ZERO

Never in my life had so many ZEROs in a day!!!!!

We knew that we are going to embarrass ourself today, but really never thought of it will be this bad.

Yup, we lost badly.... my frist match against Curtin (well she is a star player), anyway i am playing in a single game. and the result is 11-0, 11-0 ..... of cuz the "0" is me.

i felt really embarrassing, 0 you know, it is a freaking 0 .....

Then the second match, i am playing against ECU.... well, i think she is better than me though, cuz all of them played in the final tournament before last, except for us... all the freshie.

But i like this game, cuz i really played hard, and it is a good game, though i lost. it is 11-3, 11-4 (i think) at least i am not getting a zero!!!!

Then the last match, i am waiting for it to end.... phsycally i am very very tired, my leg n arm are in pain.... and i am hungry too. How well can u expect me to play. Anyway i lost again in this match against UWA. Yep, 11-0, 11-0 AGAIN!!!!! At least she is a better person than the Curtin player, the Curtin player was too too too arrogant and snobbish!!! Hate their face when they smach UWA double in the final game!!!! Just make me want to smack her face.

Later at nite, we had dinner together.... it is a FREAKING $15 meal, ate in a chinese restaurant, paid for this much, left so food for someone to come, but they turn up late, and don't want to eat the food.... wasted la.... there are all the good ingredients... -- Prawn, Squid, Duck,chicken, Beef, Fish!!!!

Erm .. oh well we ordered black pepper beef .... i had a story to tell about this dish.

I used to HATE black pepper, cuz it don't taste good. No matter how my father force me to eat black pepper i also don't like. Until one day, a guy asked me to try on this dish, when we had our mixed rice back in Feb (Malaysia) .... He recommended me to try on that, cuz he likes it.... then he said that is black pepper chicken, in my heart i am like "erm .... i dun like black pepper!!" guess what i gave a try on that dish that day.

Today, when they ordered black pepper beef.... first thing why i eat it, becuz i need to pay for the meal, so might as well give a try so that i won't feel so wasted with my money given. The first scoop i ate.... oh gosh, so memories struck my mind... suddenly i miss him so much. Becuz of that black pepper smell and the taste, it reminds me of him, and really miss him very much... in the end i kept on eating that dish - black pepper beef, cuz every bite, it really reminds me of him!!!

Sweet Dream ~~

Ya i had sweet dream last nite.

Yesterday nite, Tommy were asking me n Siang Yee whether we had any dreams that dreamt of us dying, or killing someonelse.

We were shocks to hear that and he said almost every month he dreamt of him dying and he killed someone.

This is so freaking scary, then i said i would want to have sweet dreams tonite, then off to continue playing the x-box.

Later at nite, while i am sleeping, i really had a sweet dream.... *=* sweet dreams~~~~~

not gonna tell here!!!! hahahaha

Gotta go for badminto practice, as i am playing on tomorrow's badminton tournament playing against 3 other uni in WA. Tough Tough!!!

Interesting days

I was told by myself that it will be a very tiring day on thursday.

To do list on thursday:
1. 6am woke up for horse riding
2. sleep for the entire afternoon
3. 7pm go for mid nite production filming
4. it will be friday morning when i am backhome

Went to horse riding with Serana, An Hui and Jonathan n friends, it is 15 of us, all the way to Wanneroo, it is 50 mins drive from Murdoch.

Before riding on the horse, i am a bit nervous, i scared what if the horse ride fast and made me fall.... i am also afraid what if the horse doesn't want me....lots of "what if" in my mind.

Then i am up on the horse, too bad din take much pic, cuz i din bring along my camera with me when i am on the horse, scared will break heh.... then i realise i have my phone with me, so i took some of it only for memories, cuz can't see clearly.

I rode on a horse named - Jimmy, i think he is a bit irritates by the flies around him, he keep on move his leg, which scared me off too !!!!

We have a tour guide that lead us the way, go round the bushes, up hill, and down slopes.... i felt like i am the old time rangers that ride a horse to search for something.... heheh!!!! The beginning was interesting, after the down slopes we have gone thru... i started to felt bored, cuz it has been an hour, you spread ur leg, sitting on a not comfortable thing, bounce for hour.... leg started to feel pain, ass going to be flat, uncomfortable !!!!

The most interesting part it has to be when we are going down slope, cuz it is like roller coaster without a safety belt, and the horse goes fast.

It ends with a down hill kind of excitement.... then we line up at the end there and wait for the others, that is when i saw the last person fall from the horse, cuz her horse ran out of way and going to hit her to the branch, so she just let go ... and fall slow motionly. luckily she din hurt much.

After getting down from the horse... i can't close my two leg man..... cuz it's hurt... my legs are in pain. All of us walking funnily.... like a duck!!!

Then we headed to Northbridge for the famous "dim sum", got "har kao", egg tart, "chee cheong fun" and etc .... basically u can get all a "dim sum" restaurant have, and also some not in our "dim sm" restuarant dishes too!!! we have 7 at our table... each of us need to pay $11.... it is expensive, and very full too. Rm33 per person... it is god damn expensive if u compared with malaysia dim sum... bt well, this Hoi's kitchen is a very famous dim sum in perth, need to queue to get in, and v are early tat day, so we get to sit, and we get to eat egg tart.

Rushes back to SV abt 2pm, and i off to bed and have a better sleep, so that later at nite i am able to stay alert and awake for the shooting.

2:40pm, i received a call from Elvie.... then from then on i am only half awake....until 6pm, it is my wake up time. Siang yee haven't come back frm groceries shopping, so the frozen food i asked her to buy for me, i can't eat it... and hv to cook instant noodles :( ... not full enuf, and no time to eat more. 7pm need to meet up at worship centre and wait for Liz the 2nd assistant director to fetch me and Angie.

Drove for 40 mins... drove past the city, and this trip not counted the last trip i came to perth 6 yrs ago, this is the first time i came to the city at nite, and the nite view of the city is tremendously beautiful. All the building switch on the lights, make the city become city of lights. BEAUTIFUL!!! *=*

We are supposed to reach there at 8pm, but we were early, too bad after we parked the car and found out the address they gave us don't have Dewson, .... 3 girls in the car, drive around Woodvale in the dark searching for Dewson.... arh... this is scary!!!! And we even went to a wrong Dewson at Kingsley. Been look at the map, searching for the god damn Dewsons .... finally went to BP to ask for direction!!

That makes us to be late, bt well... after we had arrived, the director, 1st AD also arrived.... and we start to discuss we all also directed to another place. And also ask direction from BP.

This nite shooting is about a food fight scene, so it will be very messy, and need to take care of every product they have over there... and also the position that everything placed at. The producer have so much stressed on it... tis nite, i have been promoted to take charge of the clapper board.... the one that show the board before directore say "action". Hehehe... quite happy that i am on an important job, but quite scared if i din perform well, and also scared i am not up to it (cuz i am extremely tired) i have taken 2 cup of coffee tis nite, one without any sugar, so that it can give me more energy. this nite, i am really not doing those dodgy job anymore, i take charge in takin photo of the actual look of the supermarket, i din know i am so important when we are cleaning it up and taking those things back to normal, everyone ask me how it is ... and i refer to the digi cam.

We are so not up to the shooting schedule, we wrap up with some shot left for next week to shot, cuz it is too late to shoot now, and we need time to pack, clean and everything. then 5am we need to leave the supermarket. I am dead hungry, mentally and phsycally exhausted, and freezingly cold too. I got my sandwich and just eat on my way home.... Liz is such a good person, i think she is quite nice and friendly too, she has a lot to say. While she and Angie chatting, i found out a biggest news.. that my tutor - the producer too, is going out with the director, maybe none of u will be surprised, but i think my tutor she is abt 30+, and the director is only 24... quite young and he is also once her student!!!! Not to say that i can't accept or not being open-minded, but i am a bit shocked with this news, cuz she is my tutor, and i din know she is going out with this young director... haha Liz said she saw them making out in the control room last week.

I reached home at 6:05 am, saw a notice on my door frm siang yee, that we are going out to the city at 11am... gosh .. i have only this few hours to sleep. And Tommy haven't sleep yet when i am back, said hi to him with a bloody tired look, went to the toilet, strip! Change ! Sleep!

*Friday* ....
To do list:
1. to the City to go to the immigration for working visa.
2. shops for running shoes
3. Shops for possible jacket.
4. Pass my phone to Elvie so that she can bring back to KL for my parents.

I was mentally n phsycally exhausted, but i just couldn't sleep after i hide under my quilt. THen i automatically woke up at 10 something before my alarm rang. and still feel like a very fresh look, what the hell!!!

Then i saw my phone with a sms from andrew, saying he is god damn bored and ask what i am up to on friday. then i told him i am going to the city and he said ok he come n fetch me, see him in 10 mins time.

I am still fine with the trip to the city and all....
got my working visa, bought a running shoes for $80, then start to feel tired already, but still can walk for a few miles, bought another jacket for $20 at Buss.... haha i fancythis jacket long time ago and now it is on promotion, what a fast turning.

Then we all head to Harbour town ... though harbour town gt lots of promotional items, bt i am really too tired to look around, i just outside waiting for them .... arhg... just like a dying zombie.

Finally been waiting for them for hours, and i we got to go, and Elvie is here, so my to-do-list has finish, it is time to go back n rest...

After back home, i am so energetic again, wear my jacket n play with it.. hahaha "fat hao" !!!! Then took a bath, and watch 'Not another teen movie', a funny movie like scary movie that kind bt i still prefer scary movie, i can still stay until abt 2am, read magazine and all, then sleep.

This is the first time i can sleep so peacfully.....

A real break

I have been having study break for a week, and now it is the last week to go.... sort of missing the days of break i have, thoughts of after the study break, every week i will have one or two assignment to pass up, presentation, shooting .... all tons of stuff... not going to have such an enjoy moment, as those assignment are harder and lecturer are looking for a higher expectation.

