to worry.

It was abt 10am that i was awake by the bad weather out there, in my room, i can heard the crying sounds of the wind, made me worry, can't sleep at all, but still i was laying on my bed, waiting for the peace moment... but nah!!! the rain n crazy mad wind still go on, i start to worry, when i shud go out to hand in my assignment... i need to walk about 10 minutes to the E&H building to put into the box.

I can barely see people walking outside, it felt dangerous to walk out there, as we have a very nice environment that fills with tall trees.. what if the branches falls down onto my head.... i will be fainted, or die!! I was cooking for my branch, still thinking and looking at the weather. Suddenly my Australian flatmate ran into the flat, and said it is crazy out there, it was like attacking... wow ... that sounds crazy!!!

The rain, sometimes heavy sometimes small like a light shower, but the wind never stop today... i saw the rain been lighten... it is time for me to dress up and go out and finish the last part of handing in the assignment - print out!!!

When i am at uni, i saw lots of ppl wearing all sort of diff clothes, with different style... yea, there was only last week, when everyone was wearing summer wear, sleevesless, short pants... and today, we are all wearing jackets, wind breaker, long rain coat, hats, scarf. well i still love to put my hoodie on instead of bringing an umbrella, cuz it has fur on it, and it look cool.... hahaha

Until the nite, the rain has stop, and it is time for me to go out for me to do my usual stuff... haha walking to the library to return the video that i hv borrowed...

although the rain has stop, but the wind never stops... it is still howling like crazy.. i was scared when i saw lots of branches on the floor and the tree swaying hardly.. arh.. made me run quickly to the library.. what suck is... the library close early today, becuz it is a freaking friday!!!!! Ok, i am going to have an overdue, see what they will do to me.

The sense of mixing with d Air

Been starting to borrow video tape from the library.... cuz it is a way of getting rid of boredom.

Last wednesday, it was a very very hot day, we have heat wave... bt just after a week, today we have cold temperature. Our nite started to feel cold.

I enjoy walking alone at nite, together with my jacket and my mp3 player... walking all the while to the library, it is a full relax... enjoy it while the nite is cold, with some light shower, and the straight pathway, sometimes dark sometimes bright with the street light... i felt safe.

For the 15 minutes of walking... totally enjoy into the music played on my mp3 player, hands in the pocket of my jacket, with a hoodie on to prevend from shower.. .. one step, two step, step by step to the library... no one bother you, no one around, just felt like there is only u n the earth, the air, felt so much like my soul are mixing with the air....Emm mm... love it so much.

The feeling of relief, relaxation, happy, light!! ... feel like flying.

It was great!!

Out of a sudden

Out of a sudden!!! .... i realise i am on this blog for 7 months and 9 days....

I never realise i hv been here for more than half a year...

and i never realise time passed fast, re-read some of the post at august.... wow... it seems like last month, but it passes for 7 months already, and also things that i mentioned then n now, are different, people who are in my post are different, things and people who are in my life now are different... I wonder what makes a different!!!

Aih.... if i keep on remind myself of some promises by someone... it will not be in a happy mood, just look at how different we are now, just look at how different lifestyle we are having now, the story of our life, the things that happened in our life ARE DIFFERENT!!!

aih... dunno what to say

well 7 months passes... i hv to grow up, and things just happened and made me a better person.

It was....

It was a good weekend with some boredom.. haha

Why i say it is good, becuz i can have the whole house for myself, so i can walk wherever i want, spend my time in the lounge... invite anyone to the flat... hahahaha

I think it is officially Autumn now, cuz the temperature start to drop down a bit, and start to have cloudly day, rainy days.... and i just love the sunset time... it is about 6pm...that is the most beautiful time.

I played frisbee around that time and saw the most beautiful moon i have ever see in my whole life. Too bad i din bring my camera to the field. I saw the moon at a very low position, then the moon just appear to be in between 2 tall trees, and then the moon was round in shape n bright in colour... i just cannot believe my eyes that i saw something so beautiful like this, gotta wait another month to capture this, and i cannot guarantee that the moon will still be this round and bright and low in position.... yup i admit the moon in overseas are rounder n brighter.

