I felt god damn big pressure, for the marketing presention. I am really lost for what the title mean, and what the title want. Althought chip have been explaining again and again, but i still dunno what i should put into the presentation, like which should come first, which should talk... I am really lost. i couldn't think of anything, i am afraid that the topic i present will be out of topic, i am very 'san fu' and tired, especially when i am at the cafeteria, i dunno what rach will be talking, what is the content she will be present, and how can i do a follow up.
Though my mouth were saying, ok i am going to fail marketing, but who want to fail it, if i take a unit in murdoch, that will cost a lot, but marketing, i really dunno what the hell they want us to study except for swallow the whole marketing book. but sorry i am not that kind. If u want me to give u some idea on how to sell that product, i can give u, maybe a very good idea too. But not ask me to tell you the theories, coz theories never work on me! It is just too tired and exhausted to do something that you are totally dun understand what the fuck is talking about, and at the first place, i shouldn't take this unit, i should ask for unit overload next year, but the fucking fees is just too damn expensive. I am god damn fucking regret to take this subject, i thought i can make it, i thought i can, but now i dun think so, as the remaining week for this sem, is just like 1 or 2 weeks. Now, everything is too late, too late... too late!!!
I am already damn stressed, pressure, like no space for me to breathe, i am breathless...!!! Then chip mention that thing again, i dunwan to mention it for few days already, coz no matter what she mentioned, really forked me up. We really have both completely different point of view towards this issue, rach i wish u were here, i wish u were together with us, i am very tired of ... fighting against it!! It is like going to a war alone, no backup or watsoever.
I wanted to talk to rach about it, quite few days already, but din get to have a chance to say, or maybe when i wanted to say, emotionally are not allowed me to say. bursting out!!
The more she said the more i feel 'san fu', the more solution she offered, the more i dunwan. Putting me up and letting me down at the same time. I am not scared or wat, I can be pretty extreme, i can be fucking independant, I just want to work for my dreams, is just tat the thing that we planned before, the thing that we mentioned before when the 3 soul are together. Now that everything has gone, disappear. I just cannot accept the reason for the alternative way, it is unacceptable. That is why diff point of view are here, there two extreme point of view, rach where are u, u r supposed to be here to neutralised it. . . .
I am a girl with full of dreams, my dreams is my everything, for the past 19 yrs, i am working hard for my dreams, and what is my dreams, my dreams is to go overseas and study!! I hv a pretty good visualised towards the uni life... the thing i have dreamt before, the thing that i have visualised before, i won't want to let it down. If something not working it on the right path, i will be god damn disappointed, and secretly have to 'yan' the feeling to myself, coz i know if i tell out, people will think this is just stupid, coz nobody is like me, nobody think that way as me!! So they will think that this is just a small matter, but to me IT is a BIG MATTER.
Now i have to adjust the thing that i have visualised before, that i have dream before. Everything need to change to suit what is going on with the world today, and the thing revolved around me. Sometimes, i will just think leave me alone, or i just go to somewhere no one knows me, so that i can completely put down the thing that i hope before, then start a new dream, new goal n aim. But i know this is somewhat impossible.
Though my mouth were saying, ok i am going to fail marketing, but who want to fail it, if i take a unit in murdoch, that will cost a lot, but marketing, i really dunno what the hell they want us to study except for swallow the whole marketing book. but sorry i am not that kind. If u want me to give u some idea on how to sell that product, i can give u, maybe a very good idea too. But not ask me to tell you the theories, coz theories never work on me! It is just too tired and exhausted to do something that you are totally dun understand what the fuck is talking about, and at the first place, i shouldn't take this unit, i should ask for unit overload next year, but the fucking fees is just too damn expensive. I am god damn fucking regret to take this subject, i thought i can make it, i thought i can, but now i dun think so, as the remaining week for this sem, is just like 1 or 2 weeks. Now, everything is too late, too late... too late!!!
I am already damn stressed, pressure, like no space for me to breathe, i am breathless...!!! Then chip mention that thing again, i dunwan to mention it for few days already, coz no matter what she mentioned, really forked me up. We really have both completely different point of view towards this issue, rach i wish u were here, i wish u were together with us, i am very tired of ... fighting against it!! It is like going to a war alone, no backup or watsoever.
I wanted to talk to rach about it, quite few days already, but din get to have a chance to say, or maybe when i wanted to say, emotionally are not allowed me to say. bursting out!!
The more she said the more i feel 'san fu', the more solution she offered, the more i dunwan. Putting me up and letting me down at the same time. I am not scared or wat, I can be pretty extreme, i can be fucking independant, I just want to work for my dreams, is just tat the thing that we planned before, the thing that we mentioned before when the 3 soul are together. Now that everything has gone, disappear. I just cannot accept the reason for the alternative way, it is unacceptable. That is why diff point of view are here, there two extreme point of view, rach where are u, u r supposed to be here to neutralised it. . . .
I am a girl with full of dreams, my dreams is my everything, for the past 19 yrs, i am working hard for my dreams, and what is my dreams, my dreams is to go overseas and study!! I hv a pretty good visualised towards the uni life... the thing i have dreamt before, the thing that i have visualised before, i won't want to let it down. If something not working it on the right path, i will be god damn disappointed, and secretly have to 'yan' the feeling to myself, coz i know if i tell out, people will think this is just stupid, coz nobody is like me, nobody think that way as me!! So they will think that this is just a small matter, but to me IT is a BIG MATTER.
Now i have to adjust the thing that i have visualised before, that i have dream before. Everything need to change to suit what is going on with the world today, and the thing revolved around me. Sometimes, i will just think leave me alone, or i just go to somewhere no one knows me, so that i can completely put down the thing that i hope before, then start a new dream, new goal n aim. But i know this is somewhat impossible.
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