I was asked to go for badminton in this morning, 8:45am is the meeting time. I wasn't up for it, cuz i know i have been having daily routine like waking up at 1pm, sleeping at 3am. Waking up at 8 is definately not my time. But well, since that everyone asked me to go, Tommy is excited about it too, the atmosphere made me planned to go. And i went to bed early last nite, due to my abnormaldaily routine, it is impossible for me to sleep that early, been strugglin to sleep for hours, and so i really had no idea what time i slept, all i know i woke up this morning hardly!!!

I was half awake when i am playing badminton, my stamina is so weak, i have lost my old me, lost my talent in badminton...WHY WHY WHY.....!!!!! And added that, i have a wore a wrong shoes, i wore a sneaker to badminton, but i don't have a running shoe or court shoe, wore sneakers to play badmintonm hurted my toe badly.

I start to hate myself why i playedso badly, Argh.... the egoism came out again, as someone just learn to play, but she can beat me....!!!!! *Tired*

Later at nite, we have a pot-luck with An Hui, Serena, Siang Yee, Li teen, Felice and Tommy. What is weird is that Siang Yee, Felice and Li teen are not so familiar with An Hui (poor thing, her friends all went for holiday)

It was a messed in my flat kitchen when we were preparing for the food we got to make. I made Creamy Sweet corn and chicken soup. Li Teen friend onion egg, Siang Yee made potato salad, and Tommy cook rice (he don't know how to cook, so rice is the thing for him to make haha)

As Li teen claimed that she always made the egg look awful, so she came to our flat to fried, cuz Siang Yee can teach her. So i just learn how to make creamy mushroom soup from Siang yee, and now i used the same method on creamy sweet corn with chicken. It was a messed though, cuz it took quite alot of time... 4 person squeeze in the kitchen, all messed up, Ryan and Kevin was at the lounge for simpson.... and i think there were envy the food we made ... haha but they are not going to eat it... too bad!! Maybe we should have a theme flat dinner.

This pot luck was overwhelming, cuz we had too many food to eat, AnHui made Green Curry Chicken... (nice nice nice), Felice baked pasta, and Serena was supposed to bring over her handmade cherry cake, but she didn't show up. We ate we chat.... and it was a good dinner, sometimes it is a good idea to have pot-luck, u made the effort of thinking what to cook, and looking forward to people's food, it is a very thing to have.

Though i was very very very tired, cuz .... i think i slept for 4 hours last nite, and din take a nap afternoon.... damn tired, tomorrow i also need to go for badminton, same time.

Mad over this bloody hell.

A day has past, and it is time to have dinner, tonite dinner we had it at Felice's flat, cuz she is making Mexican Taco meal... while we are happily enjoying that messy taco meal. Suddenly this guy pop out of nowhere.... this is a guy all of us don't like - YuBun.

He is a part time phone/ phone card seller in the campus, he always walk around and search for victims to sell out his product - international calling, phone away card, mobile prepaid, and lastly he also sells phone, frm vodafone, optus, 3, telstra and virgin...

He has been bothering Siang Yee they all for a very long time, cuz he is like an admirer of Siang Yee, but he is very very very bloody disturbing. He din bother that time, cuz i din buy any phone from him. Until i started to know more about 3 phone from him, frm then he starts to bother me... but well it is sort of business deal so it is fine with me.

Until i got the phone, and our business finish. Then i figured out my phone keypad at number 3,6,9 the light keep on flick, so i tell him about it, and he din seems to bother. Then one day he message me and want to know about Siang Yee's msn n icq.... then i told him my infarred port seems cannot transfer file, i just reply me with sorry i can't help u. What the fuck is this, he provide no customer service or after sales service to his customer, the phone he is the one who sell to me, of cuz i have to find him to ask for the problem.... just a sentence of word like this.... pissed me off totally, but i din put this in mind.

Sometimes he suddenly pop out at my slidding door and ask where is my phone, cuz he wants to try to unlock this phone, then i told him i don't want to unlock, and i need to use my phone. then he ciao...

Until today when i am having my dinner at Felice place..... I am in the mid of eating the messy taco... oil and sauce all over my hand and he suddenly just pop out of the slidding door, and talk nothing. No one wants to bother him, but Siang Yee was too kind to him, ask him come here for what, and who he wants to find. Then he said he wants to find me, for wat i asked and how he knows i am here, he said he saw me and asked whether my phone is with me, cuz he wants to try to unlock it... bloody hell, told him before that i don't want to unlock it, and why he keep on insists on it... fuck. Then i just give him myphone and like make him go away. I am not so happy about giving the phone to him without me guardin what he will do to it.

Then i was in the mid of watching 'Desperate Housewives', he then come back and bring a very happy smile on his face, show my phone to me, and on the phone it stated a "yes optus" thing, means he succeeded in unlocking the phone, then put it back my sim card into the phone, and he start to tell me, er... u check and see whether all the setting got change, and check whther all ur stuff is inside or not. .... I was like in the mid of anxious, i hope it won't happen... bt then it happened man.... all my photos gone, all my ringtone gone, all my lovely messages gone, all my contacts gone... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.... he even asked me what is gone, then i said pic lo... he asked how many pics u have inside.... my tone was down, and din want to talk to him at all, i just tell him " a little lo" ... which actually means GOT FUCKING A LOT!!!!!!!! I replied him in a low tone voice, and want to distract my view on the nice show on the TV.. .and dunwant to see him again!!!! He just said a word "sorry" then ran into someones room and talk, chat and laugh...

After he went into someones room, he reacted quite .... big, cuz siang yee they all asked me how, and i am like dumping the sofa.. almost looking violence, but still in control.

Until i came home, and want to check what is really gone, how many pics is gone.... FUCK wasted my time to restore the ringtone in, the lovely message that i need to transfer frm old phone to this new phone, and the pic... they are really gone ...

In conclusion, he is a irresponsible phone seller, he pretend to be friendly with u when he needs the business from u, whoever got him in ur msn list, dun promise urself will hv a good time, cuz he sometimes will message u and ask u "u rarely make calls?" What the fuck la, how many calls i made is none of ur business la, he even asked me before "dun u need an international calling card to call home?" He told him i dun call home, we use internet and chat online, he keep on ask, and i reply the same answer BLOODY HELL, DUN HE FUCKING KNOWS WHAT PEOPLE MEANT??!!!!?!?!??!

I then deleted his msn on my msn list and blocked him.

Oh SHIT.

Been watchin DVD for this few days, cuz nothing to do also, din go out also, becuz of the senior have assignment to due, so i can't go out alone also... damn.

DVDs that i hv been watch within these few days
1. Moulin Rouge
2. Miss Congeniality
3. The Tin Drum
4. South Park
5. Bridget Jones's Diary
6.Ghost

What is so shit about my life is that....

I have been started to have a truly Aussie lifestyle..actually not, the Aussie life is not like this.

I hv been sleeping for more than 10 hours a day... sleep at 3am in the morning, wakes up at 1pm... just today, i start to hv awakening feel abt 12pm, and i tot it was only 9am. The weather here too nice to let u sleep, u won't feel it is afternoon, and i tot it is only morning. I heard frm some seniors, when in the winter, you just won't feel like waking up, cuz it is too comfy to sleep and curdle in ur quilt. Today is sat, it is even better to sleep til so late, cuz the gardener is not working, so i won't hear the noise of some noisy engine or motor working around my courtyard.

So how.... if i continue to sleep like this, or this kind of lifestyle, i will really get fat ler.... cuz now the weather or the evening is getting colder, it will be very cold to jog at that time, it has been weeks tat i din go for exercise... and i think i start to feel some unneccessary meat or oil at my tummy there.... ARGH.... cuz potato chips are too nice to say no to them.

BTW... if anyone is kind enuf, could u call me in the morning to wake me up? hahah...

Production Helpers

Another early morning wake up day. Today is the day that i will go and help out the Honours student shooting project. Heard this from my tutors, and i email the producers as a volunteer, and i already assume that i will be doing those doggie work, just like a "da chap"...

Gotta wake up at 7am... 3 alarm rang, but none of them can wake me up, just felt like not going, cuz i am too tired to wake up this early. But then, i woke up, and have nearly about 20 minutes to prepare myself and walk to TV Studio. After all this time competition, i made it, and arrived on time. hhahahaha.

And yeah... i am really doing some diggie work, like guarding the door out there, dun let anyone to go in without any permission. But nvm, i prepared for it, i even prepared to be scold, but din happen.

They are really professional, i really learn alot of stuff from this experience, from there i know how sucky we are when we are shooting, we are just like some freshmen, who dunno how to shoot, everything messed up, but them, they have all the key word, such as: stand by (everyone need to prepare, ppl who guard the door need to go out), camera going to roll (means camera going to roll within seconds, and the person who do continuity need to be prepare with the correct slate board), roll (means the camera press record, and the continuity need to say scene 2, shot 5a, take3), here comes the director, see everything in set, then he will sit down and say "ACTION" (this is when everyone need to be quiet, cannot move at all except for the actors).

What is so hard in this part is that, if u r in the set, after the word ACTION being called, you cannot move ur leg, cuz will cause some sounds, worse is if you feel like fart.. u have to hold ur fart until the director say cut. I saw another person, he just cannot hold on his counghing... so hard man.. i see his face all red, and chokking all the way...arh

After seeing how they did, at least i have a clue on how to shoot our next mise-en-scene assignment.

Looking forward to another shooting day, i'll helping them on next thursday nite at Dewson's Woodvale, for a food fight scene. I think that would be more interesting... hahah

Tired.... shooting ends at 7pm.

Call me a GOD

It is good to know that our MA assignment due time being postpone to 4pm, if not will need to struggle more.

I have been starting my assignment since Thursday morning, I know it is a bit late to start this assignment, I thought I can complete it within a day, maybe!!! Cuz all I need is to paste some info, then do some lit review, and then analyse it.

Went to the library in the evening to find some books for lit review and referencing, wow … I din attend the library tour, so I dunno how to borrow a book and dun even know where our school book locate… I then log into the library website at the library, find some related books, and then go up to 4th floor and go down to 1st floor for several times, just to search some possible books. Spend almost 1 hour there, found 4 seems like related to my topic books. This is hard man… not like KDU college library, small but easy to find, here too big to find a book.