The another day, i wanted to look for the moon again... but badly that day was too cloudly, but then it is also the most beautiful sunset i hv captured.... will upload them later to my photoalbum.... you will be amazed to see ... they are all like poster picture.... luv em all!!

Badly, we din get to watch the videos we borrowed from library together..... such a waste, Chip is always busy with her assignment, test, and outings....

I am darn free... and lazy to say... postponing my assignment.... i am going to be busy later this week due to the shooting is done and need to do editing.

Last minute Shopping

As what i said, supermarket going to close tomorrow, and added that today is a late nite shopping day, so we gotta go for grocery shopping till late ... hahah

Sleep late last nite cuz of the movie, then again need to wake in the morning to attend for my screen production demo... my mind was blank while i m in the demo... and Damien is teaching the most complicated and difficult part - Lighting.

Then after class, got to know we hv car to Garden City, and so i need to go there to search for my frend bikini.... hahaha finally spend for like an hour in City Beach, i got to find that particular design of Roxy bikini for her. Good Good... i hv been searching every store....but failed to find it.

Got back about 3:30pm, then 4:30pm need to walk to Kardi for groceries shopping.

We shop until .... 8pm... rushing here and there.... then buy Chicken Treat meal for 2 back to SV and eat... then Zoe told me one day a singaporean student on his way to SV, being robbed... and that time is only about 7pm (quite dark already). So we think for our safety... it is advisable to call for Murdoch Escourt Service, since everyone is using it, it is not embarrassing to use it again... hahaha bought too many things... fit in the whole van... it was fun though!!

Got back, and i realise the library going to close at 9pm, and i need to rush to the library to borrow some videos to watch in this weekend with Chip...

So we get there, found some videos, i borrow "Jeepers Creepers" and Chip used my accout to borrow "Last Tango in Paris" (It is a story kind of soft porn) because we have a long weekend, and half of my flatmates went for trips, so left only me and siang yee in da house.... it is good to own the whole house, you can just sing as loud as you want, watch watever you want without anyone disturb.. good good!!

So after borrowing the videos, we head back to our own flats, do our own business... i start to eat my chicken treat dinner... then Philips come in and hang out at our flats, then Felice also here, and then Serena come by wanted to go to Tavern, actually i also wanted to go, becuz this week theme is Beach or Sea theme... hehe luv beach so much... and wanted to see what other ppl will wear.

And so we succeded persuading Siang yee and Felice to go (well they don't like it and din enjoy much) and here we go.

So pretty sad actually, cuz we spend all the time standing out there.... not in the dance floor, watching people, and i seeing them standing there complaining too loud, too crowded, too wat wat... dun like it.. better go out!!! Geez... and then Serena went to find her friend... aih.. too bad i don't have my own who really enjoy it!!

There are really people wearing bikinis, guys wear bikinis.. badly didn't see any guys wear a speedos... that would be the champion of the nite.... or a girl wear a coconut shells on it with some hawaiian style leaf... hahaha that would be fun too...

Then later on, we leave early, then proceeded to Philips' flat for chatting.. til 4am... it was cold tat time.

Big holiday!!!

Yea, we are going to have a long weekend due to the good friday holiday and easter monday. What is sucks... is that everything is close in the weekend, so basically dun hv anywhere to go, and try to have fun in the weekend.

I have thursday, friday, saturday, sunday and monday...5 days free!!! What to do, as i don't have test next week, although i hv an assignment to pass up in the end of next week, but still i consider it as a pretty free weekend.

So just now, just watch "SAW" with Chip, Siang Yee, Serena, Ryan and Tommy.... in my flat. hahhaha, watch it at about 11:30 pm, and i though it is a horror movie ... and scared everyone off hahah... but well it is not a horror film, it is thriller film, it was svery good, i love the plot, the idea of the movie, and the twisted ending. Love it so much.... So tis nite our flat kinda happening... cuz all along it was quite dead!!

Planning what to do in the weekend...

Cheers...

Cheers that i did a great suggestion on going out in the mid of everyone was trying to concentrate and feeling bored for straight 2 1/2 days.

I always want to go to the beach before the sun falls into the ocean, so that i can catch the lovely sunset. And also, beach is a excellent place to go for relaxing and just put in your soul mix with the atmosphere or the environment that the beach n the ocean provide. That would make you feel so good.

It was saturday afternoon, after being stayed at the Student Village for straight 2 days.... i am bored, ok, i am bored!!! I am so easy to get bored, and i know i have things to do, and test on next week. But i am so bloody bored of staring at the words and all those nonsense.

And so, today is saturday, everyone went out, everyone has somewhere to go, except for us.... cuz hv no where to go, and one of them got test on the following monday, she is that kind who would stayed in her room for couple of days and just study!!!!

However, fun won't stop when i want them (actually it stops for quite a numbers of time which lead me into a damn bored days). So i suddenly suggested to go to the beach at 4pm, and want them to gather at 4:15pm. When i go to visit their room and ask them whether they want to go, they are all like so happy finally can go out. At first i planned to go by myself, bt then after i ask, here goes some company.

And then we arrived at the beach, after being pointed by the bus driver to go to Cottesloe beach by bus, and made us change for 3 buses to get there.... i am wrong, i shud take the train earlier with my own well planned journey. If we take the train, we would have more time at the beach.

And so we reached, saw lots of small little piece of artwork, yeap, they are now having seaside sculpture at Cottesloe beach. which attracted more and more ppl to go there and have a nice saturday. And i saw quite a number of couple getting married there, taking a photo of the sunset as a background.

We are all satisfied with this trip, because we all get excellent gift from the nature, and everything just satisfied, so everyone was happy and enjoy the short trip at the beach and back to fremantle.

We have our Cicerellos dinner at Freo, hahaha so happy to get to eat cicerellos fish n chips again, although they are really expensive, but pay for that amount of money you won't regret.

Here are some photos taken at the beach of the sunset, i again as the photographer, capturing silhouettes of my models....haha and they look god damn great (i mean the photos)

Now i realise that the earth does turn, and it turn pretty fast too.... despite of looking at the sunset, the sun does set fast enough, within minutes and the sun.....*droop* drop into the ocean and left the dark blue colour of the sky and some dark orange still shining.... and we can see the moon light getting brighter.


Me and Zoe, sitting on my newly bought beach mat to look for sunset.


The is when the sun is going to set


Here are my 3 models


This pic taken by me, but i took without her noticed, so it is a super natural pic, and a really nice pic.


This is truly shown that the sun already drop into the ocean!!

Welcome

Welcome to my new online photo album, it is better there i guess compare with the previous i had, but the previous album i will remain, cuz no point taking them down, in case anything goes wrong to my comp, at least i have a backup area, if not all the photo lost... cry also no tears ah!!!

So the following address would be my latest online photo album, feel free to click on it and see my life here in Perth, Western Australia (if you are interested la), if not dun it's ok, it is also a place for me to store my pic, so that it won't be lost forever.

There you go http://carven.myphotoalbum.com/albums.php

No matter what, you are welcome to my album, but you can't take them without my permission for some illegal cut n paste or your own creation ah...!!!! Watch out

Good Start

Just love sweating out the sweat that hidden for years.....
Went badminton yesterday with some new people....
good .... got to new some new people
and they are friendly n active.... so from now on i can find some people for outdoors activities lah....!!!!
After playing badminton then they invite me n my flatmate to their flat to play monopoly...
Good too... then got to know they are going rock climbing today.... Which is SUCK!!! Cuz i can't go, it clashes with my CPA meeting....Argh god i hate it....
They are people frm singapore, hong kong, melbourne born chinese... and they are friendly enuf to accept new people and to be frank they are really friendly.
And the course they studying, really have no any relation to our media or mass comm... they do vet studies .... Cool subject bt not for me though!!! Hahah....
Just see people frm another school and another country, we can also get along....

Arh... i wish i go to the rock climbing, heard it was good and have a huge dinner after that.... not like what i did for this evening, sucks man!!!

Bt well... i finally clear up my mail box this evening, which i always open bt never read those mail. And then it accumulates till 80 mails.... then i finish everything in a evening. Bravo.... now my mailbox seems so clean. hahahah!!!!