I keep on stray when I do my assignment, start to do my lit review after dinner, well I think this is the hardest part, as I really dunno how to do alit review and also I didn’t read many books, so how???

Been reading and looking at the example that WebCT gave us, keep on think how I am going to relate this and this. Hard hard hard hard….!!!!! I dunno how much time I spend on lit review part, I think until midnite, I am still at that part.

I din sleep for the whole nite, sipping my green tea, hope to keep me warm and keep me stay awake. I am not sleepy to be surprised, so pretty good, but I think I really use a lot of time to do it.

I have been sitting at my desk since the noon of Thursday, watching the sky turn into dusk then become dark. Ass becoming bigger I think, sit there until the dawn going to appear, and then looking at the sun going to come out, shinning the east part of the sky. I found the scenery very beautiful, at about 6am, I opened my window, and keep the fresh air come in, that was 9 celcius. I took a lil walk outside, to feel the good o morning, to invite a new day, felt so good, I am walking through all the mist, with just a thin pull over and my long pants, luckily dun hv wind… if not will be really cold.

Went back to my room, continue my assignment as it is going to end. Sitting at my desk, only I realize so many Old Aussie awake, and they are walking towards uni, maybe for a morning walk… emm our uni truly have an amazing environment for walk. This is my first time awake till this time, never have I stay till so late, or never had I wake up so early. The morning is really nice, can never get this in Malaysia.

Today was a cloudy day, lots of cloud. I am going to finish my assignment, that time, while I saw some student walking to the uni for classes, pity them need to wake up so early, and attend classes so early, then I continue my assignment. I think I used a lot of reference, they gave me a hard time to organize them, then I saw the same person who went for classes, come back. That was 9:30am, I din realize it was 9am, I tot it is only 8am. Oh my….

Struggling with the appendix, then YAHOO….. finished at 9:45am… then I dunno why, I am so energetic for the whole nite, but rite after I finish the assignment, I started to feel dizzy, and some body heat probably. Then I went to have a short nap, becuz need to wake up at abt 12 to go for printing, then pass it up, better be early than late.

I can’t really sleep well, then I woke up right after I heard the sound of a thunder…. Scared me off, cuz I scared if it is going to rain… then I will be suck.

I woke up dizzily, felt much of my body heat come out, I think it gotta be the stress and been up for the whole nite, human body really need to have some rest. Now I know how important rest are.

About 3pm, din rest at all, still have the energy to walk to Kardy for groceries. I am going to praise myself…. Then tomorrow need to wake up early to go to wildlife park. I am just a god .. who dun need to sleep.

At nite after dinner, start watching American Idol, then continue to watch American pie on PUBLIC TV…. Poor Siang Yee slept at 7:30pm, becuz she also been up for the whole nite, but she slept for 4 hours in between. But I still have the energy to watch till abt 11pm, and start to sleep at 12 something… geng.

Illegal Intruder

I know if i tell you where i went today, you must be damn envy, but then again if you know what i have to do for my studies, then you will say me .... argh... dunno what you will say about me, maybe something about how i dunno how to arrange my time.

Well... i have been busy since monday nite, been searching for a campaign to do for my case studies, i know i am rushing it again, doing my assignment last minute again, some of them even pass up the assignment and me still thinking what to do over several days.

Tuesday nite, busy with editing assignment, but well finally finish with that assignment, our baby, the one we come out with an idea, and shoot ourselves, and edit it ... my ever first so called professional production. Completed at 11pm something... damn tired.

Then today, is the most busy day for me. been up since 8:30am for classes at 9:30am, a 3 hours straight class, then another tutorial right after that class .. so tired, i only have 2 hours to rest then have class again at 4pm... sleep for that entire 1 and half hour... luckily the MA tutorial have nothing to do, then go back early, i am so happy with that cuz i have somewhere to rush to rite after my class.

Go back, get something to eat then, hehehehe... here i go.

well i got to keep this as a secret, cuz zoe din ask the rest of them to go, becuz she knew they won't go cuz of assignment, she invite me to go becuz i am interested though i have assignment too...

Ok let's reveal what is the secret here.

Zoe has a friend who work for an Airline (i can't tell this), and then he is a kadet pilot of that Airline, and so happen that the flying college is just situated not far from my uni. So he brought us there to have a look.

It was 6:10pm, the sky going to turn dark. Heavy traffic on the road, lots of traffic light that makes us falls into dark.

We have finally reach the airport (actually is just a 5 minutes drive frm uni, but make it like such a long journey), the sky was dark enough, he brought us to a look out point, where there are benches and a very nice view for you to look at those small size aerolane thta kadet used to trained.

Nothing much going though, it is at nite... but until we waited for not too long, there was one aeroplane going to fly, that pilot gotta do his nite flight training. And then not too long too, we saw more and more plane going for their training, we saw take off and landing. We can't do anything at that moment except for looking at it.

Then we head off to Freo for our dinner, after dinner went to cottesloe beach to take a fresh air. I never knew cottesloe beach is a place to go at nite. there are spotlight, so it won't be a problem for those who worry for dark. Nite at the beach was great and fun. Walking barefoot on the beach sand, they are absolutely cool, those cold sand folds into ur feet while u standing, a lil bit of land breeze awake me from the stress of MA. But still a bit worry for it, cuz i hv been out tis nite.

We have been spending our nite till 11pm at the beach, sitting there, chat, observe the sea gull, how amazing they are when u throw something, they actually fly near u and look, stare at u, wait for u to offer them food, i think they are hungry. And i saw a sea gull has an imbalance wing. One wing bigger than another, and they are all quite fat.

About 11:15pm, we are about to go, cuz he said until this time, his college will be definately empty, it is the safest time to sneak in. We then sneak into the flying area, with all the planes lining up, ... wow that was great. Never in my life did something like this, sneak into a high security place. I will get fine if i get caught, $5000 is the fine if ...

But well we were too lucky to be caught, we took pic with the plane, climb on it, posted... push the plane too ... wow .. that was amazing. then there was one plane, he accidentally open the door, the door is not lock, i was like OMG ..... this might be the chance to get in, and sit there n post too... hahaha, but then again, he was trying hard to close the door.... cuz the door cannot be closed, oh shit!!! There will always be some twisted added into ur spicey story, or watever u want to call. Scared us off, he is trying hard to close it... but then in the end succeeded in closing it, PHEW!!! We scared until our we sweat, i think he sweat the most, haven't introduce him, he might be terminate by the college, cuz he din pass one of his exam, that is y, we chosed this date to go there, cuz he might be terminate, and we won't get a chance to go.

We were so scared, then we think it is time to go.... i was like oh bye bye. bye... bye.... bye!!We almost spend more than half an hour there, takin pic and all... too bad can't get to sit in or fly!!! It will be fun and amazing if got to do that.

But then again.. thinking of his career n what if we get caught, i might send back to Malaysia, and my dream get squash to the very end.

For once in my life time, did something just like those rebellious teenager, sneak into their school mid nite to steal something .... i felt like i was like them. Phew... but afterall, it was a great experience. I didn't regret going there, though sometimes felt a bit guilty.

If you want to see pics... feel free to go my photoalbum, i can't post it to places like friendster, that will be too exposed. Cuz when we took the pic with the plane, we accidentally took the flying college name.

Coldest April

I was awake by the growling wind outside, it made the trees sway from the left to the right, up and down... It is just like some hurricane, twister, HK's '8 level' strong wind....

Slept at 4:30am last nite, becuz of assignment, it due today in the evening, but i wanted to finish it by last nite, so that i can have a good nite sleep and not to worry.

It was abt 10am that i was awake by the bad weather out there, in my room, i can heard the crying sounds of the wind, made me worry, can't sleep at all, but still i was laying on my bed, waiting for the peace moment... but nah!!! the rain n crazy mad wind still go on, i start to worry, when i shud go out to hand in my assignment... i need to walk about 10 minutes to the E&H building to put into the box.

I can barely see people walking outside, it felt dangerous to walk out there, as we have a very nice environment that fills with tall trees.. what if the branches falls down onto my head.... i will be fainted, or die!! I was cooking for my branch, still thinking and looking at the weather. Suddenly my Australian flatmate ran into the flat, and said it is crazy out there, it was like attacking... wow ... that sounds crazy!!!

The rain, sometimes heavy sometimes small like a light shower, but the wind never stop today... i saw the rain been lighten... it is time for me to dress up and go out and finish the last part of handing in the assignment - print out!!!

When i am at uni, i saw lots of ppl wearing all sort of diff clothes, with different style... yea, there was only last week, when everyone was wearing summer wear, sleevesless, short pants... and today, we are all wearing jackets, wind breaker, long rain coat, hats, scarf. well i still love to put my hoodie on instead of bringing an umbrella, cuz it has fur on it, and it look cool.... hahaha

Until the nite, the rain has stop, and it is time for me to go out for me to do my usual stuff... haha walking to the library to return the video that i hv borrowed...

although the rain has stop, but the wind never stops... it is still howling like crazy.. i was scared when i saw lots of branches on the floor and the tree swaying hardly.. arh.. made me run quickly to the library.. what suck is... the library close early today, becuz it is a freaking friday!!!!! Ok, i am going to have an overdue, see what they will do to me.

The sense of mixing with d Air

Been starting to borrow video tape from the library.... cuz it is a way of getting rid of boredom.

Last wednesday, it was a very very hot day, we have heat wave... bt just after a week, today we have cold temperature. Our nite started to feel cold.

I enjoy walking alone at nite, together with my jacket and my mp3 player... walking all the while to the library, it is a full relax... enjoy it while the nite is cold, with some light shower, and the straight pathway, sometimes dark sometimes bright with the street light... i felt safe.

For the 15 minutes of walking... totally enjoy into the music played on my mp3 player, hands in the pocket of my jacket, with a hoodie on to prevend from shower.. .. one step, two step, step by step to the library... no one bother you, no one around, just felt like there is only u n the earth, the air, felt so much like my soul are mixing with the air....Emm mm... love it so much.