Well tomorrow morning got to wake up early, darn early, 7am.... (my second early wake up time ever since i came to perth) Will go to Canning Vale Market with these new frends.... Good!!!

I just want to....

It has been almost 4 damn long week
Suddenly i just wanted to like write a letter to her
I don't want to suffer from this kind of situation
make it clear ok
guessing n get frustrated... it is not a good thing to do
it is mentaly exhausted

It is like a kind of suffer whenever i see her
Aren't we the 'ONE WEEK MEET ONCE' frend???
Someone did made that we are ji muis wor....
so now wat

last time whenever how far we are apart...
we use msn to communicate
and now we are ONLY within 500 metres away (IT IS LESS THAN TAT I AM PRETTY SURE)
we communicate less
no contact
no communicate

i don't want anyone to misunderstood the situation
I am so scared i made others to misunderstood her
She is not as cold as what u guys think
It is just tat.... the feeeling is not like last time
It is different
Things has changed.... and so do someone changed!!!
and we only meet once a week
compare with last time 5 days a week
msn almost .... all nite!!! (well that doesn't work for 2 months though)

we are near near near.....
bt we only meet one week once for less
talk less than 10 sentence (i guess)
So days by days
weeks by weeks
and months ... years ....
and we might be the 'HI-BYE' frend kind
So where the fuck is the commitment that we all said, planned, suggested went??

If you read this, you should who you are
I just want to type this out
and let it out.... i wanted to write it somewhere else
but.... since there are not much people readin this blog here
so i might as well write it here to let the people who might misunderstood and the subject that i wish she can know
I am not trying to be rude or something... i just want to... (as my title said) let it out
Cuz it has been hauting me for weeks,
suffering from dunno what's goin on
dunno what to do next
and the question WHY????????

So we are all busy people...
life makes someone busy
and when the person are busy
they will slowly forget what n who they have gone thru
*slap myself hard* @_@
THIS IS THE REAL WORLD GIRL

THIS IS REALLY THE REAL WORLD
maybe they are also being structured... ( i am so sick of the truth n reality in a film/documentary....being confused by the tutor in documentary class.... and makes me questioned what are REAL)

and So... now i hv met the REAL WORLD....
They are so .... "chi gek" that makes ur life goes ups n downs....
why??
becuz the player in SIM CITY wants to make the human life grow stronger

I ever thought i can be like so happy after going abroad
I ever thought i will be over enjoy my life here in Perth
I ever thought i can do things that i never when i am in msia

and so now... my life goes on... routinely
bt my mental really suffers frm .... frustration

Wassup lately!!

Wassup to me lately!!! I am now at Perth, studying, alone...... alone.... and alone..... people see me "wah got a good life wor, can travel to so far, study abroad, go here n there, so lucky la, so fun la!!!"

Well.... that is what people see in me, but nobody knows what is really "IN" me....

It is not what i hv expected, it is out of my expectations... something that really makes me frustrating, bt well, wonder what is going on with that???

Something planned, bt it din happen here after i got here!!!

Disappointment, alot of disappointment..........

that is one of the story

another is i do really miss my family n friends back in KL or Malaysia, i miss what we get to do in the weekends and weekdays, here all u got is to be alone, alone and alone, if u get to find things to do, that would be party at nite... all nite long, which only the mat salleh will do, and only the mat salleh will party with mat salleh!!! And if we go to party everyday or every weekends, our bank account gonna hurt so bad, and so do our parents account gonna hurt as bad as ours.

what to do?? Sitting in my room, all alone after a so called "dinner with friends".... and it is god damn early, sometimes we ended at 7:30pm, sometimes it is 8 or 9pm.... then after that u've got all nite long for ur own, thinking where the fuckin of my frend went???? It is even worse on thursday, friday, saturday nite... no one in the house, everyone went out, and dunno where they went.

Waitin... still waitin

waiting for something to happen,
waiting for something special ....

i've been waiting for years
and should i wait again
or discover myself?

Why?

Why i am so proud of myself??
becuz i get to complaint to the store manager, and tell them the whole happening, and also discuss with him how to avoid tis from happening again and me as the sacrificer.

It is a long talk with after he went to check with the security TV, and he found nothing .... i request for watching just a while, but he said "due to security reason..." can't let me in n watch it!!!

Oh well, his way of communicating with me, and the way of telling me wat he saw in the video, i find it pleasant, that is why i can calm myself and not getting mad at all, just feeling a bit rugi, and not really satisfied with this kind of things can happened again (those who got stolen din report to him, so tis makes the situation worse)

So this really taught me, everything u should report do the person in the highest level, not report to the people who work for it, especially people who dun really hv responsible of making any report to the manager, their kind of working attitude really make me sick.... that is also why more and more people got into the trap.

Watever it takes, i am so damn proud of myself for telling the whole thing, discuss the thing, and hv a long talk with the store manager infront of everyone....!!! Though i am abit shaky when my first first first time talk with him.

Proud of myself

I am so proud of myself.... today

Fuck the Carrefour management & Security

I don't know how to start and what to say, basically, my phone has been stolen today in the staff room of Carrefour Cheras.

Now, who to blame, myself or what??!!

The first day i went to work, they already told us cannot bring in our handphone into the supermarket, but we can put it into our bag... which they allow us to put our bag on a table with lots of stuff ... !!!

The is not the first time ppl's belongings being stole, and something surprised you, they 2 cctv in the staff room, one shooting the entrance, and another one it is focus on the bag table .... and of cuz another thing to surprise you is that the table is infront of the security desk (which is 24 hours occupied)

With so many high gadgets guarding for us, and tight securities .... THIS KIND OF CASES CAN HAPPENED!!!!

I went to work at 1pm, this is the last time i saw my phone ... and i din take it out when i went in too ... Then i am god damn busy with the stock loading, changing places, and moving around, carrying heavy stock, hurt my hand with several light cuts, then finally the last stock we need to move exhausted us, this is when i realised my phone was gone, it is 3pm sumthing.

when i opened my bag, i wanted to take out my bottle to drink water, then i realised my phone is no longer there, this is not the first time i felt this way, some other time, when i opened my bag i din see my phone i tot it has been stolen, but it was hidden under my purse which i din get to see. But for tis time ... this kind of hope din appear.... it is totally gone, missing, stolen!!!!

Suddenly, my tears broke down, and i can't stop myself from crying, though i am already holding on the tears to fall. I am damn mad, and angry and at the same time need to maintain a stable emotion ... but it is hard... some staff there saw me like this and ask me what wrong... this is when the whole staff room know what was going on. Then some security asked some details from me, the time and all and they said they will go and check from the CCTV (which is useless).

Until abt 8:30pm, i went to find that lady security who said she will watch the tape for me, and investigate it!! What i get the answer were, "too many promoters la, cannot really see, too many people go in and out, put stuff on the table and took stuff on the table" I am fighting alone there, i really dun want to believe what i've heard, i want to good reply from her, i wish to hear something good from her, i wish to hear that they found some suspect or sumthing .... but none ... then she called a higher position security, and that malay guy came and ask for the details and the situation.... I always wanted to watch the tape together with them if possible, at least this is my matter, i am sure i will watch the tape more detail and suspect everyone that have been there or have some odd action. I want to have a firm answer from them, not a reply that means "tak boleh janji la" (WTF) Then the malay guy security told me that this is not the first case, many stolen cases happened here ... (this is when my fire inside me boiling like hell, heating up, but need to hold back) then i said "sudah banyak kali!! mengapa still ada case lagi, mengapa tak boleh improve kamu punya security?" i then blah out everything (most probably) .. then they said you can't expect us standing infront of the table to watch for you.. OK this is an excuses to be honest, of cuz i know i can't expect them to stare at the table and watch for us, and i din really expect, but at least do sumthing from letting it happen again, becuase this is really NOT THE FIRST TIME.

I wanted to watch the CCTV tape, if i really can't see anything, at least i am satisfied with the whole thing, now what i get is only the story and words from the security ... how can i believe what they said are true... what if they saw it is their staff who did it and they want to cover it (they suspect promoters for quite a few times, and mostly the promoters are chinese) I believe i have the RIGHTS to watch it, because i am the victim. let me tell you their reason for not letting ppl to watch it, i asked kenapa "tak boleh, hanya securiti boleh tengok" Do you call that a reason?? you judge yourself.