The feeling of relief, relaxation, happy, light!! ... feel like flying.

It was great!!

Out of a sudden

Out of a sudden!!! .... i realise i am on this blog for 7 months and 9 days....

I never realise i hv been here for more than half a year...

and i never realise time passed fast, re-read some of the post at august.... wow... it seems like last month, but it passes for 7 months already, and also things that i mentioned then n now, are different, people who are in my post are different, things and people who are in my life now are different... I wonder what makes a different!!!

Aih.... if i keep on remind myself of some promises by someone... it will not be in a happy mood, just look at how different we are now, just look at how different lifestyle we are having now, the story of our life, the things that happened in our life ARE DIFFERENT!!!

aih... dunno what to say

well 7 months passes... i hv to grow up, and things just happened and made me a better person.

It was....

It was a good weekend with some boredom.. haha

Why i say it is good, becuz i can have the whole house for myself, so i can walk wherever i want, spend my time in the lounge... invite anyone to the flat... hahahaha

I think it is officially Autumn now, cuz the temperature start to drop down a bit, and start to have cloudly day, rainy days.... and i just love the sunset time... it is about 6pm...that is the most beautiful time.

I played frisbee around that time and saw the most beautiful moon i have ever see in my whole life. Too bad i din bring my camera to the field. I saw the moon at a very low position, then the moon just appear to be in between 2 tall trees, and then the moon was round in shape n bright in colour... i just cannot believe my eyes that i saw something so beautiful like this, gotta wait another month to capture this, and i cannot guarantee that the moon will still be this round and bright and low in position.... yup i admit the moon in overseas are rounder n brighter.

The another day, i wanted to look for the moon again... but badly that day was too cloudly, but then it is also the most beautiful sunset i hv captured.... will upload them later to my photoalbum.... you will be amazed to see ... they are all like poster picture.... luv em all!!

Badly, we din get to watch the videos we borrowed from library together..... such a waste, Chip is always busy with her assignment, test, and outings....

I am darn free... and lazy to say... postponing my assignment.... i am going to be busy later this week due to the shooting is done and need to do editing.

Last minute Shopping

As what i said, supermarket going to close tomorrow, and added that today is a late nite shopping day, so we gotta go for grocery shopping till late ... hahah

Sleep late last nite cuz of the movie, then again need to wake in the morning to attend for my screen production demo... my mind was blank while i m in the demo... and Damien is teaching the most complicated and difficult part - Lighting.

Then after class, got to know we hv car to Garden City, and so i need to go there to search for my frend bikini.... hahaha finally spend for like an hour in City Beach, i got to find that particular design of Roxy bikini for her. Good Good... i hv been searching every store....but failed to find it.

Got back about 3:30pm, then 4:30pm need to walk to Kardi for groceries shopping.

We shop until .... 8pm... rushing here and there.... then buy Chicken Treat meal for 2 back to SV and eat... then Zoe told me one day a singaporean student on his way to SV, being robbed... and that time is only about 7pm (quite dark already). So we think for our safety... it is advisable to call for Murdoch Escourt Service, since everyone is using it, it is not embarrassing to use it again... hahaha bought too many things... fit in the whole van... it was fun though!!

Got back, and i realise the library going to close at 9pm, and i need to rush to the library to borrow some videos to watch in this weekend with Chip...

So we get there, found some videos, i borrow "Jeepers Creepers" and Chip used my accout to borrow "Last Tango in Paris" (It is a story kind of soft porn) because we have a long weekend, and half of my flatmates went for trips, so left only me and siang yee in da house.... it is good to own the whole house, you can just sing as loud as you want, watch watever you want without anyone disturb.. good good!!

So after borrowing the videos, we head back to our own flats, do our own business... i start to eat my chicken treat dinner... then Philips come in and hang out at our flats, then Felice also here, and then Serena come by wanted to go to Tavern, actually i also wanted to go, becuz this week theme is Beach or Sea theme... hehe luv beach so much... and wanted to see what other ppl will wear.

And so we succeded persuading Siang yee and Felice to go (well they don't like it and din enjoy much) and here we go.

So pretty sad actually, cuz we spend all the time standing out there.... not in the dance floor, watching people, and i seeing them standing there complaining too loud, too crowded, too wat wat... dun like it.. better go out!!! Geez... and then Serena went to find her friend... aih.. too bad i don't have my own who really enjoy it!!

There are really people wearing bikinis, guys wear bikinis.. badly didn't see any guys wear a speedos... that would be the champion of the nite.... or a girl wear a coconut shells on it with some hawaiian style leaf... hahaha that would be fun too...

Then later on, we leave early, then proceeded to Philips' flat for chatting.. til 4am... it was cold tat time.

Big holiday!!!

Yea, we are going to have a long weekend due to the good friday holiday and easter monday. What is sucks... is that everything is close in the weekend, so basically dun hv anywhere to go, and try to have fun in the weekend.

I have thursday, friday, saturday, sunday and monday...5 days free!!! What to do, as i don't have test next week, although i hv an assignment to pass up in the end of next week, but still i consider it as a pretty free weekend.

So just now, just watch "SAW" with Chip, Siang Yee, Serena, Ryan and Tommy.... in my flat. hahhaha, watch it at about 11:30 pm, and i though it is a horror movie ... and scared everyone off hahah... but well it is not a horror film, it is thriller film, it was svery good, i love the plot, the idea of the movie, and the twisted ending. Love it so much.... So tis nite our flat kinda happening... cuz all along it was quite dead!!

Planning what to do in the weekend...

Cheers...

Cheers that i did a great suggestion on going out in the mid of everyone was trying to concentrate and feeling bored for straight 2 1/2 days.

I always want to go to the beach before the sun falls into the ocean, so that i can catch the lovely sunset. And also, beach is a excellent place to go for relaxing and just put in your soul mix with the atmosphere or the environment that the beach n the ocean provide. That would make you feel so good.

It was saturday afternoon, after being stayed at the Student Village for straight 2 days.... i am bored, ok, i am bored!!! I am so easy to get bored, and i know i have things to do, and test on next week. But i am so bloody bored of staring at the words and all those nonsense.

And so, today is saturday, everyone went out, everyone has somewhere to go, except for us.... cuz hv no where to go, and one of them got test on the following monday, she is that kind who would stayed in her room for couple of days and just study!!!!

However, fun won't stop when i want them (actually it stops for quite a numbers of time which lead me into a damn bored days). So i suddenly suggested to go to the beach at 4pm, and want them to gather at 4:15pm. When i go to visit their room and ask them whether they want to go, they are all like so happy finally can go out. At first i planned to go by myself, bt then after i ask, here goes some company.

And then we arrived at the beach, after being pointed by the bus driver to go to Cottesloe beach by bus, and made us change for 3 buses to get there.... i am wrong, i shud take the train earlier with my own well planned journey. If we take the train, we would have more time at the beach.

And so we reached, saw lots of small little piece of artwork, yeap, they are now having seaside sculpture at Cottesloe beach. which attracted more and more ppl to go there and have a nice saturday. And i saw quite a number of couple getting married there, taking a photo of the sunset as a background.

We are all satisfied with this trip, because we all get excellent gift from the nature, and everything just satisfied, so everyone was happy and enjoy the short trip at the beach and back to fremantle.

We have our Cicerellos dinner at Freo, hahaha so happy to get to eat cicerellos fish n chips again, although they are really expensive, but pay for that amount of money you won't regret.

Here are some photos taken at the beach of the sunset, i again as the photographer, capturing silhouettes of my models....haha and they look god damn great (i mean the photos)

Now i realise that the earth does turn, and it turn pretty fast too.... despite of looking at the sunset, the sun does set fast enough, within minutes and the sun.....*droop* drop into the ocean and left the dark blue colour of the sky and some dark orange still shining.... and we can see the moon light getting brighter.


Me and Zoe, sitting on my newly bought beach mat to look for sunset.


The is when the sun is going to set


Here are my 3 models


This pic taken by me, but i took without her noticed, so it is a super natural pic, and a really nice pic.


This is truly shown that the sun already drop into the ocean!!

Welcome

Welcome to my new online photo album, it is better there i guess compare with the previous i had, but the previous album i will remain, cuz no point taking them down, in case anything goes wrong to my comp, at least i have a backup area, if not all the photo lost... cry also no tears ah!!!

So the following address would be my latest online photo album, feel free to click on it and see my life here in Perth, Western Australia (if you are interested la), if not dun it's ok, it is also a place for me to store my pic, so that it won't be lost forever.

There you go http://carven.myphotoalbum.com/albums.php

No matter what, you are welcome to my album, but you can't take them without my permission for some illegal cut n paste or your own creation ah...!!!! Watch out

Good Start

Just love sweating out the sweat that hidden for years.....
Went badminton yesterday with some new people....
good .... got to new some new people
and they are friendly n active.... so from now on i can find some people for outdoors activities lah....!!!!
After playing badminton then they invite me n my flatmate to their flat to play monopoly...
Good too... then got to know they are going rock climbing today.... Which is SUCK!!! Cuz i can't go, it clashes with my CPA meeting....Argh god i hate it....
They are people frm singapore, hong kong, melbourne born chinese... and they are friendly enuf to accept new people and to be frank they are really friendly.
And the course they studying, really have no any relation to our media or mass comm... they do vet studies .... Cool subject bt not for me though!!! Hahah....
Just see people frm another school and another country, we can also get along....

Arh... i wish i go to the rock climbing, heard it was good and have a huge dinner after that.... not like what i did for this evening, sucks man!!!

Bt well... i finally clear up my mail box this evening, which i always open bt never read those mail. And then it accumulates till 80 mails.... then i finish everything in a evening. Bravo.... now my mailbox seems so clean. hahahah!!!!

Well tomorrow morning got to wake up early, darn early, 7am.... (my second early wake up time ever since i came to perth) Will go to Canning Vale Market with these new frends.... Good!!!

I just want to....