I am really piss with what they told me, cuz the reply i get from them are not satisfied AT ALL. At the end of the conversation me with those securities, they then put the blame on me, they said "kamu ada tanggungjawab tau? hari pertama kami sudah beritahu yang kamu tak boleh bawa masuk headset kamu, jika kamu takut hilang jg bawa la, simpan di rumah la!!"

Stupid asshole, what is the meaning of "handphone" or "mobile devices" .... it is supposed to keep it within our hand surrounding, if keep it at home why dun call it as a "house phone" ... stupid la.. why we bring it, of cuz we have our own reason, we dun bring it to show off or sumthing, we dun bring it because we are desperate enuff to call ppl, we bring it becuz we need to receive calls and messages from the company, and of cuz some emergency!!

I am just mad that this kind of cases can happened under tight securities and CCTV .... for the CCTV of cuz i hope they can find the thief tru it and give me back my phone or money ... cuz i really dun wan my family to vomit half a thousand for another phone.

Tom is my last day, and i can't even get thru this ... why this happened now, i dun hv any free time to invetigate or make police reports ... next week is CNY, and next sunday i am flying off to Perth, i am leaving the country and this kind of bad things happen to me.... what the fuck man.

Now i hv lost all my contact (though i hv did a backup copy into my laptop that day) but .... the backup are not up to date... it dun hv WS number !!!! and of course all my precious sms from all my friends and family are LOST too!!!

Why it lost now .. when phone are important to me before i leave, keeping contact with friends are important, they might sms me with some gathering info, they might sms me with some wishes or CNY wishes, they might sms with some emergency info ..... and some of them dun hv my house phone, and basically i am not at home all the time. FUCK the thief ... may curse he or she with watever bad happen to him or her. Secondly wish the "SECURITY" will see some suspect tonite, and give me some good news tom i go to work (i know this is like 0.1%, for checking the "CCTV") .... what is the purpose of having a CCTV?? (Ah, i know to see who chit chat while working, FUCK!)

I just hate being there ... alll the bad things just happen one by one on me, becuz i am emotionally disturb, how can i concentrate on my work professionally?? i was just standing next to my partner and letting out what i am not satisfied and what i am piss at... so the manager came to me and said " I dun want to see both of you standing together, one should stand out there and another one should in here to promote my product, (pointing at me) you are not a merchandiser, do you know what "promoters" mean? Next time if i see both of you standing together, just don't work and get lost!!"

I din answer him with what he had asked ... i am just too unstable tat time, and i really want to "get lost" from there, dun wan to see his face for sure. Fucker mediteranne sea head or badman, he is just a typical supermarket fucker who care how his product sell ... and bias too, look down on Pepsi product and he really prejudice on us (Pepsi)!!!

Lastly FUCK the thief for sure. Fuck until his ass can't even put in a Nokia 8310.

He appeared in a NOT RIGHT time...

Before i decided to work, i never think of anything else, just plain work (experience) and CASH $$$, nothing else ... and be prepare for my leaving for Perth ... cuz it is my dream that i dreamt of all along.

Right now ... i ... hv met someone at the supermarket .... not to say ... what (argh i dunno how to say)

Ok... i am kind of intersted in this guy, who born in the same year, month and week with me ... just ONE day difference, and i am one day older than him ... ok this is not a matter ... but we do shared a same horoscope, and of cuz we do hv some similiarities.

He is not really handsome like Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt, but he is a OK looking guy (well i prefer the hair he has before he cuts it... cuz the current hairstyle cut by the "ah neh", means cut at a indian barber shop, which all guys won't satisfied with their cutting skill and service)

Talking about quality, he is educated (studied form 6, so not bad in studies), and not a loser kind of guy ... so far from what i have observed, he is someone i think we can be friend .... BUT WHY NOW .... WHY NOW only i met him, and i'll be leaving in 2 weeks time, and after one week he'll be going back to his hometown, then our friendship will stop ..... I hve been living in Msia for almost 20 years, but never met such a nice guy before ... and now it is too late to let anything happen or "improve", and whenever we are working, we are not allowed to walk or go around to another section ... I am at the carbonated drinks section, and he is at the alcohol section, which is quite far away, but sometimes we do have one hour or half an hour dinner together with all the gang. This is how we knew each other and probably knew more abt each other, but it is not enuf ....