It has been almost 4 damn long week
Suddenly i just wanted to like write a letter to her
I don't want to suffer from this kind of situation
make it clear ok
guessing n get frustrated... it is not a good thing to do
it is mentaly exhausted

It is like a kind of suffer whenever i see her
Aren't we the 'ONE WEEK MEET ONCE' frend???
Someone did made that we are ji muis wor....
so now wat

last time whenever how far we are apart...
we use msn to communicate
and now we are ONLY within 500 metres away (IT IS LESS THAN TAT I AM PRETTY SURE)
we communicate less
no contact
no communicate

i don't want anyone to misunderstood the situation
I am so scared i made others to misunderstood her
She is not as cold as what u guys think
It is just tat.... the feeeling is not like last time
It is different
Things has changed.... and so do someone changed!!!
and we only meet once a week
compare with last time 5 days a week
msn almost .... all nite!!! (well that doesn't work for 2 months though)

we are near near near.....
bt we only meet one week once for less
talk less than 10 sentence (i guess)
So days by days
weeks by weeks
and months ... years ....
and we might be the 'HI-BYE' frend kind
So where the fuck is the commitment that we all said, planned, suggested went??

If you read this, you should who you are
I just want to type this out
and let it out.... i wanted to write it somewhere else
but.... since there are not much people readin this blog here
so i might as well write it here to let the people who might misunderstood and the subject that i wish she can know
I am not trying to be rude or something... i just want to... (as my title said) let it out
Cuz it has been hauting me for weeks,
suffering from dunno what's goin on
dunno what to do next
and the question WHY????????

So we are all busy people...
life makes someone busy
and when the person are busy
they will slowly forget what n who they have gone thru
*slap myself hard* @_@
THIS IS THE REAL WORLD GIRL

THIS IS REALLY THE REAL WORLD
maybe they are also being structured... ( i am so sick of the truth n reality in a film/documentary....being confused by the tutor in documentary class.... and makes me questioned what are REAL)

and So... now i hv met the REAL WORLD....
They are so .... "chi gek" that makes ur life goes ups n downs....
why??
becuz the player in SIM CITY wants to make the human life grow stronger

I ever thought i can be like so happy after going abroad
I ever thought i will be over enjoy my life here in Perth
I ever thought i can do things that i never when i am in msia

and so now... my life goes on... routinely
bt my mental really suffers frm .... frustration

Wassup lately!!

Wassup to me lately!!! I am now at Perth, studying, alone...... alone.... and alone..... people see me "wah got a good life wor, can travel to so far, study abroad, go here n there, so lucky la, so fun la!!!"

Well.... that is what people see in me, but nobody knows what is really "IN" me....

It is not what i hv expected, it is out of my expectations... something that really makes me frustrating, bt well, wonder what is going on with that???

Something planned, bt it din happen here after i got here!!!

Disappointment, alot of disappointment..........

that is one of the story

another is i do really miss my family n friends back in KL or Malaysia, i miss what we get to do in the weekends and weekdays, here all u got is to be alone, alone and alone, if u get to find things to do, that would be party at nite... all nite long, which only the mat salleh will do, and only the mat salleh will party with mat salleh!!! And if we go to party everyday or every weekends, our bank account gonna hurt so bad, and so do our parents account gonna hurt as bad as ours.

what to do?? Sitting in my room, all alone after a so called "dinner with friends".... and it is god damn early, sometimes we ended at 7:30pm, sometimes it is 8 or 9pm.... then after that u've got all nite long for ur own, thinking where the fuckin of my frend went???? It is even worse on thursday, friday, saturday nite... no one in the house, everyone went out, and dunno where they went.

Waitin... still waitin

waiting for something to happen,
waiting for something special ....

i've been waiting for years
and should i wait again
or discover myself?

Why?

Why i am so proud of myself??
becuz i get to complaint to the store manager, and tell them the whole happening, and also discuss with him how to avoid tis from happening again and me as the sacrificer.

It is a long talk with after he went to check with the security TV, and he found nothing .... i request for watching just a while, but he said "due to security reason..." can't let me in n watch it!!!

Oh well, his way of communicating with me, and the way of telling me wat he saw in the video, i find it pleasant, that is why i can calm myself and not getting mad at all, just feeling a bit rugi, and not really satisfied with this kind of things can happened again (those who got stolen din report to him, so tis makes the situation worse)

So this really taught me, everything u should report do the person in the highest level, not report to the people who work for it, especially people who dun really hv responsible of making any report to the manager, their kind of working attitude really make me sick.... that is also why more and more people got into the trap.

Watever it takes, i am so damn proud of myself for telling the whole thing, discuss the thing, and hv a long talk with the store manager infront of everyone....!!! Though i am abit shaky when my first first first time talk with him.

Proud of myself

I am so proud of myself.... today

Fuck the Carrefour management & Security

I don't know how to start and what to say, basically, my phone has been stolen today in the staff room of Carrefour Cheras.

Now, who to blame, myself or what??!!

The first day i went to work, they already told us cannot bring in our handphone into the supermarket, but we can put it into our bag... which they allow us to put our bag on a table with lots of stuff ... !!!

The is not the first time ppl's belongings being stole, and something surprised you, they 2 cctv in the staff room, one shooting the entrance, and another one it is focus on the bag table .... and of cuz another thing to surprise you is that the table is infront of the security desk (which is 24 hours occupied)

With so many high gadgets guarding for us, and tight securities .... THIS KIND OF CASES CAN HAPPENED!!!!

I went to work at 1pm, this is the last time i saw my phone ... and i din take it out when i went in too ... Then i am god damn busy with the stock loading, changing places, and moving around, carrying heavy stock, hurt my hand with several light cuts, then finally the last stock we need to move exhausted us, this is when i realised my phone was gone, it is 3pm sumthing.

when i opened my bag, i wanted to take out my bottle to drink water, then i realised my phone is no longer there, this is not the first time i felt this way, some other time, when i opened my bag i din see my phone i tot it has been stolen, but it was hidden under my purse which i din get to see. But for tis time ... this kind of hope din appear.... it is totally gone, missing, stolen!!!!

Suddenly, my tears broke down, and i can't stop myself from crying, though i am already holding on the tears to fall. I am damn mad, and angry and at the same time need to maintain a stable emotion ... but it is hard... some staff there saw me like this and ask me what wrong... this is when the whole staff room know what was going on. Then some security asked some details from me, the time and all and they said they will go and check from the CCTV (which is useless).

Until abt 8:30pm, i went to find that lady security who said she will watch the tape for me, and investigate it!! What i get the answer were, "too many promoters la, cannot really see, too many people go in and out, put stuff on the table and took stuff on the table" I am fighting alone there, i really dun want to believe what i've heard, i want to good reply from her, i wish to hear something good from her, i wish to hear that they found some suspect or sumthing .... but none ... then she called a higher position security, and that malay guy came and ask for the details and the situation.... I always wanted to watch the tape together with them if possible, at least this is my matter, i am sure i will watch the tape more detail and suspect everyone that have been there or have some odd action. I want to have a firm answer from them, not a reply that means "tak boleh janji la" (WTF) Then the malay guy security told me that this is not the first case, many stolen cases happened here ... (this is when my fire inside me boiling like hell, heating up, but need to hold back) then i said "sudah banyak kali!! mengapa still ada case lagi, mengapa tak boleh improve kamu punya security?" i then blah out everything (most probably) .. then they said you can't expect us standing infront of the table to watch for you.. OK this is an excuses to be honest, of cuz i know i can't expect them to stare at the table and watch for us, and i din really expect, but at least do sumthing from letting it happen again, becuase this is really NOT THE FIRST TIME.

I wanted to watch the CCTV tape, if i really can't see anything, at least i am satisfied with the whole thing, now what i get is only the story and words from the security ... how can i believe what they said are true... what if they saw it is their staff who did it and they want to cover it (they suspect promoters for quite a few times, and mostly the promoters are chinese) I believe i have the RIGHTS to watch it, because i am the victim. let me tell you their reason for not letting ppl to watch it, i asked kenapa "tak boleh, hanya securiti boleh tengok" Do you call that a reason?? you judge yourself.

I am really piss with what they told me, cuz the reply i get from them are not satisfied AT ALL. At the end of the conversation me with those securities, they then put the blame on me, they said "kamu ada tanggungjawab tau? hari pertama kami sudah beritahu yang kamu tak boleh bawa masuk headset kamu, jika kamu takut hilang jg bawa la, simpan di rumah la!!"

Stupid asshole, what is the meaning of "handphone" or "mobile devices" .... it is supposed to keep it within our hand surrounding, if keep it at home why dun call it as a "house phone" ... stupid la.. why we bring it, of cuz we have our own reason, we dun bring it to show off or sumthing, we dun bring it because we are desperate enuff to call ppl, we bring it becuz we need to receive calls and messages from the company, and of cuz some emergency!!

I am just mad that this kind of cases can happened under tight securities and CCTV .... for the CCTV of cuz i hope they can find the thief tru it and give me back my phone or money ... cuz i really dun wan my family to vomit half a thousand for another phone.

Tom is my last day, and i can't even get thru this ... why this happened now, i dun hv any free time to invetigate or make police reports ... next week is CNY, and next sunday i am flying off to Perth, i am leaving the country and this kind of bad things happen to me.... what the fuck man.

Now i hv lost all my contact (though i hv did a backup copy into my laptop that day) but .... the backup are not up to date... it dun hv WS number !!!! and of course all my precious sms from all my friends and family are LOST too!!!

Why it lost now .. when phone are important to me before i leave, keeping contact with friends are important, they might sms me with some gathering info, they might sms me with some wishes or CNY wishes, they might sms with some emergency info ..... and some of them dun hv my house phone, and basically i am not at home all the time. FUCK the thief ... may curse he or she with watever bad happen to him or her. Secondly wish the "SECURITY" will see some suspect tonite, and give me some good news tom i go to work (i know this is like 0.1%, for checking the "CCTV") .... what is the purpose of having a CCTV?? (Ah, i know to see who chit chat while working, FUCK!)

I just hate being there ... alll the bad things just happen one by one on me, becuz i am emotionally disturb, how can i concentrate on my work professionally?? i was just standing next to my partner and letting out what i am not satisfied and what i am piss at... so the manager came to me and said " I dun want to see both of you standing together, one should stand out there and another one should in here to promote my product, (pointing at me) you are not a merchandiser, do you know what "promoters" mean? Next time if i see both of you standing together, just don't work and get lost!!"

I din answer him with what he had asked ... i am just too unstable tat time, and i really want to "get lost" from there, dun wan to see his face for sure. Fucker mediteranne sea head or badman, he is just a typical supermarket fucker who care how his product sell ... and bias too, look down on Pepsi product and he really prejudice on us (Pepsi)!!!

Lastly FUCK the thief for sure. Fuck until his ass can't even put in a Nokia 8310.

He appeared in a NOT RIGHT time...

Before i decided to work, i never think of anything else, just plain work (experience) and CASH $$$, nothing else ... and be prepare for my leaving for Perth ... cuz it is my dream that i dreamt of all along.

Right now ... i ... hv met someone at the supermarket .... not to say ... what (argh i dunno how to say)

Ok... i am kind of intersted in this guy, who born in the same year, month and week with me ... just ONE day difference, and i am one day older than him ... ok this is not a matter ... but we do shared a same horoscope, and of cuz we do hv some similiarities.

He is not really handsome like Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt, but he is a OK looking guy (well i prefer the hair he has before he cuts it... cuz the current hairstyle cut by the "ah neh", means cut at a indian barber shop, which all guys won't satisfied with their cutting skill and service)

Talking about quality, he is educated (studied form 6, so not bad in studies), and not a loser kind of guy ... so far from what i have observed, he is someone i think we can be friend .... BUT WHY NOW .... WHY NOW only i met him, and i'll be leaving in 2 weeks time, and after one week he'll be going back to his hometown, then our friendship will stop ..... I hve been living in Msia for almost 20 years, but never met such a nice guy before ... and now it is too late to let anything happen or "improve", and whenever we are working, we are not allowed to walk or go around to another section ... I am at the carbonated drinks section, and he is at the alcohol section, which is quite far away, but sometimes we do have one hour or half an hour dinner together with all the gang. This is how we knew each other and probably knew more abt each other, but it is not enuf ....

It's all started since the first dinner that we had together, i don't know him, they don't know us ... i was planning to buy mixed rice outside and eat at the staff room with my friend, then he and another girl and another guy were eating there, then they ask us to sit together and eat... that's when i knew they knew my birthdate n his .... Just becuz he saw my IC number at the registration book, and he think it is so familiar as his IC number also almost the same, mine 850612.. and his 850613, then he told his friends abt it, and when i sit down with them at their table, then his friend ask me when is my birthday ... It's kinda weird to ask someone birthday at the first meeting ... then i said mine, and they said "Wow .. same as his, but one day difference... blah" then they are like starting to make fuss of it ... bt they then explain they already knew my birthdate b4 i told them .. I am like WAH check on me ah .... shocked me abit!! but then they explain the whole scenario la ...

After all the hi and bye thingy, or some coincident dinner together .... of cuz chatted and knew each other much ... but i dunno why the friends always like linking me with him ... just like yesterday when he is talking, then i agree with his fact and they are like "wah so fast help him say things ah ... " erm .. in this kind of embarrassing situation ... what to act leh ... but well I din't meant to help him explain, but it is the fact that i agree with, or other wise when i said sumthing, he added sumthing, then they said "he always stand on my side" .... erm well ... dunno what to do, but just dun THINK TOO MUCH ....

Erm... sometimes i think, i am thinking too much ... It is the "Too Much" that makes me go crazy ... but afterall he is really a nice guy to have....

That day he get my phone number, i am like ... "erm..." (basically thinking too much again!!) then the next day was his off day, so i am kinda like a bit disappointed, that nite itself, i've got one sms from him, not a sms that type by himself, is that kind of msg that with a meaning of "he can be a true friend of mine" ... at first i dunno who send me this msg, cuz i din get his number, so i ask who is this, but in my heart i suspected is him lah!! ... So it really appear to be him, but in a shy way... hehe, he said he scared if he tell me his name i won't know (which i DO know his name) and then he said he is the tiger beer promoter, and greeted me with some good nite n sweet dreams thing .... (it melted my heart .... wahahaha) Then received another sms from him the next nite with some funny n naughty CNY msg ... which just made me laugh and giggle from the beginning of the msg till the end ... (i tasted the sweet of the sweetnest ... ahem)

Sometimes we just din really have a chance to chat ... cuz all the while we are having dinner together with the whole gang. Sometimes we just need to give urself some chance. One day, i saw a bottle of red wine leave by a customer at the sparkling juice shelf (which really not a matter of mine, but the sparkling juice shelf near to my section ... so... ) so... i am dead bored at my own place, my partner went for dinner, and i am alone there ... so i took it and wanted to put it back on the original shelf, where it is at the alcohol section ... I walk all the way there, just wanted to put the wine, and basically want to like say hi ONLY .... or visit their booth la!! So there is only him and another girl promoter, and so the girl promoter saw me and she was so excited and welcome me to their boring place ... haha, then i hang around there for quite a long time too ... 3 ppl chat there, with lots of hidden camera shooting us ... suddenly that girl promoter said need to go to the toilet ... urgent!! and she wanted me to stay there and wait there until she comes back, reason is to help her watch her product... bt well kind of a stupid reason actually, cuz i know nothing abt her product, not even the price, bt why ask me to help her instead of him, of cuz he will know the price better than me ... but after all i do stayed there, and chatted with him, just 2 of us there ... (kind happy actually ... long time dun hv this kind of feel la) Then at nite, 30mins before my off duty time, he's off already, but he needs to wait for an auntie to go to the LRT station, so he stopped at our section and we chatted again .... I dunno why, i DO enjoy talking with him, cuz got good feeling and i also dunno why, why we really look into the other person eyes and talk. *Happy*

Sunday nite, i accidentaly check on a daily romantic horoscope, and ... it is something like this "Your inventive, creative side should have a field day with everything the stars serve up. Watch for romantic sparks in unexpected spots -- possibly given off by your own crazy combustion. "

So for today, i din really expect much, but just wanted and eager to see him ... I dunno whether i did creat for this or IT IS really a coincident... we met for 8 times today, particularly at the store room...
1. I saw him walking to somewhere ... so i wanted to go n see where he is going, i walk out of my section n see... but see nothing of his shadow. Then i go back to my section with disappointment, then bump into him... he is at my section... and ask me whether i saw a staff.

2. me and my partner went down and took stock to replenish stock, when we went down there, he is already there, and then he come over to our area ... and talk sumthing, and see how my partner perfom circus show .. (he is climbing up and down just to reach the stock at the top), he help abit ... and passing one of the stock to me ... (his hand are quite cold actually ... ) but he is sweating anyway, cuz he is also taking stock for his product (lots of it) ... Then we done and we went back to the shelf ... he then continue on his job

3. After replenish all the stock we taken from the stock room, i found out we left one stock, and we need to go down and take it, my partner he was tired and hungry, so i just go down myself and take it. Then i go down, and he is still there ... oh man ... kinda happy actually, but this time got some other staff around and help him la. Becuz i need to climb up to take the stock, when he first saw me go down there again, of cuz he noticed me, and also ask whether i can get it, basically offering help to me ... but becuz he is busying with his stuff and i just want to climb and play with the climbing ... and then i took it, it was kinda hard, (i dunno how to explain here, cuz there are just covered with lots of other stock...) Then i am done, prepare to go to the lift, and then he came in too, with his whole bale and sweaty forehead. Erm ... the lift contain of me n him, stock and other ppl too ... but we do chat a bit la!! and i also remind him of his shoelace, and ask why his shoe colour is not black, that is when i know what shoe he is wearing today.

4. Been visiting the stock room for quite some time, hoping to see him (cuz his area are near to the stock room) but din bump into him, cuz he is busy with his stuff. Then i need to go down and take another stock, he is not there ... bt my mind were thinking sumthing abt what if i met him when i go up .... then took the lift again ... this time i am alone in the lift ... ( thinking too much again) then when the life door going up ... Oh man !! I saw his shoe .... slowly slowly when the lift door finish open, it was him again ... and he said "u again, so bc ah" (i m so shocked... and ask myself is tis faith... why we are meeting for so many times today, bt actually i wanted to ask his email add, or msn or icq that sort of stuff, if get to meet him, cuz i am so shy to ask in front of the gang la ... but everytime also forget to ask)

5. It is going to be our dinner time, but is not a fix time, since my partner said he is god damn hungry, so he might want to eat earlier. Then i wanted to know what is his dinner time too ... After replenish the stock i took just now, i need to throw the plastic bag, so i need to go to the stock room again .... this time when i first enter the stock room, i bump into him again, he just got out from the lift ... and of cuz saying things like what a coincident.... then he walk off, but i turn back and ask him what time he will go n eat ... then of cuz .. succeeded in asking him to accompany me, if not he will eat at the my usual time (i swap my time with my partner today)

6. After i throw the rubbish, i need to wash my hand ... then i saw him washing his hand too ... ahhahaha bump into him again.

There are one time that i will bump into him at the staff room, actually i saw him went to the toilet, so i walk around at my section, and wanted to go to the staff room and drink water, then i wanted to walk out of my section, i saw him going back to the staff room ... so i dun want to go ... cuz suddenly i felt like ... we met too much within 30 mins, just dun felt like bump into him again in this short duration... cuz need to cool myself down abit .. not to get too excited!!!

7. So walking around at my section boringly ... then i went to the front there, cuz the coke promoter are hanging sumthing, so i went there and see, just after i reach there, saw him again .... !!!!

I think i am typing too much here .... but what i wanted to say today we just bumped into each other too much .... and they are all coincindent ... not i purposely go n meet him!!!

Today my time past so fast and excitedly ... cuz waiting for the time to reach the dinner time is like so ... fast, it is like I am waiting for sumthing to happen .... got goal, got mission, got aim ... just make ur life goes easier .... now, going to work is like ... a kind of joy.. hahaha!!! But another i wanted to say.... he just appear into my life in a not right time .... if only we can still remain friends after the job, and after i leave for Perth.