It's all started since the first dinner that we had together, i don't know him, they don't know us ... i was planning to buy mixed rice outside and eat at the staff room with my friend, then he and another girl and another guy were eating there, then they ask us to sit together and eat... that's when i knew they knew my birthdate n his .... Just becuz he saw my IC number at the registration book, and he think it is so familiar as his IC number also almost the same, mine 850612.. and his 850613, then he told his friends abt it, and when i sit down with them at their table, then his friend ask me when is my birthday ... It's kinda weird to ask someone birthday at the first meeting ... then i said mine, and they said "Wow .. same as his, but one day difference... blah" then they are like starting to make fuss of it ... bt they then explain they already knew my birthdate b4 i told them .. I am like WAH check on me ah .... shocked me abit!! but then they explain the whole scenario la ...

After all the hi and bye thingy, or some coincident dinner together .... of cuz chatted and knew each other much ... but i dunno why the friends always like linking me with him ... just like yesterday when he is talking, then i agree with his fact and they are like "wah so fast help him say things ah ... " erm .. in this kind of embarrassing situation ... what to act leh ... but well I din't meant to help him explain, but it is the fact that i agree with, or other wise when i said sumthing, he added sumthing, then they said "he always stand on my side" .... erm well ... dunno what to do, but just dun THINK TOO MUCH ....

Erm... sometimes i think, i am thinking too much ... It is the "Too Much" that makes me go crazy ... but afterall he is really a nice guy to have....

That day he get my phone number, i am like ... "erm..." (basically thinking too much again!!) then the next day was his off day, so i am kinda like a bit disappointed, that nite itself, i've got one sms from him, not a sms that type by himself, is that kind of msg that with a meaning of "he can be a true friend of mine" ... at first i dunno who send me this msg, cuz i din get his number, so i ask who is this, but in my heart i suspected is him lah!! ... So it really appear to be him, but in a shy way... hehe, he said he scared if he tell me his name i won't know (which i DO know his name) and then he said he is the tiger beer promoter, and greeted me with some good nite n sweet dreams thing .... (it melted my heart .... wahahaha) Then received another sms from him the next nite with some funny n naughty CNY msg ... which just made me laugh and giggle from the beginning of the msg till the end ... (i tasted the sweet of the sweetnest ... ahem)

Sometimes we just din really have a chance to chat ... cuz all the while we are having dinner together with the whole gang. Sometimes we just need to give urself some chance. One day, i saw a bottle of red wine leave by a customer at the sparkling juice shelf (which really not a matter of mine, but the sparkling juice shelf near to my section ... so... ) so... i am dead bored at my own place, my partner went for dinner, and i am alone there ... so i took it and wanted to put it back on the original shelf, where it is at the alcohol section ... I walk all the way there, just wanted to put the wine, and basically want to like say hi ONLY .... or visit their booth la!! So there is only him and another girl promoter, and so the girl promoter saw me and she was so excited and welcome me to their boring place ... haha, then i hang around there for quite a long time too ... 3 ppl chat there, with lots of hidden camera shooting us ... suddenly that girl promoter said need to go to the toilet ... urgent!! and she wanted me to stay there and wait there until she comes back, reason is to help her watch her product... bt well kind of a stupid reason actually, cuz i know nothing abt her product, not even the price, bt why ask me to help her instead of him, of cuz he will know the price better than me ... but after all i do stayed there, and chatted with him, just 2 of us there ... (kind happy actually ... long time dun hv this kind of feel la) Then at nite, 30mins before my off duty time, he's off already, but he needs to wait for an auntie to go to the LRT station, so he stopped at our section and we chatted again .... I dunno why, i DO enjoy talking with him, cuz got good feeling and i also dunno why, why we really look into the other person eyes and talk. *Happy*

Sunday nite, i accidentaly check on a daily romantic horoscope, and ... it is something like this "Your inventive, creative side should have a field day with everything the stars serve up. Watch for romantic sparks in unexpected spots -- possibly given off by your own crazy combustion. "

So for today, i din really expect much, but just wanted and eager to see him ... I dunno whether i did creat for this or IT IS really a coincident... we met for 8 times today, particularly at the store room...
1. I saw him walking to somewhere ... so i wanted to go n see where he is going, i walk out of my section n see... but see nothing of his shadow. Then i go back to my section with disappointment, then bump into him... he is at my section... and ask me whether i saw a staff.