Enjoy

Enjoy the time when i drove around alone at the dusk ... though it is sunny, and it shine into ur eyes which made you hard to see ... but the colour that the sun made out .... it is GOD DAMN BEAUTIFUL .... sunset are beautiful ...

Driving alone in that time, listening to your favourite radio station, with a nice car, of cuz with cool air-con... just drive it no matter how bad the traffic are, singing to the songs, makes you feel so enjoy and happy!!!

I really wish to try driving across the region from west to east, like the USA or Aus .... when you reach the inner part of the country, what you will see are the deserts, having a damn hot weather, and you are probably sweating just like hell (but sometimes when you are enjoying, sweating being a part of enjoy too!!) .... sometimes if you are lucky, you might get to see some wild animals enjoying their own life at their "home" (the outback) ... us looking at the straight straight road, the road without an end ... seems like your destination far far away from you.

I know this sounds abit crazy .... who would like to sit in a car for up to 10 days??? Who would like to drive for 10 straight days? ... yeah crazy people .. hahaha

However, the nite there seems a bit scary ... no lights, no human, no animals, dunno whether got ghost or not... just you and your car ....It is scary!! Cuz i tried once, with my family, driving into some forest in Langkawi before arrive at the luxury hotel .... that was scary!!!!

Update

I start working since 15th of january, ever since then.... everyday i am having life without dinner with family, TV with family, weekend outting with family .... argh!!! Gotta sacrifice all this ...

and before i start work, i need to prepare lotsa things ... cuz after i start working, i dun even have free time to shop, and buy things for my departure for Perth!!

Been starting to eat food that mostly i won't get it in Perth, especially those delicious food .... yummy!!!

This is my first time working, and i worked in a supermarket, so much to say, supermarket should be fun, cuz got lotsa things to see, lotsa food... and most probably everything u needed!!! But well ... i am there to promote Pepsi, and i can't drink or touch COKE (which is my favourite carbonated drink) and also 100 Plus!! Cuz they are all our competitors product, however, they are doing too well .... our product ...!!! Haha (sarcasticly) still need some space for improvement.

That is why... after the weekend doing sampling, which i found this is kinda fun, cuz u gotta drink and basically not really a boring work... but then, we dun have sampling on the weekdays, so the first monday .... IT IS DEAD BORED ... i am like standing infront of the shelf, or walk along THAT shelf street.... inside my heart screaming "HELP ME I AM DEAD BORED HERE, GET ME OUTTA HERE!!" the worst part was watching the F&N promoter busying all day long, their product are selling better than us, so they need to replenish the stock all the time ... and us, sufferring from boring ..... I hate nothing to do when you are bound with rules and all, no chit chat, can't seat down, can't walk around.... I rather sit at home doing nothing than standing there doing nothing, the difference is there are salaries!!! But i dun like to suffer myself from boring to earn ... makes me felt like i am not supposed to earn their money, cuz i am doing nothing!!

After Monday, i hv a feeling of quitting the job ASAP, calculating when to stop working and how much i can get. ... Now that it's been a week, and yup i get used to it, and we are getting more things to do, cuz now they have stock for us to replenish, and we get to go down to the stock room .... hehe (curi tulang there) and of cuz, made some friends, so won't get bored so easy!

The most fun part is to play with the trolley that carries stock ... haha, love to play with that cuz get to pull that thing, other wise, i stand on it and my partner pull it .... hahaha just like playing lah ... i know one day we will get scold by sumone.

So today i take a break from work, so that i can work longer .... just because i have a nice excuses of going back to college for the pre-departure briefing. Going back to college makes me feel so good, cuz there is the place where the YOUTH power explode ... young people all around, and gotta sit down to listen to the briefing, abit excited about it, after all it is 3 weeks from today to leave for Perth!!! .... hahhaha i think Chip damn nervous and worry alot of things .... !!! Well mommy daddy and boyfriend's baby is like this la!!

Feel so glad and relief that i got to sit at home in the evening, waiting for the dinner ... hahaha!!!

Why???

Why slacks ... they are so ugly and awfully uncomfortable!!!??? to save money, so i dun wan to buy new slacks, after all i dun wear them, so i borrow it from others ... but why the cutting is like tis??!! Errr ...... very uncomfortable, can't even breath

Pan Mee

Hahaha.... this morning went to EPF for interview, then after that wanted to go to eat that special chicken chop, but they din open on monday, so drive to chow kit to eat that chilli "pan mee" ... haha finally i get to eat it. me n my mom , i ordered 3 bowl, cuz normally it portion damn small... but this time i ordered 3 bowls, for 2 person ... it is abit full actually, so i ordered it, then i got to finish them .. haha i was like wanted to finish it forcefully, then my mom said, if can't finish dun force urself .. haha

so i admit i am abit greedy, wanted to eat as much as i can, so that can satisfied, this is such a stupid thinking... too full made me feel uncomfortable la!! Back home felt headache ... i know it is not caused by the food la, maybe i sleep too lil ( is actually not lil, just i din get 10 hours sleep ... )

haha i m sleeping like a pig, if i din get 10 hours sleep now, i am not in a good mood then. aih... holiday for so many weeks n months.. my sleeping time adjusted to be like this .. a lazy pig sleeping time.

I wonder how i cope it when i start my work, though haha my work starts at 1pm still can sleep until 11 sumthing, but my usual wake up time is 1pm ... *sob**sob*

Hectic Sunday

Today is my last free sunday until CNY, today we hv a list of places to visit, so it might be very busy.

1. C a show house in Balakong
2. go to SS2 to eat Curry mee
3. Subang Parade to buy sunglasses (why there, cuz can claim from office)
4. Supermarket
5.Furniture shop
6. Grandma hse

woke up early in the morning at 10am ... haha i know it is not early, but to me it is early, and i dunno why last nite, i couldn't sleep early. ... ish!! i am suffering with insomnia.

We were idling at the show house from 11 sumthin til 12 sumthing .. we spend a pretty long hours there!!

Then head to SS2 to eat curry mee ... why there?? cuz they hv the penang jalan satu ratus curry mee ... so Penang curry mee is diff with the curry mee in KL. Although the taste that offered in the PJ branch couldn't satisfied us, no matter how, the head stall is the best.

Then Subang Parade .... i hv tried many many design of sunglasses, but my different kind or weird shape face made me hard to chose one.

In the end i choose one design which is a bit stylish and look like superstar that kind, but the colour of the lenses not dark enuff, cuz Australia sunlight very strong. So in the end, the promoter gave me try on this ZeroX sunglasses (the Leo Ku brand) ... and it has UV protection and polarized lenses, and it is dark enuf to block the sunlight, i look ok with it too .. so got that!!





never thought of buying this brand, the design from Burberr, Guess, DKNY and CK .. they are so nice .. but bad enuf, they are god damn expensive!!! Though we can claim the fees from the office, but my dad office only offer RM150 on glasses .. so for this one that i bought, we also need to pay for the outbalance.

I am so tired, and yet we need to walk around, and i also need to think what i needed to buy for my leaving. Bought a small round pillow ... err, maybe consider it as a small bolster, it is very small, so it can be a pillow .. so that i can easily fall asleep without my big n long bolster... Ahhh... can't imagine how to survive my nites without it!!!

We forgot to go to the furniture, which we are supposed to go to look for a new sofa set. cuz the one we are using ... it is badly injured !!! HAHahahah

Desperately got the job

Ok i forget about the job, cuz yesterday they din call up, means i am not going to get the job, so i was thinking whether i go to find a new job, but i m thinking maybe i just dun go to work, just stay at home like a lazy ass and probably clean up my room n pack my stuff.

While i was walking at Lot 10, SUDDENLY Ailing called me, she told me excitedly that she just got a call from that comp and she got the job, i am like AHHH.... then she ask me to wait for it, they might call me .... ok so i wait, it is like a hope has arise, so i wait, wait wait and wait, i can't even pay attention while shopping around, i was like touching my phone whether it will vibrate, pay attention listen to my phone rings .... half an hour pass ... no call, another hour pass no call too ...

Then i desperately called Ailing and ask her to ask for me whether my name in the list or not, then we discuss abit ... cuz if i ask myself, it seems like i am very desperate... so wish she could help me to call, whether i get or not, at least i can hv a firm answer and dun need to wait for the answer to reveal.

Then she called back and ask me to call a number, cuz the person she called dun hv my name in his list. So i called, and finally i got it!! Why i am not in the list:
1. Almost every outlet in Cheras taken
2. i dun hv my own transport to go anywhere further
3. they dunno which part of Cheras i live
4. they are not sure about me!!

So i called up and ask for it, then they gave me some place to locate myself ... and finally i got it in Carrefour Cheras ... at last!!!

Now, the problems are, i dun hv a holiday, not even one day off per week, so i dun hv my weekend to spend with my family, and the job duration is started from 15 Jan - 8 Feb. I can't work on 8 Feb, cuz i hv already booked a ticket to penang in the morning, then from there starts my hectic schedule until 13 feb.

And another problem is, i need to hv free time to pack my stuff, now that i hv a list to go on, and it seems like i hv lots to pack, lots to prepare, and lots to bring too!! So how am i going to find a day or 2 to pack them.

Then another problem is i want to go to eat those delicious food, i want to eat that chicken chop at chow kit, this is a diff kind of chicken chop, this is not those western style chicken chop, they added with some oriental style and some chinese taste in it, and make it taste differently and deliciously. I start eating them since the age of 5, when i went for my piano class. Then another food i wanted to eat is the chilli "pan mee", this is absolutely diff from others "pan mee", it is dry and it eats with their specially made chillis ... Umm ... i want to eat them before i left for Perth.. i am so gonna miss those food!!!

So now that i hv 4 days left, i really need to start to pack my stuff and everything, if not by that time i will be kelam kabut, cuz ... i really dun hv any other free time on CNY.

Erm... need to find some nites to gather with my friends, if not ... byebye la!!