2. me and my partner went down and took stock to replenish stock, when we went down there, he is already there, and then he come over to our area ... and talk sumthing, and see how my partner perfom circus show .. (he is climbing up and down just to reach the stock at the top), he help abit ... and passing one of the stock to me ... (his hand are quite cold actually ... ) but he is sweating anyway, cuz he is also taking stock for his product (lots of it) ... Then we done and we went back to the shelf ... he then continue on his job

3. After replenish all the stock we taken from the stock room, i found out we left one stock, and we need to go down and take it, my partner he was tired and hungry, so i just go down myself and take it. Then i go down, and he is still there ... oh man ... kinda happy actually, but this time got some other staff around and help him la. Becuz i need to climb up to take the stock, when he first saw me go down there again, of cuz he noticed me, and also ask whether i can get it, basically offering help to me ... but becuz he is busying with his stuff and i just want to climb and play with the climbing ... and then i took it, it was kinda hard, (i dunno how to explain here, cuz there are just covered with lots of other stock...) Then i am done, prepare to go to the lift, and then he came in too, with his whole bale and sweaty forehead. Erm ... the lift contain of me n him, stock and other ppl too ... but we do chat a bit la!! and i also remind him of his shoelace, and ask why his shoe colour is not black, that is when i know what shoe he is wearing today.

4. Been visiting the stock room for quite some time, hoping to see him (cuz his area are near to the stock room) but din bump into him, cuz he is busy with his stuff. Then i need to go down and take another stock, he is not there ... bt my mind were thinking sumthing abt what if i met him when i go up .... then took the lift again ... this time i am alone in the lift ... ( thinking too much again) then when the life door going up ... Oh man !! I saw his shoe .... slowly slowly when the lift door finish open, it was him again ... and he said "u again, so bc ah" (i m so shocked... and ask myself is tis faith... why we are meeting for so many times today, bt actually i wanted to ask his email add, or msn or icq that sort of stuff, if get to meet him, cuz i am so shy to ask in front of the gang la ... but everytime also forget to ask)

5. It is going to be our dinner time, but is not a fix time, since my partner said he is god damn hungry, so he might want to eat earlier. Then i wanted to know what is his dinner time too ... After replenish the stock i took just now, i need to throw the plastic bag, so i need to go to the stock room again .... this time when i first enter the stock room, i bump into him again, he just got out from the lift ... and of cuz saying things like what a coincident.... then he walk off, but i turn back and ask him what time he will go n eat ... then of cuz .. succeeded in asking him to accompany me, if not he will eat at the my usual time (i swap my time with my partner today)

6. After i throw the rubbish, i need to wash my hand ... then i saw him washing his hand too ... ahhahaha bump into him again.

There are one time that i will bump into him at the staff room, actually i saw him went to the toilet, so i walk around at my section, and wanted to go to the staff room and drink water, then i wanted to walk out of my section, i saw him going back to the staff room ... so i dun want to go ... cuz suddenly i felt like ... we met too much within 30 mins, just dun felt like bump into him again in this short duration... cuz need to cool myself down abit .. not to get too excited!!!

7. So walking around at my section boringly ... then i went to the front there, cuz the coke promoter are hanging sumthing, so i went there and see, just after i reach there, saw him again .... !!!!

I think i am typing too much here .... but what i wanted to say today we just bumped into each other too much .... and they are all coincindent ... not i purposely go n meet him!!!

Today my time past so fast and excitedly ... cuz waiting for the time to reach the dinner time is like so ... fast, it is like I am waiting for sumthing to happen .... got goal, got mission, got aim ... just make ur life goes easier .... now, going to work is like ... a kind of joy.. hahaha!!! But another i wanted to say.... he just appear into my life in a not right time .... if only we can still remain friends after the job, and after i leave for Perth.