Done with the editing

Finally, i hv spend 3 days to finish the music video that we shoot last month, this time, this videa gave some problem, cuz i hv no enuf footage to fit in, and basically the footage seems like almost the same ... so this time arnd, i hv learn something new, so this time i applied some effect in it and make it look cool and feel fresh!! hahah

here is the sneak preview of the video, u can dl it or open the video from this link then view it and gimme some comment
http://www.angelfire.com/ct3/carv/Brand_new_day_-_net_version.wmv

It is a song from Forty Foot Echo, called 'Brand New Day' .. Umm i heard it from 'Freaky Friday' soundtrack.

Sometimes music or songs from a soundtrack sounds damn good, cuz it brings u to the atmosphere and the feel of that movie. I love 'Crazy/Beautiful' soundtrack, cuz it sounds so much diff than any others .. and basically made me feel wat the movie gotta tell and all that ... feel is very important!!

Interview

Yesterday i called up a marketing comp, they are now hiring promoters to promote Pepsi new product. after getting to know where it is, and the salary really pretty attractive ... RM1700 for working full 25 days ...

Then i tot of Ailing, cuz she also indeed needed for money and time consumed ... so i ask her, and yeppie ... she is going for the interview together with me.

so today went for the interview .. how to say!!

I am not nervous ... pretty calm and natural. cuz we're the last to interview and we din go thru the real interview, we just sat outside and that guy told us abt it, and what he told us, really disappoint me!! He said, right now the vacancy is full, and they dunno whether they want to hire more promoters ... then again we're in the 'OK' list ... gotta wait for him to call tom, to c whether we got it or not ....

aih.... all the way to bangsar, and filling in all my details for them, even reveal my weight ... luckily din tell them my 3 line numbers.

Laziness floating arnd

Again ..... and again .... the laziness with me never try to get away with me and disappear from me ... Argh i hate it when it comes to me.

i slept till almost 1pm again, what kind of new year is this, my new year started off with a lil bit of sickness, desperation and laziness ... how can handle them if they are haunting for this whole year, i want to have a fun year after all, and a new me, more motivation will do!!

yesterday, i am supposed to go out and look for a job, bt then i am lazying arnd at home... and wasted the time i hv in the afternoon... then until today i told myself i gotta go out n look for a job. i wanted to wake up earlier, so tat i can prepare my mood for it ... bt then again, nothing has change in me, slept until alomst 1pm ... i felt shame abt it actually.

bt then, i did go out and look for a job, i went to jaya jusco maluri to try to look for a job, took a bus down there, then of cuz i am abit nervous ... i hv been walking around jaya jusco for dunno how many rounds, bt my eyes were looking at those shops' door, to see whether they hv stick out a paper for hiring.

it turn out badly, cuz i din really saw much of it, i saw a camera shop and a spec shop, afterall i am just working for nearly a month, i dun wan to spend their resources n money n time on me. Then i saw this paper outside PDI, i was looking at it from far, whether it is a vacancy available... then i saw someone from the inside staring at me, she is a worker there too, bt then she is my high school junior lah ... though i dunno her, bt the faces looks familiar mah!! ... so while she was staring at me, i quickly get my asses out from her vision.

then i saw this cafe, a new opened cafe looking for waitress. i m thinking whether i wan to go in and ask or not, bt then i walked for several rounds, i saw almost all of them are Malays .. not that i hv races discrimination (a lil bit la), but working with all Malays might be hard!!! can't communicate and basically i *** ****** **** **** .... Muahahaha!!!

then went to MPH and bought back a mag ... DAMN IT!!

New Year New LOOk

After feeling so damn depressed over the afternoon, i decide to turn on my computer and blog ... then i decide to change the whole template and everything ... wah this really take a very long time to complete it ....

I started searching for template at about 2pm sumthing, then found one template, and need to edit here and there, fix this and that, add this and that.... take a break at 8pm -11pm for Astro, dinner and bath.

Then 11pm come back again and start to fix it again!!!

It is not easy ...but it really bring back my mood .... while i am doing this, i dun feel so much depressed, and i am coming back alive!!!! my mood is back .... maybe also becuz chat with someone that long long ago din appear online!!! but damn it la .... no ending one!! .. suddenly offline wor ... Argh !!!

Aih .. now only i complete it, about 2:30am ... hahah 12 hours of hardwork .... my backache come back again ... damn it !!!

Hah .. but well, this is a new look, hope u guys will like it... though this is darker and more photos ... hehe!!!

Lonely

Been having some noisy days months ago....

Now, that everyone starts school, works, everyone .. my bro, friends (school and training) .... lonely la!!!

Today woke up at 1pm .... dunno what makes me sleep until so late, but yet i remember i hv lots to do today, need to go down to Sg. Wang to take the hood that i forgot to take when i pay, need to start to look for job, need to call IDP for a letter for EPF, need to call AVIVA insurance, n need to call to radio 4 ... oh gosh ... i nearly forgot this, gotta do tis first.

Ok back, done that aviva insurance thing.

I felt a bit depressing today, dunno why, seems like i am abit lonely, the house supposed to be full of noises... but now, it is all lonesome and empty...

I felt miserable.... i dunno whether i should go all the way down to Sg. Wang to take that hoodie, just to take it, i might need to spend like hours to wait for bus, and take a bus, and walk, then do the same thing to come back home. And no one wants to accompany me... bro school la!! Frends ... one needs to start training in a hotel, another one starts college today, the other one been out yesterday, and another one said lazy to come out!!! and for the college friends, can never depend on them ... either they are tooooo far~~ away, or "TOOOO" busy to entertain a lonely people like me. Suddenly i felt like i am all alone, Astro also did give me face, no interesting programme air on TV, been changing channel for quite some times, even MTV and Channel V also cannot fulfill my sickness. Not to say tune in to CNN... got me even more depress.
This is not just a plain boring feeling, it do feel bad, depressed, the whole mood is down, i know from the beginning of a new year, the first monday of 2005 is not good... but i just can't help it... i even not apetite to eat, but i am hungry, though i ate, but .... just feel like so hard to finish the rice and the food...

It is like Torturing me like hell

Touching

Went to shopping today with PP n YY, actually not really a shoppin trip, but pp going to start her training on monday for 3 months, so she might not hv much free time like last time, so come out and gather around, YY is just for company .. haha!!!

Then i am supposed to look for a job ... but today's performance, seems to more like walking around, becuz we went there late, and suddenly mom told me today is the last day of Sales, so if i want to buy a jacket i should buy it today, and then she told my 2nd Auntie going to pay for the jacket, budget around RM200 .... WAH!! I'm like WAH... WAH... couldn't believe, they pay this much for me ... with just around ONE month time, i am going over to Perth ....

That day, X'mas i receive a gift from my another Auntie (my Uncle's wife), it is a hand-made scarf and snow cap .... it is really WARM!!! Just only the 3 diff colours of yarn that she bought, cost her abt RM80 .... and also her hardwork of sitting down everyday, with lots of patient and energy, this is really WARM


this is how it look

and that day, when my grandma from Penang come down to KL, before she left KL that day, she gave me a ang-pau, at first i dun wan to take, cuz old people mah, where got money to give here n there wor!! But she forced me to take it ... then ok i put it aside
Then i told my mom about it one day, then my mom ask how much she gave, i said i dunno, cuz i hvn't peek at it!! then i went and take a look ... WOW ... RM100, this is really alot from her, really alot... suddenly i felt the temperature high rise ... god damn warm ... felt so touching!!! So many people care for me ... and i am the first in the families to go abroad, i am the eldest child among the families.... now only i know how i am in their heart (now really now only know la ... knew it long long ago, especially when the day i born, cuz i am the only baby, and everyone alsoooo like me ...MUAHAHAHAH)

Then tat day bought a backpack ... finally my road or dream of being a backpacker going to fulfill ... hehehe
cuz the first step is to ... buy a backpack!!! haha


dun get conned by it looks, it is a 45liter, consider big to me, and cost me RM180.

When i went to the backpack shop to buy, i really have no idea what to buy, what brand to buy, what to consider... !!!

But one thing for sure i know, a brand named "Deuter" is consider the top brand in backpack ... a very small size, just like the size of a high school student, cost u abt RM200, then the huge and the big backpack about 70liter, can cost u abot RM1000-RM3000, this is just crazy .. but the design damn chun and of cuz damn comfortable.

So back to today's shopping ....
i bought a jacket for RM98 in Sg. Wang and forgot to take the hoodie which is attach with the jacket, and bought a beanie too ... haha now i hv 4 in total... cuz i love them not becuz i am bald or lost my hair ... curly hair people also need to cover their ugly and messy hair OK!!
Then i din find a job, though i went to ask one shop, but i am too honest and tell them i will only work for a month!! Stupid .... sometimes we need to tell some whitelie

then PP bought her girdle and a beanie too (same design with mine but diff colour), and YY forcefully bought a shirt ... keke!!!

2005

A sleep at the nite, here we comes to the brand new year of 2005, 2005 gotta be a change in my life i believe .... nothings gonna be the same after february

last nite BBQ at grandma place, i can't really go near the pit, cuz the heat make me felt so uneasy, but then again it is also nice to gather around at the end of a year and welcome another new year as usual, been doing this for several years, except for 2001/2002, 2003/2004 this 2 years went to countdown at bukit bintang.

today hv steamboat at my uncle's house, em... maybe it is going to be my last steamboat before i left for Perth. the atmosphere of eating steamboat are always good, cuz u really need to gather around, chat, wait for the food, drink the tasty soup, eat those little balls ... and the chilli sauce, special made!! EM.... nice nice nice

while waiting for the food to be cooked!! Suddenly dunno what topic made my mom and my 2nd aunt tell their childhood story .. hahaha just wanna luff, cuz the thing they played also just like our childhood, role playing game is always the game for children to play no matter what century. Maybe that is what made us know how to act and everything .... hahaha
but just look at the children today, they play PS, PC, watch Astro Cartoon, play luxury toys .... erm... i think children shouldn't born with all this stuf.